Destiny

I left my father's house and went to my husband's house. The husband in a new family is also unknown. There was no care before marriage, there was no talk. He got married according to his mother's choice. Today I am sitting on the first night of the wedding and I think to myself, there are no relatives in this house, there is no decoration in the room? Simple at once.

Husband Sajib Touhid entered the room, came to my side without saying a word and lay down. And after a while the sound of his nose ringing came to my ears, I realized he was completely asleep! I was a little surprised that there are people in this age?

Got a little trouble tonight or the beginning of the sacred bond? In college life, my girlfriends used to say that I had a rural feeling. So they would encourage me to make love, they would explain their love story to me. But I never cared.

My thought was in the consciousness that the man will come into my life and I will fall in love with him.

I fell asleep thinking about all this.

I woke up the next morning and did not find Sajib by my side. He got up before me and left. And I collaborated with my mother-in-law on various tasks. Although he didn’t want me to do any work.

Sajib did not speak to me for three days!

I wonder if he was forced to marry? After going to my father's house in Nairobi, Bhabira mischievously wanted to know how I spent my time with Sajib. I couldn't say anything.

They also told a number of things,

I showed it to Bhabi and Demak without getting married.

I thought and the question arose well Seki did not like me?

Neither of them should be old enough to be childish.

I still need to know? Why always stay away from me?

Didn't you like me? He didn't answer a word, just bowed his head and said his body was not going well. I understood that he lied.

Twenty-two days of marriage is still not talking to me without need. I just felt like he was avoiding me all the time !?

But why?

And I can not wait to know the reason? Why is he so indifferent to me?

I want to be soaked in my husband's love.

All these thoughts are always in the mind

Keep eating.

Sajib and my brother-in-law have no more brothers and sisters. The mother-in-law loves both the wives very much, if there is no daughter, that one desire remains. I call Big Ja Apa. After much thought, I thought I would tell you. I shared the matter with Big Ja. Apa said, maybe he is ashamed?

Apa said men are ashamed again! Both of them were laughing and eating lootuputi.

OK, why don't you break the shame of shame? I thought to myself, that's right.

So I handed myself over to him. But he avoided it! Shame, humiliation, wanting to go.

I am very angry. Listen, you have to answer my question today? You can tell me openly. Do you love anyone?

No.

Then why can't you accept me?

What is my crime?

You have no guilt Shanta. The culprit is me, the failure is my own. I could not tell you. I have no power to bind you. I am a manless cripple.

I had to get married as a hostage to my mother's jealousy. I have no power to make my wife happy.

What are you saying? You knew everything,

Then why did you deceive me by playing a game called marriage?

Believe me I had no choice. I was helpless. I couldn't say these words to my family. So I became a musician.

I do not understand what to do?

In an instant, all my dreams were shattered. My world became dark.

No words are coming out of his mouth, only tears are falling.

At that time he took my hands and said will you leave me? Will you divorce me?

I can't answer. This is the first time Sajib has hugged me and started crying.

I do not know why the Creator has kept me alive with a manless life.

Please, don't tell anyone, Shanta.

If the truth is known to the people, I have no choice but to die.

I fell asleep hugging the two of them. When I woke up in the morning, I saw Sajib wrapping his arms around my chest and shedding tears.

Didn't you sleep?

Shanta want to talk to you if you want to hear?

Said yes.

There is no merit in being my husband. So I have no right to ask you anything. Just let me know your decision.

For a few days there was no conversation between us. And something I can't share with anyone. Loneliness is consuming me. What is my future? Meanwhile, Maya is for Sajib, what should I decide?

Don't go for less that your full potential. You can do whatever you want.

You can start a new life by divorcing me, no one will know anything. If you want to be with another man, can you do that?

What are you saying? Shut up.

Girlfriend Ruma, a doctor, went to his house and told him everything.

What should I do, Ruma? I can't find a road.

Look, Shanta, if you don't want to leave him? Then I can adopt the child. And the biggest thing is, can you live like this for the rest of your life?

Yes, Ruma, I can, the man I love, and I can give up my physical desires.

Grandma, can I ask you something?

Mom is listening to it again! Honestly, is there any lack of understanding between you? I know why I suspect?

No mom, nothing like that we're fine.

Good if good. Sajib didn't see you, so he was whispering in his mind, now I'm free of worries.

Sajib's leave is over. Sajib was not told to work for the police. The mother-in-law told her mother that she wanted to take Shanta with her.

Mom says if you have a problem, Dad, take it with you. I have no objection.

At night Sajib said put everything in order, we will go tomorrow morning.

I'm not going anywhere, I'll stay here.

Shanta please let me do my duty? If I could put you in the hands of a good man, I would be free from liability.

I couldn't control myself anymore, I hugged and cried.

Not all human hobbies are fulfilled in one life so I can't leave you. I want to be with you. I will adopt a child, I will raise him and spend my life with you.

The next day Sajib left and said that I was going to arrange a holiday again very soon. I have a lot more to talk about.

Three days later Sajib came on a seven-day leave. I went to my father's house. There is no peace in anything. Just feel trivial yourself.

Will the taste of femininity be satisfied if Shanta adopts a child? Rather, if your child is born through the physical relationship of another, I will accept him as my own child. I say with folded hands Shanta, no one will ever know anything. I will not have any trouble.

I don't know if any girl has heard this from her husband? But I heard.

And I promised, no, I will not lose my virginity. I will not give up, if it is destiny then I will accept it.

I accepted the writing of destiny.

Then I went with Sajib behind everyone's eyes. I contacted Ruma a few months after I got there. Ruma took a newborn baby girl from her hospital in her arms.

After completing the legal process, the two of them left for home with their daughter.

I will be able to spend my life this time.

There is only one desire from the Creator, which is not found in this life, and in the next life, as if we get all the desires from Him in full.

Thank you for reading.