The Real Deal(Episode 16)
I had to embrace the quiet, savor every bit of the silence, get acquainted to the point that it didn't matter anymore and keep moving, only then can I really understand what has the silence in store for me. I moved, with my legs shaking and heart trembling. I thought of Hossie, how I called him and he wasn't available(God help his soul cos if and when I get back, he would have me to answer to) but for now, I had to focus on finding my way around and out of here. I moved hoping to see light at the end of this oblivion that looks like a tunnel. "God please help me" I whispered loudly.
You remember what you were taught about believing, having faith and hoping?, this was the time I needed all those lessons. But my head was empty, blank and there was absolutely nothing that could help. You know, it's at moments like this that you know that, it's just you against the world. It doesn't mean that you must be in an oblivious place, it just may mean the occurrence of an oblivious activity, meeting oblivious persons and having to go through experiences whereby you feel there's no way out. What do you do? You sit down and wait for help?
Why do you think that after having the access to everything on earth as Christ had promised, you still have to ask? The answer is simple...it's just a principle that must be applied cos 'my God is not a magician'. There is no definite promise made of what you're going to meet. It could be the light which you expect or the hurt which you don't, whatever it is, the only rule to go through Is "TRUST GOD".
And this is why I became deliberate, in asking for help and moving on even when wasn't sure of what was before me and if I was ever going to see that light at the end of anything else.
I moved and suddenly I felt shaken,like there was an earthquake and the ground was opening. 'What is it again?' I questioned my courage. But as usual no reply, it was silent.
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'You all know me?' She questioned with tears in her eyes. "Yes we do Pearl" the 'fair tall slim girl' replied. "We are your sisters or should I say good friends?" The chubby dark girl picked up.
"Your name is Pearl and we love you so much" she continued.
At this point Pearl burst into tears(you know she was kukuma emotional before). Whilst this was going on the doctor came in and announced that the tests results were ready and he needed to see the other girls.
AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE:
"Hi girls" he started "let's quit the formalities and get straight to the point, I have really shown this level of interest in your friend's case because of the love of God, but there is a problem which I don't know how to relate to you". He continued.
"Doctor, we can take it please it's very important we know her status(no be HIV oh) right now" May suggested.
"OK, apart from the fact that your friend is awake, the chances of her regaining her memory is too slim for hope to be built on and the baby is alive" he said.
"What?" Janet said as she stood up in shock.
"How?" Nonso screamed as she burst into tears.
"We found out that there was no damage on her womb, all she suffered was as a result of the overdose she took and I think the trauma and the hit on her head" he said.
"You know I really think that there's a supernatural force in control of her case, there's something about her and I think we all have a hand in her staying alive and fulfilling purpose..I think all hands have to be on deck especially now, she might be traumatized but I'll alert the medical directors and take up her case from here. I promise I'll do all o can for your friend, its the best I can do" he concluded.
"How do we do this?" Dinma asked.
"I have promised that I'll do my best, she's my responsibility now till she can stand" he assured them. "My name is Jide Smith, but from now, consider me a friend... So we could start by calling me just 'Jide' " he concluded with a smile.
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In the process of trying to stand, I hit my head against the floor. I felt weak, I couldn't stand no more, there was no strength I sunk behind the ground and flashes....what are these?... I didn't know, I couldn't understand, was this an encounter(what's an encounter?)....Then I saw Hossie, again he was gone, then he came again. This time he was still. It was as if he was left by the hand like a child as he held me from falling.
Still I was falling, very fast 'Is he really here or Is he just in my head?' I thought..
"Hossie" I screamed. 'Oh he was there really, my only imagination was that he saved me but he did not, he had just stood there looking and only moved when I called. Mtchewww, why is he behaving like he's God?' I wondered.
"Why don't you want to take our relationship seriously?" He asked as he walked closer....
I froze, what was the meaning of this, who the hell does he think he was.......
The Real Deal (Episode 15)
'No, there's something definitely wrong' I thought.
