I was a poem writer when I was studying. I earn a lot of trophies being a scriptwriter, I was fan of novels and I prefer to read the story in the book rather than watching it in a moving picture.
In that way I started to know myself very well. I always have my diary even they are not a academic requirement. I found myself in what I write. I write rather than sharing my feelings to others. I write every beautiful verse that sinks in my mind specially when I have all my time for MYSELF.
However, I lost everything. Everything I write and everything that sinks in my mind never pop up again. I was busy in the realty world. I was busy in my everyday life. I forgot everything. I didn't know that in that way I lost myself too.
I just noticed when I started to have trouble in myself. I observed that its hard for me to express what I feel when im talking, literally when we talk we're free to say anything, I'm vocal but not when I'm hurt and not when I'm sad. Everytime I argue to someone specially to my boyfriend or husband it's hard for me to tell what I really want it's hard for me to think, what I want to say don't want to come up in my mouth. I discovered this when I started to chat him, I was amazed that I expressed all my feelings and all that I want to say, this is the time that I realized that I forgot to write and I forgot myself. I lost all the years that I didn't give some time for myself.
Now, I'm starting again. Evertime I feel something, I will give it a time to hold my pen. I'm starting to feel comfortable now. I started to be myself again. I can see myself again in my writings. I'm happy and relaxed now.
I'm so much relieved that I discovered this site. To share myself. To share my writings and to share my everyday life.
I'm new in this site now and I'm happy to be here. I can read a lot of stories, articles and reading that will really help me to grow. Thank you read.cash because now I saw where I'am belong. ❤️