Introduction

Everyone has a different stories of their own love stories, some of us called it puppy love just because it usually happens when we are all young. Everyone of us has a different definition of the word Love. You? How do you call it love ? It is when you feel happy with that person? Or when you feel happy for that person even you are not the reason of his/her happiness? Is it ok to love the person who doesn't love you the way you love him/her? Is it ok to give everything you have just to make sure that he/she never ever leave you alone? And is it ok that he never loved you despite of all your love and efforts?

Did you ever try to love? And to be loved? It so happy right? This is the best feeling ever that the someone you love can give his/her whole love to you. How about let's talk about your first love? The one who says he/she love you for the first time? The one who steal your first kiss and you feel you are safe in your first hugs? The one who gives you your first 'kilig' moment and tell you how much she/he loves you and the one you can tell that you have an Almost A Love Story with.

Let me tell you about my own first love, my own so called my one that got away. It sounds so cringe right. But I want to tell you a secret about my first ever love.

My First love

All of us has our own First ever Love the one who we always think that we last until forever, yes! That's what I always wanted when we are together, Let's give him a name 'H'. H is a very good man, we only last 2 years but we already know each other very much. H is a tall, dark and somehow handsome, yes he is. He has a beautiful eyes that always sparkling when we see each other and a very cute nose, I really really love his nose and eyes and his very soft lips, by the way he is also my first kiss.

I will tell you how our first kiss happens. It happens one time when it was raining very hard and he is in my house, his father called him to go home so I ask my father if we can give him a ride by the way we have a tricycle and luckily my father agreed. In the tricycle not intentionally we kissed, because I was about to get the umbrella which is in his side but suddenly he looked at me and our lips met each other. I feel my heart bitting so fast, it's like there's a lot of butterfly inside of my tummy. That's what I feel that time, it's feels like the whole world stopped.

We only know each tru Phone, we are text mate before and when we had a meet and greet with our friends we see each other. He started to court me in text yes, in text coz I don't want to have a very serious relationship that time because I'm just a 16 years old that time. And after a almost 1 month of courting I said yes to him, June 22, 2015 when I said yes to him. The person that I always think that I never had a serious relationship with, is the one who makes me feel that Being loved is the best thing you can ever feel.

I always tell to myself that before I let someone I love meet my parents I want to make sure that he's the one, I want to test his love and respect towards me. And that time I thought his the one for me. I always dreaming about us in the future and we started to talk about our future too. So I feel secured and contented in our relationship.

We agreed to meet our parents to be official to them, and here my parents doesn't like him and I only meet his father coz he is from the broken family. But that doesn't mean that can make our relationship broke too, I love everything about him he is very special to me. We always talking over the phone and he sang me a song that always makes me smile for the whole day, we call each other time to time, form the morning until the sun will sleep too. We both love the color blue and we have a very strong relationship because we have a lot of similarities.

He always go to our house to visit me that was the best moments of our relationship because even it is late he will go. He also walk with me after school and get my stuff so I don't need to bring anything with me, by the way I always bring all my books with me so my bag is so heavy. He's a very good man for me that's why I can't see why my parents don't want him for me, maybe because we're just too young that time? they're just being protective to me.

When we reach our 2 year anniversary all the struggle will come. His mother come back from nowhere and as a girlfriend I know how much he wanted to see his mother because he and his brother is just a kid when his mother leave them to their grandmother and when their grandmother died they go to thier father. His mother want them to go with her to her house which is far away from our place.

February 8, 2017 is the saddest day of our relationship, we bid good bye to each other afternoon that time we walk from school and we covered by silent that time and when we reach my house I cooked for him and we eat together but no one dares to start our conversation so I broke the silent and tell him 'what we gonna do?' he just stared at me and his eyes were started to get wet. He might be crying anytime and I don't want to see him crying so I give him a drink and I smile to him and say 'I love you, we still together nothing will change'.

But I see how worried he is to me, yeah! because Im the one who left behind, he leaves me for his mother but that's ok. Even I want to be selfish and I want to say and beg to him to choose to stay and choose me too. I really really want him to stay that time because admit it or not Long distance relationship is not a joke we need to be strong to survive.

After we eat we just sit and he started to cry, I want to cry too but I don't want him to see that Im crying too coz I know it can make him hard to leave me so I remain silent because I know once I open my mouth my tears will going to flow and I don't have the power to control it.

'Let's call each other time to time'

'Don't see other man while Im not around'

'I will visit you, I Promise'

'I love you'

That was the most painful I love you that I've heard from him, everytime he tell me he loves me he always kiss my forehead and makes me feel I deserve that respect but that time he just looking down at the floor.

I held his face with both of my hand and look him at his eyes and said 'yes' to him while smiling and I controlling my tears not to flow. That was a long time ago but still makes me sad.

February 8, 2017 at night they leave and he called me while in the trip and I can't help it but to cry. I can't control my tears and I can't tell to my self that Im Ok that time.

Time passed and everything changed to how it used to be. Our Call and Text time to time become 'I will text you again bye!' . His 'I love you' turn into 'Thank you!' and everytime he said that back to my I love you it feels my heart break into hundreds of pieces. He change because he see someone else and I think she's better than me.

March 3, 2017, when we both agreed to end our relationship. Then one time I opened my Social media account and I see how happy he is to his new girlfriend. They become in relationships March 5, 2017 that's just 2 days after our break up and that was the most painful part of being in love to someone who can't love you back again. While I am still hoping that we can be together again but there he is telling to the whole world how in love he is.

Our almost a love story was end in just a short period of time. H may not be my first love but he has all my first (except s*x of course) he's my first kiss, hug and my first and biggest heart break.

Message to 'H'

Hi there! How have you've been? It's been a 5 years I guess? We still friend on Facebook but never been talking again we both happy on where we are now. We both know that we loved each other and we both know that even we were a part we still have a part in our heart. I always praying for you success and for your future.

Hope you are fine coz I am now, I'm fully healed and can look at your eyes without any pain to feel. And gor what you've done to me? You are forgiven.

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This is the end of our relationship but not our stories.

I will write the continuation of this soon just stay and thank you. I hope I will here you stories too.

NOTE: Hi! Im not Good in English but I tried so please respect and Im open with some corrections. Thank you