I know I have water-phobia, I couldn't swim and I hate suffocating(for my health reasons) but it felt like I orchestrated everything. What exactly was wrong??.. Then I became as big as a balloon. And then I began to float, it was magical, 'I was floating on the big sea' I thought.
Something was wrong somewhere,there had to be an explanation. It was at this point I mustered all the strength left in me and I screamed the only thing I remember (louder than my lungs could carry me)
'HOSSIE' yes, that was all I screamed, wishing that someone would hear me and maybe, just maybe scream back those words I strongly believed in "don't worry baby, help is coming".
But u guess even in a master plan, there's always a loophole. My expectations were destroyed as all I heard was the sound of my own pained voice and then an echo followed,succeeded by an unbreakable silence it then it went completely dead. "DEAD SILENT"
"Sir please do you mean by loss of memory?" The 'mad girl' asked. "How on earth did it happen?" She wailed
"I don't know the doctor said, she bled a lot also but her baby is intact" he said solemnly.
"What???" May screamed. "How is that possible?", May cried. She moved away from the doctor ignoring all he was saying... As she walked to the waiting room and sat down
'God why?' She lamented within her. Why does so many bad things have to happen to her at the same time. It feels so bad, what do we tell her parents and everyone?, how did we lose guard of her actions?, how was I able to let her out of sight'.
She couldn't imagine what the doctor had said to be true. She stopped for a moment and thought, 'I'll go back and talk to her, maybe she'll recognize me, I guess she was just in shock. Pearl can't have forgotten me like that' she cried within her. 'Maybe I should just call the other girls, maybe there's something we could do for her' she thought again. 'No, i can't wait, I just have to try anyhow' she braced herself up and walked into the room where Pearl was. Walking into the room," she looks so beautiful, peaceful and happy" May thought.
May had to rehearsed countless number of times on how she would approach Pearl without creating a scene or work her up.
"OK, you've got this May" she encouraged herself as she walked into the room.
"Hi there beautiful" she started. "Seems like you're having a lot of fun?" She continued. "What are you watching?" She said at last.
Without a reply, Pearl laughed so hard that she had tear drops in her eyes. "Wow, I thought you were mad" she managed to say at last still laughing.
"Why do you think that?" May asked trying to keep the conversation without a hitch.
"You were calling me someone else's name and you were crying" she started, "And oh, how did I get here? and why has no one come to see me and who am I? I don't even know who I ............." she stopped when she realized that she didn't even know who she was. There was already tears in my eyes when she turned to me and said with the calmest voice I've ever heard "Who am I?" She asked with her smile gone and her eyes teary...
"You're Pearl Prince, you're my sister and I love you" May whispered loudly.
While she was still trying to process the information, the other girls walked into the room. "Oh thank goodness you're awake" Chidinma shouted.
Now it dawned on her that that girl wasn't mad these people knew her and there was more to the emptiness she felt in her heart.
No one was there to save me, this was the second time I came face to face with death but the only difference was that it was not by my own hand.
Many times in life we get a replay of past occurrences not because they were meant to be. It could either be for correction or for the fact that it was meant to be but 'coincidentally' and 'luckily' averted it. This was the turning point in me life and how it was to be treated mattered a lot to me, my friends, my family, my school and to the world at large because now, it was all silence and me against all of it. Somehow I felt at ease in my spirit but no one was there, who could I share these thoughts, feelings and flashes with. I have always hated being lonely but now it was the only option that I didn't choose but had to live in. 'Live in?' I asked myself...
'Wait!, how long was this oblivion going to end?' I wondered.
But there was only one way to find out................
The Real Deal (Episode 14)
Immediately I hung up the call, I walked back to the girls still smiling at the way Hossie's voice made me feel(yes I said that,so stop looking at me, his voice still had that effect on me).
"That was Hossie'' I explained.
"We know" they chorused as if it was planned.
"He worries too much Jhor" I said trying to defend myself and saturate the already stirred air(which they made ready to tease me).
