03-08-2022

Y'all know being a human we do compare ourselves with other and so i do as well but it doesn't mean I'll get jealous from them

I've a control on myself and i do compare with them a way different than some other people.

Kinda trying to say i feel happy for them and also feel myself lucky way lucky. A random guy once told me there's nothing better than a failed man trying to build himself from over again.

I do believe comparing yourself with other is a way to improve yourself and it makes you strong too.

Well, let's get started with some real talks.

When i see people of my Age

It's a great pleasure to inform you that seeing people of my age having so much thing that i don't makes me happy and lil different at my perspective.

There's always a aunt in our neighborhood who'll visit your house and going to tell about each and everything about kids of my age getting good marks or blah blah just to degrade you in my case I'm already tired on this.

Lemme tell what i see in other people of my age.

Having a Good personality

I'm still confused or lost about myself and i can say that others have Good personality than mine.

I wonder if introverts have their own personality?

Not sure about other introverts but in my case I've stolen 7 different personalities of different characters from movies of all kind.

Being Attractive

Yea it's a fact that i see other people being attractive - Girls dying for them and simping all the time make me jealous sometime or feel bad too.

Tho it's not about Girls but being attractive make them more confident in any kind of life matter or situation.

I don't meant that I'm not attractive, bro you don't now how it feels when your mom say you're looking so good and beautiful today - that's a kind of thing matter a lot to me, nothing else.

Being Smart

They are smarter a lot more smarter than i actually think. I still do believe them easily and get fooled later most of the time while i think that I'm smart but not enough to live in a world where everyone have 609 others thing planned already.

Being loved

They are being loved by everyone whether from parents by relatives, friends circle simply everyone includes

Or the guy never feel being not loved by others.

Having Real friends

They have kind of real friends from best Friend forever to having a loyal friend since childhood. A friend whom one can share secrets or what they felt. Most of people are unlucky in this matter.

Though in my Case don't have any IRL friend but blessed with many online friends - this matter most to me and i feel Good too not alone like before.

At least online friends are way more Good than some "toxic ones" but every kind of peeps exist and we just need to find what's good about them.

Having Good conversation skills

Yea, they have some Good conversation skills talking frequently and confidently while sometimes i don't even feel comfortable replying to someone online because i lack convo skills

But thing is seeing other I'm also improving for real.

Here's me

Here's what i do to myself and i hate myself for doing this to me. It's like making myself worst than other's.

Sometimes i think comparing other's I'm being hated by everyone like they're being loved by everyone while I'm getting treated like trash.

Feeling like I'm worthless and being ignored by everyone, being introvert (kind of blessing - Not in all aspects) Having toxic people around me (IRL).

By doing this sometimes it become painful but getting more stronger as what i need to be.

Fin.

Shouldn't compare yourself with others as we've own life and problems or people and environment

But same time we can strengthen ourselves comparing with them at least you're not letting them know or not feeling jealous so it's still better.

Well, we all have different Point of view. I'm quite sleepy as it is 3am and you all know night becomes painful and full of thoughts like this so writing this all makes me feel better or can sleep peacefully without over thinking more.

I literally planned to write other topic already had written half but couldn't hold myself and flow of these thoughts actually changed my mind.

Tho, i think I'm at the phase of my life where I'm trying to get out of my comfort and do better things either in real life or online - like our childhood spiderman Tobey once said in No way home to Dr octopus "I'm trying to do better" Same in my case.

That's it, read fam I'm now done with this. Thoughts are leaving finally inner relief and peace of mind - that's why I've changed my routine

I spent my daylight time on hive engaging with others and somehow writing on topic and than i choose to write late night on read cash see that. It's not easy i was thinking it's too easy but reality is different but ain't make a person bored grinding.

Would love to read your comments especially Good words are always enough to make someone day.