I Thought I am Tough, But I am Not
Life is indeed a turmoil of struggle and pain. It never make you happy without feeling the pain. You have to fight and be firm in facing those challenges that comes in your way.
I don't know how many times I wrote an article about life, its challenges and not on giving up. I can't even count.
**"If life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reason to smile. "**
That's my favorite quote. It encourage me to fight and never give up. But today, I breakdown.
I am the kind of person who never surrender. I faced every challenges I've been encountered. I fight. Even though sometimes its tough.
The last time I felt lost was way back 2017. To be more specific, September 24, 2017. That was the time I took up the Licensure Examination for Teachers. I felt depressed. Why? Because I thought I might failed the exam. It was so hard that I felt crying. Six months? Seven months? I took up review but the day of examination, the questions are way to far from what I've reviewed. I lost the confidence to pass the exam. On my way home, thought keep appearing in my mind, but one thing keeps on popping in my mind, that I might failed it.
With heavy heart, mind and steps, I walked towards our house, I saw my mother waiting. Even I am meters away from our house, she shouted, "How was the exam?" I just smiled until I reached our house and replied, "I might failed the exam." I know my mother noticed my depressing voice. With a serious looked on her face she said, "It's okay. You can take it again next year. " That sentence makes me want to burst out crying but I stopped myself because I don't want my mother to felt sad about it. From then on, I thought to myself that I need to find a job as soon as possible. I need to help my mother. She have done so many things for as and I want her to take a rest and enjoy her life too.
And that was the start of my journey as an adult.
I decided to find a job in the city, I applied as a customer service in a BPO company. I am scared and nervous but I let it go. I endured it. What's important if a job, I need it. I badly need it. Luckly, I was hired. I was trained for almost three months. Being a call center agent was a though job, (well there's no easy job after all). Nightshift was so difficult. Its killing me but not literally. During my months of working as a call center agent, I was so stresses. I barely eat. I went to office everyday with heavy footsteps. The feeling of going because you need to and not because you want to. That's what I felt that time. And I wanted to quit, but I can't.
Month of November, the examination result was been announced. Since, I have worked at night, during day I spent my time sleeping. It never came to my mind that the results was out. I received a messages coming from my friends saying "Congratulations". I don't have any idea what are they talking about. They said that I passed the exam and I am now a teacher. I don't believed them actually cause the thought of passing the exam was I think impossible. I thought probably they were teasing me. But not until my mother called me. She said the word "Congrats you passed! " I don't know but I felt mixed emotions. After that call I search my name on web, and there I saw it. I really did passed the exam.
After knowing it, I slowly thinking to quit my job as a call center agent and focus on my chosen career, and so I did. I look for private schools and applied. After my interview at the second school where I applied, I was hired. I am happy because this is the job I only wanted. I signed a contract for three years and started my work as soon as the school year started.
As a first time teacher, its been difficult but I never complained because I love what I am doing. As I am enjoying it, I never noticed that time flies really fast, and this year, 2020, supposedly my last year in the school I am working to.
We all know that this year was tough. The Covid -19 pandemic was hitting the different sides of the world. And as a private school teacher it was do tough. I can't stop thinking that any minute I might lose my job. The Department of Education decided to shift the learning into online learning, public or private schools. Many parents transferring their child/ren to public schools, saying that it also the same since the learning will be online. I've been anxious.
Four months of lockdown due to pandemic was a depressing scenario plus the thought that I might lose my job. Its tough... Very tough.
Luckily the school I was working decided to continue even if the numbers of enrollees was little. We prepared and study on how to do the online class. Attending webinars, practicing the site, working with lesson plans, and making modules that's all we're doing. I'm exhausted but I endured it. Even my eyes irritates due to too much used of computer I still continue to do my task. Even I lacked of sleep. I endured it all.
I thought I was tough. But tonight, I realized I am not.
After so many days of working, I breakdown. I was crying while writing this article.
