@Hanzell
Tired
Never had I imagined life to be this empty once work starts. After having moved for the 3rd time in the past 2 weeks, I honestly lost so much of my motivation to push through with whatever plans I've made. I no longer have something to call a home for work had forced me to move to the company dorms then to the a boarding house just 5 minutes away from the office/laboratory. My shift... oh my tiresome shift. That starts from 7am until 5pm every MWF. I should be used to it, spending so much time in a laboratory while continuously running around, but it hits different when nothing you do seems to bore a dent into the amount of samples I need to analyze. Normally I would endure this gracefully but the restrictions on my travels is also putting a strain on me. Our phones are given gps devices to ensure we don't go far. A lock in contract? Locked in indeed. No escape, no visitors nor visiting other places. I worry about my beloved. I worry for my family whom I can't see without filing for a travel pass from the company so they could druve me to and from my home. I understand they're trying to limit the infections in the laboratory but their protocols seem too outrageous to be followed for the next 3 years. I'm just sad, and tired. And I just want to go see my boyfriend despite the fact that he doesn't want to see anyone right now. I need the comfort only he can give but it seems like soon, I won't get to experience that anymore. I'm just extremely tired #freewrite 10 minute timer WIP:
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I wish I can do art like that, and I also wish I have the materials needed to make paintings.
You could always practice when you have time
That's the problem hahaha. We are given with many activities to solve each day and I almost forget to sleep just to finish them all. Sometimes, I just find time to post here. Mostly, things I have written before.
I've been busy to but i needed the therapy again so i just went woth freewrites because it's easier
There are so many things happening to you right now all at once. You're still on the verge of adjusting your lifestyle from now as it is way too different before. I hope the situation gets better day by day. 🙏😟
I think I'm getting close to a relapse too but I'm still trying to do what i can to stay sane. I just want hugs
Oh no 💔 I hope not. I wish I could do that for you. Sending a virtual hug is the least I can do. Still the same since we talked about it?
Gotten worse. Now he refuses to eat. It's stressing and I'd get any hugs i can get
Shocks 😟 I honestly don't know what to advice anymore. 💔
It's alright, just help me pray maybe. That's all i can do now even if I'm not even religious
I'm glad that you mentioned about religion. I try my hardest to avoid religious stuff because you're not into it. So consider it done. 🙏❤
Thank you so much, i appreciate it. I'm hoping something happens that will help him though
Wow, you're in a real hurricane right now. Your job kinda reminds me of '1984', you know, th whole Big Brother is watching stuff. It's that bad, huh? I feel for you onii-chan ;;-;;
They aren't chemists, man. I'm cured from my fever though and that's good. Missed my drawings?
Then what are they? Secret alien spies watching some select group of humans 😁 Oh I'm so happy you're good now. I really missed your drawings ;;-;; it's been too long. Even I haven't drawn in a while. The painting is really calming.
I think so? Or they could just be a bunch of crazies Ahh really? I'll try to draw more when i need therapy (which is recently, actually) I've been hoping for something calm. I need it
Makakaya nyo din yan 😊 tiwala lang sa taas <3
Last resort ko na nga e
Even if you are out already they need to monitor you?
Yeah, they're getting this strict even if my dorm is literally on the other side of the block
Ai Grabe Pala.
Yeah, so ayun. Work-> dorm lang ako habang di pa approved request ko na umuwi sa next day off ko
Maybe you are still adjusting from your recent set up. Just keep going you will get used to it..I hope so.
The adjustment should be easy but I'm just worried about other things and i want hugs
Don't overthink so much, that will cause you more stress and you'll get tired and demotivated eventually.
I already am. I can't stop overthinking when i have anxiety, honestly. I've just been taking meds again so i don't get severe attacks
Naah, just calm down have some enough rest so you will not be drained much.
I do. But I'm just restless. sorry
hmmp, I hope you will be okay soon.
Hey dear... Here's a tight, tight hug for you "**HUGGGGG**" What you are feeling is really hard. To be away from your beloved and your family, and not being able to be there for them when both of you needed each other most. Have you signed the contract? They are really strict with procedures there and for 3 years? That is a long time and it looks like it is beyond the reason of this pandemic. Is the paycheck worth the restrictions that you are forced to be in? It is something that will require some deeper thought. Your painting is beautiful as always and I can feel your longing there. I hope you will be able to find a solution soon.
Thank you so much for the hug, i appreciate it. And the pay is really good, specially for a starter like me that doesn't even have a license yet. It's still enough to help with my sister's school expenses and i can go out and go home if my travel pass gets approved but they're gonna be the ones who will drive me to anywhere I'll go then they'll pick me up again too
I'm also like this.I can think anything very extremely.
Oh that's rather unfortunate then
Well, that's simple, a worker become busy with his/her work. Life is not run in simple way. For leading your life and Career you need to do that.
But someone's death has nothing to do with work
Everything is a matter of thinking things very well. Try to study very well what you have, what you leave behind, what you want and if you have other possibilities, take them or leave them. It is part of growing up to face so many things.
I can't handle the death of someone i love though
I'm sorry you have to watch someone you love die. But we are stronger than we think.
He's not dead but he's bern attempting to a lot again, it scares me so much
I'm sorry you're going through this situation. If he really has the need to commit suicide, I don't think anything will stop him. It would only be a matter of time. and sooner or later it will. There are many strong things that you are going through. Look for a light to have peace with yourself.
I don't want to lose him too.. i already lost my first boyfriend in the same way, i don't think my mind can handle going through that anymore. Not after the years we've spent together
But daughter it's not about what you want. It's about what's on the minds of these people. Try to be strong yourself and do not fall into depressions that need medication. It's a vicious cycle -having depression and taking medicine - if you don't take medicine, you fall into depression.
one of the best
Best what
Paintings
Ahh thank you
Fightinggggg nee chan kaya mo yaaaan. I'll pray for you and your family, plus your boyfriend🤗
I regret working ng napakalayo 😭😭😭 and yes please, help me pray
I looovveee your art❤️❤️❤️😩
You've only saw me draw now?
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