The result of the exam came out and she pass, she was so happy that day and I'm so happy for her because she is one step closer to her dream to become a Certified Public Accountant. After she saw the result she thank me for always believing to her and for always motivating her when she feels the she's not going to pass the exam.
After one week she remember our deal that if she pass the entrance exam she will treat me and if she don't I will treat her. she set the date on when she will treat me and that day come I though it was me and her only but she chat me that her friend want to come because she also make promise to her friend that if she pass she will treat her so I agree because I have no choice I though it was a date ( I assume). I start preparing, I take my shower prepared my clothes (my favorite clothes) and the best perfume I have, then I start waiting for a jeep (a public vehicle in the Philippines) and what a coincidence she is also in the jeep where I jump on ( I Think Its a sign) so we arrive on our destination she treat us on a Korean Restaurant. sadly we didn't take any pictures I'm so nervous that afternoon so I didn't ask her for a picture but that day was so great we got more close to each other.
Fast forward first day of school we did not meet because of our schedule, I have a 7:00 am - 8:30 am class then 1 hour and 30 minutes vacant time before my next class bur she have a 8:30 am- 10:00 am class so our schedule is contrary to each other. Friday on the same week we meet on the gymnatorium of our university. Finally! a schedule the we have the same time and day, so I approach her and I'm shock that my old friends from junior high school is her classmate and my junior high school friend ask me if I know her and I said "yes, she's a friend of mine" and she start starring me that she know that I like her classmate, later that day my junior high school friend chatted me " hoy crush mo si berna no" I kept on denying but she insist that I like Berna so I confessed I said " oo na gusto ko nasi berna masaya ka na!? pero wag mo muna sasabihin ha" and she laugh at me and said " sabi ko na eh gusto mo si berna yieeee" , from that day everytime we will see each other in the hall way with berna she keep on saying " berna is AJ oh" and I replied "ikaw issue ka" after that berna has hint that I like her. September 2019 I confessed on her by giving her a portrait made by me, I waited her outside our college because all my class are done and her class will begin in 1:00 pm so I waited on the entrance of our college and give her the folder containing the portrait and a confession letter I was so nervous to the point that I can't speak when she ask me what's in the folder. after i gave her the folder I went home, while I'm on the jeep she chatted me "oy thank you sa portrait diko alam sasabihin ko sa isa mo pang binigay bat kasi ako pa" and I reply " crush na kita nung nagtatake palang tayo ng review para sa entrance exam sa BSAC" she is so speechless she don't know what to say, we stop chatting because her professor arrive. after her class we start talking again about my confession and she said that she is not ready, some part of me saying she didn't like me and many part of me saying she was just testing me if my love is real so I continue on talking to her even my friends said to me that berna is ready on taking a relationship because she is focus on her study, I ignored her advise to me because I'm so dedicated to win berna's heart I also said that I will wait for her that I will court her when we finish our studies but she insist to me that i probably should look for another woman that I deserve and I said you are the one I want and she let me do what I want with a warning that i'm only friend for her.
after 3 months, December 2019 I invited her to be my lantern date and she said that she is with my friends so I chat her friend we ate with in the korean restaurant and she said their location and finally I found them, she is pissed but smiling we spend the night together, we take pictures and this is one of our pictures the night.
after the lantern festival I posted our pictures on twitter, she don't want to upload any picture of us because of other people may think that we are couple so se got angry to me for posting the picture of ours. she was so pissed she didn't reply to my chat for 2 days and she said that we're just friends she's not ready for a relationship and I said " hindi naman kita pinipilit na sagutin ako nag post lang ako ng pics natin kasi sobrang saya ko sa twitter ko nanga lang pinost para onti makakita, sorry na garod"(I'm not forcing you to answer me, I just posted our pics because I'm so happy, I just posted on my twitter so only few people can see it , i'm so sorry) and after we explained our side we are good again.
January 2020 while we are waiting for our next class there is a girl who keep looking at me she is beautiful, she is taller than me and she got the beauty queen vibes on her and she said to my classmate that she want to talk to me so my classmate talk to me that the girl that keep looking at me wants to talk to me and
before the valentine's day we went to the cinema and watch Vodka Beers and regrets it was a great movie but you know what is more great than the movie? the experience of sitting by her side and watch movie together. after we watch the movie we went to the SM cabanatuan to buy some stuff while we are in the mall I sneak to a shop and I bought instax film for her birthday.
February 14 2020 Valentine's day I made her a paper flower and letter with 10 poem inside. I'm not from rich family so I can't buy a bouquet of flowers and chocolates, I'm just lucky that I have commission on making portrait so I have money to buy materials to make paper flower and letters. I gave the flower and the letter to her cousin because she was with her friends. now worries because her cousin is a very good friend of mine. after she got my gift for her she's so thankful to me and it melts my heart over and over again that she really appreciate what I did, but she remind me that she is not ready for relationship.
February 21, 2020 I stay up all night just to greet her exactly 12 midnight of her birthday, I wrote a message for her telling her how grateful I am to be her friend and hoping to be more than friend. sending her the song that I wrote for her and I think she disappoint on how I deliver my song because it's kind of a rap and my voice is not that good so I understand. 5:00pm both of our class are done with the help of my friend I gave her my gifts the instax film and a flip book.
March 2020 she decided to talk to me privately just the to of us and I taught she will say to me that she also like me but the opposite comes, she said that she don't want to give me a false hope that we can be a couple " madaming beses ko nang sinabi sayo na friends lang tayo diba? ayaw ko kasing may nag aantay sakin baka kasi umasa ka, hindi pa kasi ako handa talaga gusto ko munang makatapos ng pag-aaral" (Many times I told you that we are just friends, right? I don't want anyone to wait for me, maybe because you expect me to be your girlfriend, because I'm not ready yet, I really want to finish school first) and I try not to cry but the tears gets heavy and heavy until I cried while explaining why I'm still treating her as a special someone when she said to me many times that she is not ready " akala ko pagsubok lang yung sinasabi mo sakin na friends lang tayo, kaya pinagpatuloy ko, kasi gusto kita at gusto kong patunayan sayo yon sa paraang alam ko na hindi ako nag kocross ng line, kaya naman kitang antayin pag ka graduate natin" (I thought you were just trying to tell me that we are just friends, so I continued, because I want you and I want to prove it to you in a way that I know I did not cross the line, so I will wait for you when we graduate) I said. but she insist not to wait for her so I have no other choice but to accept the I can only be a friend to her.
Great article, I feel you, my guy, I been struggling too about my best friend, I like her a lot, but we are just friends, he threatened me like more than a friend but I think she's just comfortable with me.
I tried once to say what I feel, but she said we are still the same nothing change, so here I am, I will never do a move again.