Tonight, around 7 pm, we had a meeting with my co -teachers and principal. The principal asked as if we decided to continue or resign and she will close the school. From the very moment I was torn, whether to continue or to resign. You know I am not on the right state of mind right now, I am exhausted. I am stressed. I don't know what to answer to her question. Half of my mind says go and half of it says no. I called my mother and asked her, she said go home but its still up to my decision. I asked my sister too and they said I should resign too.
I am so stressed. This pandemic is making me feel it plus the exhaustion of work. This stressed leads me to depression.
I love my job, but I can't go on. I need a rest. I need to regain myself.
With a heavy heart, I decided to quit.
Did I make the right decision??
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The Sky
Hello Everyone! 😊
Been busy for the past few days and I rarely post an article on readcash.
I'm so stressed this past few days due to work and this pandemic.
So today to relieved my stressed I decided to look at sky.
Here it is. 👇
That's it!
Hope that it also help you relieved your stress.
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Why Do We Lie?
What is the valid and acceptable reason why people lied?
Have you ever lied? What is the reason why you lied? It is for your own benefits or for someone else?
Lying is the most cause of any arguments. With a single lie, it can change the persons perspective and impression towards you. It can make people not to trust and believe in you.
**What’s in a lie**
A lie is “a deliberate choice to mislead,” says Paul Ekman, PhD, a psychologist, author, and professor emeritus at the University of California, San Francisco.
“Most (if not all) human relationships involve some form of deceit or at least the possibility of it,” Ekman contends.
“Lies occur between those we love and trust as much as they do with those we dislike, and even happens among complete strangers.”
Ekman draws a clear line between lying, which involves intent to deceive, and simply making false statements rooted in bad memory, misinterpretation, or individual belief without intent to deceive. He sees two main types of lies: https://elemental.medium.com/the-art-and-science-of-remembering-df393a17685b
**Concealing:** Someone asks how your day was, and you shrug it off and fail to mention you were fired.
**Falsifying:** Someone asks how your day was, and you say you were promoted when you were actually fired.
Simple enough. But like a tangled web, lying gets much more complex when psychologists parse the underlying motivations.
“People lie for a lot of reasons, most of which are not intentionally hurtful,” Serota says.
“People lie to avoid others, to protect others’ feelings, to protect themselves, to promote themselves, or for some personal gain (and sometimes for the benefit of others)."
“Sometimes they do it to be funny, to get a laugh and participate in humorous banter,” he continues.
“Least often they do it to be mean or hurtful. Sometimes they don’t even know why they do it.”
**Why we lie**
“Lying is a really central human activity. It involves us all in our relationships,” Lewis says. “It’s likely to be on a continuous basis throughout the day.” And we learn early on. “Children are capable of lying certainly by two or two and a half of age,” he says.
“We lie to protect the feelings of others,” Lewis says. “We’re taught to be polite, thank people for gifts even if we think they’re awful.” And nearly everyone (ethicists aside) agrees these kinds of lies are acceptable, he argues.
If you buy this idea that lying is acceptable and common, then Lewis suggests you learn to do it well. Let’s say your partner gets a haircut and asks how they look. “If you’re going to lie, which I think you should, you’re going to say it looks great,” he reasons, leaning on the idea that people close to us don’t always want to hear the truth of your criticisms. “And you’re always going to have to say it looks great.” You can’t change your tune later on. “There’s a moral obligation to do it well if it’s done to protect another person,” he says.