In an attempt to go bring the already acidic air I to base I swirled my head and my eyes met Chidinma's who was starring at me as though through a sniper's eye, ready to shoot('how far babe?, 'I dey owe you?' my heart spat. I know what you want Dinma, but I won't give you I said to myself as I turned my eyes away from hers). "What?" I managed to say calmly.
"No, nothing" she said with a smile and then a shrug as they all burst out laughing.
'This was the right opportunity to end this taunting session on na' I advised. So I joined in the laughter(our greatest way to ease stress).
Cool, wasn't it?
But you see these my friends, they refused to let 'sleeping dog lie'.
"You really do like him, don't you?" This time it was Janet.(you can imagine, nwapino)
"Really, you girls never give up, do you?" I said covering up with a big smile as I got up and headed for the room. "I've got to take a shower" I announced as I walked slowly into the room.
"Bye ladies" I said as blowing a kiss and increasing my pace as tried to ignore further taunts. I could hear them laugh but I didn't care, I just needed to shower.
I was having a secret date with Hossie that evening and I did not want to keep him waiting.
"Did you say my friends?", No, I won't tell them. I had to avoid their taunts in anyway possible.
"OH, your questions are too much", "It's not like I enjoy the dates(bible study, prayers, or the rest, but I was getting used to him, don't judge me or 'I'll break your intestine' *in Dinma's voice*)..after all. 'PROXIMITY BREEDS AFFECTION'(argue with your hanging phone)
Minutes later I was awake, At first, everything seemed blurry but I began to recognize the faces of the persons I saw first, I couldn't.
Then I heard something who sounded and looked like a nurse say "She's awake doctor" she announced. "She's finally awake after eighteen days" she cried with a certain excitement I didn't understand. ('What's she saying?' I heard my heart speak for the first time since I woke up).
"Oh my God, Pearl is awake" I heard someone scream and running towards me but was restrained by someone on a white overall(who the hell was she?, my mind questioned me uninterestingly). I wasn't OK, my mind was playing a lot of tricks a on me. I wasn't comfortable, I wasn't me. Waitttttt!!!
'Why am I surrounded by strangers?' My instincts questioned bringing me at alert.
Suddenly, another well built young man who I would describe as a doctor came in with some tools and started checking me. He wrote some things down and asked the persons restraining the girl who wanted running towards me to let her go. Immediately she was let go, she ran towards my bedside as if her life depends on it.
"Pearl, Pearl?" She called out loudly like I was dead. "It's me" she said.
'You who?' My subconscious spat.
She was dark, beautiful,tall and a bit chubby. But I didn't know anything about her. I have never seen anyone like her all my life.
" Hey stop it, you're hurting me" I cried trying to grant my hand which was clenched to hers, some sort of independence but the grip grew tighter as the "doctors and nurses"(I think) interviewed.
"What's going on doctor?" I heard the girl scream, "Why can't she recognize me?" I heard her shout as they took her away.
'Maybe she's a mentally derailed young lady who thinks I looked like some one she knew' I soothed my troubled mind trying to massage my fist that got hurt from her clench(she really is mad I thought)
AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE:
"Calm down miss" the doctor said trying to pacify the 'mad girl'.
"Don't tell me calm down" she screamed, "My friend can't recognize me and you ask me to calm down?" She shot again.
"There's something you should know" the doctor started. "I think your friend has amnesia" he dropped the bomb.
"Doctor what do you mean?" I questioned (I was lost I was for Christ sake studying psychology).
"I don't know, I am not totally sure yet but we'll run some tests" he started "I think your friend has lost her memory" he explained as the bomb that was dropped earlier exploded....
I went into the room and got into the shower, I purposely put my head in the water. It was hot and I needed to think.
I had a lot floating in my head and it felt like I was going to explode.
What on earth was wrong with me? I guess I was having those mood swing again but I guess it was different 'cos I felt numb.
Suddenly I couldn't move, my heart felt dead, my brain stopped I couldn't move and then flashes, I saw a lot of things(things I didn't understand).
