Insecurity
Insecurities is part of us, I hope people will realize that it is an indication that we can't have everything and we should focus on what we have and how to improve it. Last Thursday, during my shift we had a chitchat with my coworker and we talk about our partners. She asked me several questions like how long did we dated, how did we met, and how did he court me. So I shared some information about our love story to her. Me and boyfriend meet at one of a social media platform (I will write different article about this), there was an instance that he and his family went out of town and he left his plant to me to take care. We aren't dating during that time yet but we have mutual understanding that anytime soon we could go further than being friends. Few days later when they were back to town he ask me for a date, and we did actual cheesy dates. We engage in a proper flow of courtship, I will say. Then, she asks me later on to be his girlfriend, then I he introduce me to his family and I did the same way to my family.
My workmate frowned and asked me if my boyfriend had a girlfriend before me, and I told her the truth that he had a two years relationship before me. I was a bit concerned when she added a question if I were insecure with my boyfriend's ex girlfriend. There was something in her eyes, life a deep sadness. I sigh. I answered her that I never get insecure, they were dating for years but he never introduce her to his family neither the girl. I am not insecure because I find peace in my partner's embrace. He gives me assurance and I suffice myself enough before I commit to him. My words surprise her. Then, she shared she has been feeling deeply insecure about her boyfriend's ex girlfriend, she got insecure because her body isn't like the other girl. She felt he isn't sexy enough, she isn't good enough. Her boyfriend's mother keeps on comparing her to the other girl, which hurt her a lot. I hugged her and said, you are so beautiful and your partner loves you so much.
Later that night I have thought our conversation over and over again, like replaying it in my head. I couldn't imagine how hurt she is and how strong she is for keeping herself intact. We all have our insecurities and there are some that cannot be filled with our partners. But I realize we cannot have everything in life and even beauty queens has insecurities too. It is never an assurance that having that kind of body, having money, having that kind of face, or having that kind of skin will give assurance of happiness.
There are things that was given for us innately and changing it might compromise the quality of life we have. I remember my friend's mom told us that when someone truly loves you he or she will love you regardless how big, thick, or thin you are.