Lying for self-protection, on the other hand, might seem wrong to many people. Until they’re asked to reflect a bit.
https://elemental.medium.com/liar-liar-we-all-lie-but-why-cd99e2d3e4ab
(I tried to research why people lie, and that's what I found. You can click the link for further understanding)
So many reasons why people lie, good or bad, for own benefit or not, a LIE will always be a LIE. Some may understand why you lie, but some were not. But whatever the reason is, please make it sound valid and acceptable. 😁😁😁
So now,
What is the reason you lie? 😁
Comment it down.😊
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~Our DREAMS should be like our hair. No matter how many time they are cut, they're never stop growing.~
Good night. 😴 😴
The Night
*Noises. That's all I am hearing right now. Noises coming from the fan. Beeping and sounds of vehicles, the sound of airplane above. That's all I could hear, a sounds makes me sleep like a lullaby. What an irony to me.*
*Darkness. The only thing I could see is a complete darkness. The darkness inside my room. The darkness outside my window. The sky was filled with darkness. I can't even see a single star. Probably because of the rain clouds that been lingering since morning.*
*Cold. The cold breeze coming from my open window. The wind coming from the fan. A cold breeze that drawns into sleeps.*
*My eyes slowly closing. The warmth of blanket envelopes in my body helps me falling into deep slumber.*
*Good night everyone, Good Morning to some.*
*Whatever the time right now, I hope you have/had a wonderful day.*
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Good evening...
New writer is added here in readcash @Azialg
You can read her articles and subscribe if you want. Here's the link.
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Before you forget, Forgive. 😊😊
Good afternoon. 😊
Thinking of article to make.
A Letter to Myself
***Dear Me,***
*How are you? Are you still fine? Hope you are. I know you are having a hard time. You have so many things to learn and to do. I know you are struggling at this moment, but please hold on.*
*You can do it! I believe in you! You can surpass it! You are a strong and brave person. You never let those challenges affects your life.*
*Just keep what you are doing. Let those hard times past as if nothing happen. Just let them go. Don't hold them for too long. You can do it.*
***Smile****. Let them know that they're nothing compared to the happiness you experienced and experiencing right know.*
***Fighting!!!***
***Love,***
**Yourself😊**
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Which is better, having a headache or a toothache? Why? 😊😁
Good evening.😊
I am so stressed in learning and making modules. It really gives me headache. Can't find time to spend and create articles here in readcash.😑😑
Online Learning: A New Challenge To Teachers, Parents and Learners in the Philippines
With the change of normal way of living to new normal, every lives has been affected. From adults to kids, from works to non-works, everyone is affected.
In education, from traditional face to face learning, the Department of Education came to a decision to change it to online learning. Different terminologies came across that decision.
**Synchronous learning** *refers to a learning event in which a group of students are engaging in learning at the same time.*
**Asynchronous learning** *is a general term used to describe forms of education, instruction, and learning that do not occur in the same place or at the same time. It uses resources that facilitate information sharing outside the constraints of time and place among a network of people.*
**Blended learning** *is an approach to education that combines online educational materials and opportunities for interaction online with traditional place-based classroom methods. It requires the physical presence of both teacher and student, with some elements of student control over time, place, path, or pace.*
**Modular distance learning** *or real modules given to houses of students.*
Aside from those, some companies lauched an educational platform that can help the teachers and the learners.
**Here are some examples:**
****V-Smart Courseware/School**** is a one-stop teaching and learning platform that supports self-paced, asynchronous learning online. This platform gives teachers the power to create a course, providing both educators and learners future-proof learning opportunities that go beyond the classroom experience.
****V-Smart Courseware**** allows schools and teachers to continue to deliver learning in cases when classes are disrupted or cancelled.
****KPluz**** is the most comprehensive online academic excellence system in the country today for pre-school, elementary, and high school students.
Despite the effort of Department of Education, and some companies, to help the teachers and the learners to have an easy access in education despite this pandemic, it can't change the fact the it still a struggle especially to the teachers.
Teachers spend most of their time, learning and adjusting to new normal way of teaching or the online learning. Attending webinars everyday hoping for new learning or how to cope with the new way of teaching.
Practicing, creating modules, and trying everything to make everything easy for the learners. Just by thinking of so many things do to and to prepare will definitely brings a headache to teachers.
I am sure parents as well are having their hard time when the school start this August 24th. They also take part of their childs learning since the learners are on their side.
Learners will also find it difficult. Adjusting is not easy after all.
Cooperation between the teachers and parents might be a great help to attain and sustain the needed learning of each learners.