I screamed, I was suffocating, I needed air. I screamed again but the sound of the shower and music (which I liked playing while 'think bathing' *which i did everyday* drained my voice) but I kept screaming....more than my lungs could carry. Then I realized,there were no more lungs....just water....I had it in my system...I could feel it I was in the ocean...it wasn't i??
Please someone tell me what's going on??????
Tagging God A Liar
Five years after receiving God's word, that you'll be married to a caring wealthy man, you're still unmarried, in fact, a regular client to abusive and failed relationship.
After a word that Father would not die from the chest condition that troubled him. He still passed on.
After the deceleration that the pattern of divorce in the family, will not be your portion. Your lovely husband changed over night. And few weeks latter, you were back home.
You were told that a big job opportunity will come to you. 5 years now, not even a supermarket wants to employ you.
The song " God said it and I believed it and that settles it " most times is A LIE.
Something is surely missing in the equation; for we truly believe!
God said it
We believed it
We war with it in the place of prayer
Prepared for it
And that settles it.
The place of responsibility of a believer, in bringing God's prophecy to fulfilment cannot be overemphasized.
1 Timothy 1:18
This charge and admonition I commit in trust to you, Timothy, my son, in accordance with prophetic intimations which I formerly received concerning you, so that inspired and aided by them you may wage the good warfare.
God prophecy comes to encourage and inspire our heart, pointing Gods intent for you, but you must war with it until fulfilment.
God has laws and principles he operates. Spirit do not bypass men to establish their reign or government. A man must insistently bring to bearing or manifestation, their reign or purposes.
The heaven of Heaven belongs to God, But the earth has He given to the sons of men.
It is your responsible to pray, and prepare for the manifestation of God's prophecy.
Don't not fold your hands and expect the manifestation, with the excuse that God knows.
Yes He does, but you must show your insufficiency and dependency when you pray! And stay praying until answers come.
Do not also undermine the place of preparation, it sets you above, and in the right rada, when answer come.
Please don't tag God a lie, DO YOUR PART!
I am Ephraim Inyang, and I bring you God's word in the simplest of words.
The Real Deal (Episode 13)
I chop pizza sotey I fear myself. It was just a few slices away before it started growing on my head.
'These girls think say them get sense' I thought. "Them go fear me" I said loudly to myself.
It was a whole lot fun, you won't believe those girls stayed at the door waiting patiently till I got tired.
"You know she doesn't eat much" Goodness recalled.
"Don't worry she got soon open the door" May supported.
When I knew and was satisfied that I would run away from pizza if I ever saw it again, I opened up the door as my "sisters" pounced on what was left like hungry lions(that's what they were).
They finished it before I could get to wash my hand and started running after me like 'freshly baked mobile pizza'(hahaha) like seriously?
(Are you asking me?)..they can't catch me...have you forgotten that I am an athlete?, I outran them all...lol.
When all of the wild goose chase was over, we sat down and laughed till Nonso started running slides of pizza through her nose.
"Nonso take it easy ooo" May cautioned, "We would be ashamed to announce that you died of excessive consumption of pizza" she joked as we all laughed so hard that Dinma broke the chair on which she sat on.
I drank the drugs carefully, I was sure it was what I wanted. I was ready to go and face God, 'after all He didn't really care about me' I told myself.
For the first time in many months, I was sure of what I really wanted "to leave this miserable world" I smiled amidst the tears that chocked me.
In twenty minutes, I had granted about thirty-eight pills a safe passage into my stomach. I should've felt good, shouldn't I???
Yes, I was supposed to, but I didn't. The painful twitch in my stomach reminded me that I flashed death and he was calling me back. I had no choice, I had to respond to his call as I lay my head down on the dining table clenching my stomach, I realized that I was not just soaked in tears but in a pool of my own blood also. Upon this realization, I wept, not because I felt pain, but because of the pain I would be putting everyone through.
(I really wonder why people think its so easy to commit suicide, it's not a mission that can ever be completed in one day, it takes a lot of courage and strength and courage developed by hurt and pain that has been bottled up over the years, plus it hurts a lot). These were my thoughts as my spirit floated away from it's host...I WAS GONE.
