@Hanzell
Self destruction
Alcohol effects Keywords: ashes, charming, release, people, support, worm They said drinking will be the answer to all my problems. They said it will give you some form of **release**. But why is that, the more I drink, the more I become dissociated with myself. **People** say I need to stop. They say I need. I know I do. My liver will soon rupture with everything I’m doing. Night after night the bottle in my hand starts to feel like it has always been there. I don’t think I can go about living sober anymore. I look in the mirror and I see myself. When did I start looking like this? My once **charming** self feels like just a picture that’s been burnt to **ashes** now, a distant memory to me. I wonder, if my family knew of what I’ve been doing to myself, would they still love and **support** me? Would they still welcome me into their arms and help me out? I suppose they would view me as a parasite now with what has happened to me, nothing but an insignificant **worm** that would be better off gone. They wouldn’t though, right? Or is everything I’m thinking right now the alcohol talking? My brain’s probably decreased far too much for me to thing properly. I curse the day I ever started depending on the substance. PS. i don't actually drink ;-; but my mind is in a weird place right now so this happened. https://www.youtube.com/watch?reload=9&v=LXEeONm6hy8&feature=youtu.be&fbclid=IwAR0SVZ_3q46j8KmpclmeP0dIT1px8gBWGC3tYF8L2jvMF9fb6a0cc0EU9dE And i used this as a timer because I don't like just being surprised by my timer
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Very well done. I know you are not an alcoholic and this is exactly what I would do. Pretend I am one and say....(who knows I will write too). Big applaud for you. 👍🍀💕 Which device did you use?
I'd love to see your version of the freewrite topic too, everyone's version is too experienced based so it would be nice to see other styles I used laptop for typing. I didn't edit it so the time i posted it was my end time? I typed it in Microsoft word. The timer was that music loop
The word "people" is not a prompt the word is "perplex". Did you use Grammarly? I noticed it changes perplex into people.
I was pretty sure it was people when you first posted the update on the competition so i intentionally used people and not perplex I still have two more tries for this, right? Maybe I'll try again
You tried again and it's no big deal with this entry. It's a strong one. 👍💕
I like it. It is indeed a good writing.
Thank you ^^ it took a more dramatic turn than i would have hoped for
Amazing Write up
Thank you, i appreciate the praise ^^
Nice. It is quite amazing how you wrote this when you don't actually drink. Our brain is really full of wonders. Or maybe you're really good at putting yourself in someone else's shoes. Good luck with the contest. 🍀
I think the latter? Or maybe because alcoholism is put in movies and books a lot so that's probably how? Anyways, thank you so much for the compliment ^-^
Every problem has a solution. But it is totally depend on you what you choose. Who can choose alcohol for removing their stress, I said, they are dumb and also stupid. It can help you temporarily but can permanent harm on your health.
I'm not sure about that because i don't drink. But what i do know is it depends on exposure to the vice fro a young age so to begin with, it wasn't their fault but of those who influenced it. They just stuck to it because it's what they grew up to believe in
Yes. You are right.
I'm amazed because you do not drink but you wrote that or maybe it is your own observation in your village or your mind is full of knowledge about alcohol😇
It's based on movies? And some books I've read where characters turn to alcoholism? But thank you, i appreciate that you liked it
"They said drinking will be the answer to all my problems. They said it will give you some form of release." People really do say this. And may buy the idea. This only adds to one's problem. Glad to know you are not an alcoholic. PS. i don't actually drink ;-; but my mind is in a weird place right now so this happened." What placed your mind in such a place... Not something you would share?
It was after an anxiety attack in the morning. It usually takes me days to recover and when i get in that place in my mind, i can only express myself negatively since sleeping it away doesn't help anymore and i don't like being too reliant on medication as well
How often does that happen or was it just once?
Just sometimes now. Only when i get triggered So did you enjoy your little trip down my thoughts?
What is the trigger? It's 1:45 am here. If they were not enjoyable, I wouldn't be awake reading them
I'm not sure half the time. I guess the feeling of eventually getting replaced was for a few of them. The one i experienced here was from abandonment though. I think the thought permeated well enough Oh it's late. We can continue this another time-
Alright
I guess I'll give posting from my journals a shot