Just imagine for a second that I am your mirror. Now please, talk to me. I want to be your voice of mind.
You are not alone dear. In this world, we are all connected but there are so many issues that makes jealous about you or make them away from you. You just can't deny the fact but have to accept the fact.
There is no shame in that. Neither you are guilty nor a criminal but you are still threatening your existence just because people are avoiding you. This is not you. You are a pretty person.
May be you have committed something wrong, maybe you have done something very offensive but that doesn’t mean that you have lost the opportunity to improve yourself. Look around yourself. 7 billion people are dwelling in this planet and you think you are the only person to have feelings like that? No dear.
Just accept the fact and prepare yourself to fight back. Just prove yourself. You destroyed everything once, now you have the ability to make everything right. Just get up. Just run.
Nice work, keep it up man !