12.11.2021

I never thought I'll write today it was a tiring day for me and my energy level was quite low coz of so many things and i thought I'll do rest but it's necessary for me to write and express my feelings throw out every thing going in side me to find peace in life again.

Topic came and knocked my door so why I'll waste my time it was not first time when i expected and it results in pain. I don't know it's in nature but it kinda depressing and bad feeling ever happen to someone.

Most of time we don't get hurt expecting thing for ourselves but for someone or something which will make you feel happy and put a smile on your face.

Well i don't expect too much coz i know it will result only in pain but it's not in my control to expect or not that's why it always happen once in a week or once in a month but yeah today was the day when my expectations hurt me most.

So i was sad that's why i prefer to write and feel relax my whole day was not good for me coz i was not interested making noise or interact with anyone in noise cash which is quite bad and sad thing than my whole body was like dead or i was so tired mentally and my sleep was also incomplete so you can say it might be because of this but this last reason hurt alot.

I did mistake expecting too much

It's true and mistake of mine and everyone else who expect too much I'm not talking about crypto right now but I'm talking about today's cricket match between pak or Australia so it was semi final today and one will qualify to next round

So first pak did batting and set a target of 180almost and at that time i felt like we already won the match coz this target is easily defendable and same side i knew that 10years back with same team they chased more than this target but 10 years back i knew that our bowling was not that good and fielding as well but after 10 years things are change we created history and got into semi finals undefeatable and if we go in final and won it than it will defiantly happiest day of every person from my country because living a world tournament without getting defeat single time is unbelievable and surprising but there was another reason which is why i want to see this in future but sad

Our expectations got ruined and we fought till end or loss the match with dignity.

Getting attached emotionally hurt more than expectations

It doesn't hurt when we expect possible thing but it hurt when we get attached emotionally with something and same happened with me seeing 5 continuous victories and all that memories or joy we had while watching tournament and seeing teams getting out from tournament and going into semi's our players made records and so many reason

Which is why i got emotionally attached and i never cried seeing my team losing but this was first time when i cried because of many reasons.

Only reason i started watching cricket again after 4years

From past 4 years i didn't watched cricket match or any single tournament or i was a huge fan of cricket before and it was my favourite childhood game but lost interest when i saw my favourite batsman or captain is no more in team

But he was back again in squad but not played a single match but he was in squad which was enough and hope for me to see him playing again in future under his captaincy

But one more reason or thing which inspired me alot literally i only started expecting or praying for my team to win this cup because of one person

And it's our current captain "babar azam" literally this guy inspired me after knowing about his background,hustle and whole story till reaching at this level

It was first time he's playing a big tournament like world cup not as a normal player but as a captain so imagine it's a big tournament whole nation is expecting too much and it's upto you to play smartly and have enough confidence

So from start he was gentleman and fear no one he was the one who's leading team from first not from behind like other captain i never saw a one captain playing as an opener and his performance in every single match is finest and brilliant.

We went into semi's under a captain who's playing first time on such international level and big tournament and he's world 1batsam I'm not lying just do check it out who's on 1.

He was once a ball picker and he become a best captain and player in whole world.

That's why i was expecting for this guy to win this cup and take trophy to home but sadly so far he tried so hard and loss after fighting against them till last over.

Too feel relax it's better to listen music

After seeing this so closed victory turned into loss i felt so sad literally cried first time that's how much i was emotionally attached so i only have one idea in my left which was to spend time walking outside while listening music

It's my thing to listen to sad song not to be more sad but to change my mood but it didn't work so i started planning to write.

Never expect too much from handfree

Just like team we should not expect to much from handfree coz it's only thing which will become waste of money in just few days

We will not be able to hear with one side like seriously in my case it's different because my handfree one side isn't working properly but also when i connect it with my mobile it will function automatically like pause on off music change music on and it's most irritating thing ever happened with me otherwise this was the best handfree I've used in my life coz it's been more than 4 months and still useful somehow so it's miracle.

Never expect too much from BCH sometime

It's about yesterday when BCH was above 700$ and i was not in need or mood to use some of BCH and now it's down or i need money as well so guess what

I simply sold all BCH from binance in current price so we should always expect less and that's why i didn't expected too much from BCH when i need money for a good cause than why I'll wait and be greedy so instead of expecting too much we should not feel shy to use BCH.

Anyways this was in my mind for now and I'm more comfortable and relaxed after sharing all of mine thoughts now I've my peace back or only 1 day left to chill and enjoy than I'll be in cage once again or things will become hard for me to manage things so now i also need rest coz I'm mentally tired and from past 4 days I'm not sleeping properly and one more thing

Which is happy news for me and it's about my wrist pain which is gone after 4 months so how it happened I'll come with whole new topic later but for now I'll say goodbye to everyone and must remember we shouldn't expect too much it will hurt us.