Ruhama is very angry. She went to Rafi's house and saw the lock hanging. The sky seemed to break on her head. She immediately called her uncle and asked about Rafi. Her uncle didn't say anything to her. She just said that Rafi had sent a letter for her. Come and take it.
Ruhama went to her uncle's house without a moment's hesitation. Shafiq handed the letter to Ruhama and said, "Don't open it now. I'll go home and see." "Okay"
But Shafiq did not trust him. He dropped Ruhama at home by himself. It was as if he was singing badly inside Ruhama. He seemed to be missing something very big. Dear Ruhama,
You never think that you are an unpleasant person to me. You are a very dear person to me. But the one you love is never possible. I mingled with you like a friend. Because there is no age for friendship. Nothing more than this friendship is ever possible by me.
What is going on in your mind now is nothing but emotion. You are only 20 years old. And I am 19 years older than you. It is possible to bring the inequality between us to equality. And besides, you are still very young. Maybe your only fascination with me is working. And you are mistaking it by thinking it is love. But as time goes by, you will be sensible. You have your whole life later. Arrange your life beautifully. You like someone who goes with you. Remember that some inequalities can never be equalized. And trying to bring those inequalities into equality is nothing but foolishness.
You will know where I am when it's time. Never try to find it. Be well. Good luck for your new life. Yours sincerely Rafi.
Ruhama was stunned after the letter. Suddenly she started laughing loudly
15 years later, Tamal came from Afid and saw his wife Ruhama standing on the verandah. He even seemed quite distracted. He went and hugged Ruhama from behind. Being distracted, Ruhama did not notice when Tamal arrived.
"What's wrong with my daughter-in-law? "Nothing. Then it seems so absurd." "Uh, nothing. Get fresh. I'm bringing breakfast." Ruhama left. Tamal realized that Ruhama was trying to avoid him. He sighed and started thinking about that 15 years ago.
After receiving the letter, Ruhama became so depressed that she lost her balance. She went crazy for almost two years. Sometimes shouting Rafi and crying. Or sometimes talking alone. He also committed suicide several times. At that time Tamal was like a shadow beside him. Though Tamal was already in love with Ruhama, it gradually turned into love. He tries his best to bring Ruhama back to normal life. And by the grace of Allah he succeeds. But he does not speak to Ruhama in his own mind. Ruhama understands himself and proposes marriage to him. Maybe he also needed someone to stay well then. Or there was a great deal of resentment towards Rafi. Their marriage took place with the consent of the two families. Even though they have been married for 13 years now, there is some distance between them. Although they have a 6-year-old son. But Tamal still thinks that Rafi is living somewhere in Ruhama's mind. In fact, no one can take anyone's place. You have to make it. So Tamal also tried to make a place for himself in Ruhama's mind. And he is successful. But somewhere or other he has a but.
11 o'clock 15 minutes. Ruhama is lying on Tamal's chest. He feels very guilty today. He knows very well how much Tamal loves him. He also loves Tamal. But even today he can't forget Rafi. In these 15 years he is very good for Rafi He wrote a few letters. But he never sent them. He only has one thing to say to Rafi. So even though he had a lot of trouble a few days ago, he could find out Rafi's address from his uncle.
Ruhama raised her head a little and looked at Tamal. Then he hugged Tamal very tightly. Tamal also embraces Ruhama with absolute obsession.
There is an envelope on Rafi's table. Ruhama's name is clearly visible on the envelope. After he shifted to Canada 15 years ago, today is the first time a letter has come for him from Ruhama. He pulls up the chair near the table after wearing glasses. He is now 55 years old. His hair is very twisted. Seeing the letter, he felt a strange peace. As soon as he opened the letter, he started wearing it.
Dear Rafi,
I couldn't be more unpleasant than you. I remember, 15 years ago today, you blew my love away as an emotion. But you were wrong. You never understood my goodness and never tried to understand. You are not worthy of my love. I am very angry that you are still somewhere in my mind. You know I still haven't forgotten you. Well, would you call it emotion today?
There is nothing else written in the letter. Rafi folded the letter and left it. He opened his spectacles and stood up. His eyes were watering profusely. As soon as he went to bed and closed his eyes, the face of the 20-year-old Ruhama floated in his eyes.
Finish.
Even if we want to, we don't have the ability to equate some inequalities. Very few people can draw the line between these inequalities.
Thank you.
Interesting article