This is just the beginning.
It maybe a struggle for now, but soon it will be a great help to advance the educational system of the Philippines.
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That's it!
Thanks for reading.😊
Nightmare Again and Again
Have you experience the same nightmare? It appear in your dreams and then again it appeared some other night. Same scenario. Did you ever ask yourself what does it mean?
I have been experiencing the same nightmare. It happened since I was a kid. This really gives me a creepy. A complete deja vu everytime I experience it.
My house is near at school. I attended there since first grade until I graduated in elementary. Since my house is near the school, my teacher always makes me hold the key of our classroom. I am the one responsible of our classroom before and after class.
This nightmare of mine started when I was in third grade.
And here it is.
In my dreams I was on my way to open our classroom. It was early in the morning, probably around 5-6 am, that was the time I open our classroom. So when I was on my way, holding the key in my left hand, I saw an unfamiliar "**thing**" infront of our classroom. I was so curious of what was that. That "**thing**" is near the plant. When I am almost closer to that "**thing**" it suddenly started to move. That "**thing**" slowly turning towards me. I was stunned when I saw that "**thing**". I can't even move my feet. I was so shocked and scared.
The "**thing**" that I was referring to was a man. The man was buried half of its body. He looked at me but I didn't see his face. His face was blurred. I keeping looking at him intently when suddenly he move towards me. Slowly he is approaching me. I am so scared, my feet suddenly moved backward, until I realized I was running fast as I could. I looked at the man while I am running and saw that he is chasing me.
I looked around while running. Looking for help, but no one is around. Until I reached our house. I slammed the door so that the man can no longer chased me. I was crying and calling for my mother but no one is answering. I was holding the door when I heard a knocked coming from it. I stopped for a moment. I didn't opened it and to my surprised the man destroyed the door.
And that's when I woke up.
This nightmare keep appearing many times already. The same scenario from the start up to end. Some dreams may continue from where it end but mine isn't. At first I am so scared. But now I'm getting used to it.
***Does anybody know why it keeps appearing?***
If happen that you know, you can leave your comments.😊
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The Mysterious Word Called LOVE
***Love.***
***One word but so many meaning. We can't definitely define its meaning.***
***Love.***
***Four letters that if you discover, it can change you completely. Either for the best or for the worst.***
***Love.***
***Equivalent to happiness and pain. An emotion that can overflow.***
***Love.***
***Makes a sane person go insane. Can make a sadist and a masochist.***
***Love.***
***A mysterious word that no one could definitely explain.***
***Love.***
***A disease, but at the same time a remedy and cure.***
***Love.***
***What is truly your purpose and meaning?***
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The Silence of The Night
***In the silence of the night,***
***Concealed a mysterious cry,***
***That no one could hear.***
***In the silence of the night,***
***Lurking a gloomy face,***
***That occurs after the day.***
***In the silence of the night,***
***Hides a sorrowful soul,***
***Sitting in the darkest corner***.
***In the silence of the night,***
***Obscure the mourning soul,***
***Of someone who is left alone***.
***In the silence of the night,***
***That no one knew,***
***A woman is waiting for his lover to come back home.***
It's been a while since I make a poem, hope you like it. 😊
I just force myself to write since I haven't been publishing an article for a while. I am actually looking for some motivation. Lately I been so lost of ideas. I don't know what to write.
Hope you like my poem.😁
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What Read Cash Mean To Me...
First and foremost, allow me to say Hello and Good Evening.
Its been a while since I post an article here. I am quite busy this past few days due to upcoming opening of classes this August. I have tons of things to accomplish and learn so I spend my entire day accomplishing the tasks and of course learning.
The only free time I have is during night, and usually I spend it resting and browsing here in readcash. I haven't posted a proper article, the only thing I do is commenting on articles, but it just only for a short while.
Honestly, I've been reading articles for a while and I can't properly leave a comment on some articles although I appreciate them. And I felt sorry, my mind isn't functioning well maybe because I am tired, thinking I'd rather take a rest than commenting on all articles that came on my notification. So I am sorry.
