Maybe Writing Is Just Not For Me

When you thought everything started to go your way but you're wrong again.

Not long after we moved in here, I had the intense determination and courage to finally start my freelancing career. I was so eager to look for clients online. I reached out to people I know who have already established their careers in the freelancing industry.

I compiled the articles that I thought were considerable enough to showcase my potential in writing. I sorted out my certificates back in the years when I was still working as a Technical Support Agent in Convergys and as an IT Instructor at ACLC Davao.

I created my profile as detailed as it should be. I signed up to numerous websites as many as I could. To be honest, it was a bit tiring but I shrugged it off and covered it up with grit.

Some of them replied, but I couldn't get the initial tests done because man, I find their exams and sample writeups too hard. An article of 3,000 words for a tryout is too much for me. I could hardly accomplish an 800-word article. Yes, there are a handful of websites to help us, ChatGPT to be specific but I don't feel like using it. Maybe I just don't know how to properly maximize its potential.

Yes, I like writing but only to express what I feel. I find it hard to produce a write-up in a professional manner. I mean, expressing a professional opinion and getting through the dynamics of writing is complicated for me. Maybe writing is not just for me. I know in myself that I don't fully put my heart out in writing. I find the job tedious and I don't enjoy doing it. I feel like I'm meant to do secretarial work only. I think that's what I'm most comfortable with.

I could apply as an ESL Teacher but the scheduling is what I'm concerned about the most. This job is usually scheduled at night because of the time difference and as much as possible, I don't wanna trade my sleeping pattern. Working on a graveyard shift is tough. I have been there. It's exhausting. Lifestyle and health are greatly compromised.

I want to do singing, voiceovers, and voice acting, this is where I find myself enjoying the overall process. It's still gonna be stressful but it wouldn't be an issue that much because I like doing this job. Too bad, nobody has taken the courage yet to trust me because I'm a newbie and I can't provide them with the portfolio they're looking for.

I have tried applying for jobs on Upwork but I only ran out of connects and not even got the chance to have my proposals viewed. There are jobs available lurking anywhere on the surface but most likely, they're scams. You have to pay for a registration fee first before getting the job done. As much as possible, you wouldn't want to pull out money while on a hunt.

So now, I'm stuck. Helpless. Demotivated.

Thanks for reading.

Keep safe everyone!