Take Away from Moira

The most frightening moment is to wake up one day realizing that everything is lie. You would stare at the ceiling feeling like being left by the whole world alone, your world was him and having so many unanswered questions. You got to ask more and more as days passed by but no one could give you the answers you needed to hear.

I felt very frustrated and sad upon hearing about Moira's marriage and separation from her husband. They wrote so many beautiful songs together which makes me and other listeners believe that the ending could be beautiful too. The songs are at most, about being left, broken, waiting, and moving on. Those songs were my 911 when I'm at my worst or rock bottom but I was never ready for this that all these sad songs were her husband's confessions and the time will come which is today that Moira will now eventually be in the context of her songs.

Love is the most dangerous weapon we all possessed when we used it in the wrong way everyone could be hurt, not just our self. I get so many questions in my head, like what should it takes for a person to stay? what else we could give so that we won't be left behind? To what extent a human could go for lying? what makes a lie white when in the end it will still hurt the person we truly love?

We never know when we could love our partners or when they could love us. I am very anxious about waking up someday not to feel love or be loved by the person I cherish the most, it would be a surprise I will never get excited about. But we can't deny or neglect this kind of fact just because we are in love. We cant act blindly to these kinds of possibilities.

In this stage of life, I understand why Ben&Ban choose the line "pipiliin ka sa araw-araw" instead of "mamahalin kita sa araw-araw". We are not in love always and we should admit that. Commitment never guarantees to always be in love or being loved but always there in the midst of breakthroughs and breakdowns. Being always faithful when your partner is there or not. Having integrity by acting right when no one or someone is there.

To anyone who has been feeling down due to relationship failure, take your time to heal. Please don't rush to be okay because the time will come you will be. Love will search you again and you will feel love once again like you've never been hurt. Just stay and be free to feel whatever you feel, don't bottle it up. You will be fine soon. Love will find you even though you lose hope for it.