And today, I've been browsing and I noticed that most of articles or short post are based on their experiences here in readcash. How greatful they are to have and know this great platform, so I decided to take this opportunity to give my appreciation to readcash.
I've been a user for almost a month. I happened to know this site through my friends recommendation. Actually I am hesitant at first, thinking that this site is like the same of some application or site that spend most of my time but gain nothing at the end. My friend told me that this site is 100% legit, so for her convincing power, she managed to make me agreed, and so I tried it.
I love writing. Since high school I am fond of writing stories and poems. I know for myself that I am not good enough compare to those people who can write any in just one sit. My ideas are limited. But it doesn't change the fact that I love writing.
So as my friend introduced readcash to me, I explore of what kind of platform is this. I read tons of articles with different forms. Poems, short stories, photographies and etc. which I enjoy reading.
Readcash is a platform who is worthy of my time. It awakens my passion on writing again. It enhance my skills and ability to write. Although my articles isn't catchy, enjoyable or attractive.
People here on readcash never judge me for my lame articles, instead they appreciate it and encourage me to write more. Those comments are the reason why I still continue to write. I know I haven't improve much as so others do, but I know I do little my little.
Readcash is a great platform for those aspiring writers. Hope that this platform will continue for long.
Again, Thank you so much for creating this kind of platform. 😊
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I haven't post any articles for a couple of days but I've got a new sponsor.😊
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Rest... You Need it.
***I know you're exhausted.***
***I know you're tired.***
***I know you're burned out.***
***I know you're feeling down.***
***I know you're suffocated.***
***I know you're frustrated***.
***Rest... You need it.***
***You deserves it.***
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My notification bell is resting right now after so many memes😂😂
Its fun reading memes😂😂
All is Unique, Everyone is Different
We are born as a unique individual and different to others. We sometimes have similarities to others but we are different too. No individuals are the same. Even twins have their own uniqueness.
In a world that full of comparison and criticism, we sometimes get anxious on what people may say to us. Comparing which is better and best. Criticizing which is bad and worst.
I am sure some of us experience it. We got compared and criticized with someone related to us and sometimes not. Judging our appearance and ability based on who is best.
Receiving criticism may down our self -esteem but at the same time boost ourself to strive hard and prove to others that we can do it even we lacked on something that others have.
Understanding oneself is important. We are an imperfect individual who lacked at some aspects. We are individual who grow and learned through our experiences.
We must accept everyone's flaws and differences. After all we're not all the same. We are **UNIQUE.**
**Everyone has their own tongue.**
Meaning we have our own preferences and taste. We may not be the best to others, but for some we are.
**We live with the people who loves us and not with the people who hates us.**
Meaning we live with people who accept us for who and what we are, and not with the people who criticize us for who and what we are.
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Time Heals all Wounds
Our journey begins when you confessed to me.
Your sweet words and kind gesture that make me love you.
Your simple gestures that makes me giggle.
From simply carrying my bag and walking me home.
From simply wiping my sweat and making me cool.
From simply giving me flowers and chocolates.
From simply understanding my mood swings.
From simply making me smile all the time.
Those are the memories that worth reminiscing.
We have an arguments at times,
But we never let the day passed that we're not okay.
Then, one day you suddenly change.
You change the way you treat me.
You became cold.
Our arguments suddey last for long.
We didn't talked and sort things out.
You just change.
I asked you why, but you just turned your back.
You said your just tired, that you need to rest.
I gave you what you want.
Time...
Space...
I gave you time and space to breathe, but our relationship slowly fallin' apart.
I've tried to talk to you, but you refused to.
Suddenly I realized, that your not the guy I used to loved.
You change. Completely.
Every night I think of you,
Thinking of the days that I spent with you.
Happy memories we shared and promises we kept.
Everything...
One day, I saw you.
I saw you with someone new.
I asked you who she is, and you said just a friend you just met.
I believed on it, because I trust you.
But deep down in me I know she is someone special too.
The way you treat her, the way you glance at her.
Your eyes tell me that she is special to you.
We talked, and you confessed to me,
That you fall out of love to me,
And you fall in love with her.
It hurts... So much.
It feels that my heart brokes into thousands pieces.
I slapped you.
I cried.
I run away from you.
It hurts so much that I can't breathe.
In morning, I make myself busy so that I won't remember you.
But when the dark eats the light, I cried. Hugging my pillow and letting my tears fall from my face.
It really hurts and I don't know how to mend my wounded heart.
I've tried to moved on, but everytime I tried, memories are slowly flashing back. Happy memories.
Then again, tears falls from my face.
I am hurt and it hurts. But I know the sooner or later, I will forget you.
It hurts, you know, but for sure, time will heal my wounded heart.
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Rainbow After The Storm
***As life continue to go on,***
***I continue to walk on,***
***Facing challenges makes me weak,***
***And at the same time it makes me brave.***
***I struggle day by day,***
***But I fight everyday,***
***My will not to give up,***
***Is the only thing in my mind.***
***I cried for no reasons,***
***But I smile for a reasons,***
***Whatever challenges I face,***
***I will fight and never surrender.***
***I stumble and fall,***
***But I will stand and be tall,***
***Because life goes on,***
***And I need to fight on.***
***Whatever challenges comes,***
***I will surpass it all,***
***Cause I believe,***
***There's a rainbow after every storm.***
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Look at the Sky(Sky Photography part 2)
Good evening.
Before I call it a day, let me share to you my saved photos in my gallery.
I been saving this for sometime and waiting for the right time to show it.
Hope you'll like it. 😊
That's it for today.
Let me say my early goodnight.😊
Thank you.
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Look at the Sky(Sky Photography part 1)
Good afternoon!
Are feeling down today?
If yes, just look at the sky.
The sky makes as in bliss...
It takes away our thoughts...
It makes us at ease...
Here are some of my sky photography I want to share with you. Hope you'll like it.😊
That's it!!
Hope that it help you calm your mind.😊😊
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The Songs(Random Thoughts #1)
***Day and night you linger in my ear,***
***Your all I wanted to hear,***
***You seems a blessing in disguise,***
***That gives me so much advice.***
***In my ups and downs you bring me comfort,***
***Your sounds make me at peace,***
***You bring me so much ease,***
***Upon hearing you only for short.***
***You speak my innermost feelings,***
***The unspoken words I can't bring out,***
***You gave so much meaning,***
***And you help me speak it out.***
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Borrowed Time
***Days passed, years gone.***
***And here I am alone,***
***Thinking those time,***
***That you're still mine.***
***The laughters we share,***
***Your love and your care,***
***Your beautiful smile makes me blind,***
***Still lingers in my mind.***
***Your warm hand that touches mine,***
***Your stares that makes me glee,***
***Your warm embrace that caress me,***
***Your kiss that brings me to cloud nine.***
***Reminiscing all our shared momeries,***
***Will remain our sweet memories,***
***'Cause the days that you're mine,***
***Is a product of a borrowed time.***
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Wonderful Day to Begin With
Good morning everyone.
Hope you have a wonderful day to begin with.
I try to take some photos while waiting...
Please bear with it. 😁
July 23, 2020, 5:38 am
Good morning everyone.
I might not be active today, 'cause I have things to do.
Have a great day. Enjoy!
Don't forget to smile.😊
And for those that still awake, take a rest. 😊
Good evening everyone.
Tonight is a little bit cold. Is fine 'cause I think I can sleep well.
Anyway, if you have time, check this out.
https://read.cash/@eLgiliam/sunset-7d84d0da#comments
A new writer here in readcash and she posted a superb scenery of a sunset. Hope you'll like it😊
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Good Morning
Good morning.
Drink your coffee.
Start your day.
Don't forget to smile😊
Have a wonderful day. 😊
@Jabs