I was happy, there suddenly was no pain, everything felt so beautiful, quiet and peaceful. A type of peace I have never felt before, suddenly it was disturbed as I heard the sound of many voices I couldn't identify, all calling out to me. The voices floated across my ears, like a strong force I was pulled out of this amazing peace. I struggled but those forces were stronger than I was, still I fought with strength from no where....at that point I wondered 'what if I stayed alive and fought with all these strength that I am using to pull myself towards oblivion, maybe, just maybe I'll be fine and others too'. But no, I was greedy, I cared more about running away from my pain than putting smiles in the faces of the people that cared about me in this world.
"What is going on?" I could detect as they struggled to lift my lifeless body off the ground. Then u heard the ambulance siren blare, I imagined the colors, they were beautiful, I thought.
Suddenly, my phone rang. It was Hossie. I am sure he was calling to know if everyone was okay because I had notified him of the panic call. I picked it and looked at scolded her saying "looked what you caused, you made my prince worried" I teased. "I've got to take this" I excuse myself cos of the noise caused by their uproarious laughter and chattering.
"Hi baby" came Hossie's voice. "Hope you are OK?" He continued, "Hope the girls are fine?" He went on and on.
"Babe pause" I said laughed "Everyone is fine so calm down, I'll talk to you later OK? I said.
"Alright darling" he responded.
"I love you" I said as I hung up.
''Hossie can worry" I said aloud to myself a o went back in to meet the girls.
The Real Deal (Episode 12)
"It's okay Hossie" I consoled. "I hold nothing against you, we're good" I concluded.
"Really?" Hossie screamed and he lifted me off the ground for a hug.
In that same way, he carried me to our secret place.('i have really missed this guy' i said to myself).
It felt so good to be with Hossie again after a very long time.
It wasn't long when we started discussing the usual's(fasting,Prayers,Bible study.....etc). 'Dah! This guy no dey waste time ooo' I said to myself smiling.
But seriously, I've missed all of these stuffs and getting to do them again felt so amazing. Hossie and I spent about three hours fellowshipping. It was an amazing experience and I was happy that I didn't lose him.
I intended to spend more time with Hossie, but for the panic call that came in from Goodness, I explained to that I had to go home but not without the promise to come back as soon as everything was okay.
With this, Hossie kissed me goodbye as I ran to the bus stop to take a bus that'll take me home.
On my way, I tried calling Goodness again cos I was so worried but I couldn't get through to her coupled with the fact that all their phones were switched. At this time my panic was heightened and my heart almost exploded within me.
'I just hope that everything is okay' I sighed under my breath as I said a silent prayer for my friends. I boarded a tricycle and my destination was "home".
"I hope that helps in the enhancement of your brain a little bit?" Nonso questioned.
Suddenly, it felt like Archie got possessed with another spirit as he suddenly began to plead for mercy.
"You know what?" Dinma started, "We're not here to argue with you, we just need the details on your plans of becoming a father and taking care of Pearl" she concluded as we all got up and walked out of the room.
"I'm so disappointed in you bro" I could hear Janet scream as well all walked out slamming the door as if its force was able to correct everything and bring it back to it's normal again. But trust me, it didn't.
When we got home,it was already dark, and the house was dead silent as everyone was lost in her own thoughts. No one was even hungry, so we just went to bed on an empty stomach.
At about 10pm May woke me up to have some tea and biscuits. But I refused, I wasn't in the mood for anything or anybody. She insisted.
"Come on Pearl" she said, "You have to eat something no matter how little, remember what the doctor said and don't also forget that you'll be having an appointment with him in two days" she said as she supported me to sit up and eat.
The remaining part of the night was torturous for me, even when May went to bed I found it difficult to close my eyes. I stood up and went to the kitchen. All I could think about was the next step to take, definitely no one especially in family is going to accept me with such shame.
Then I thought of taking my own life or that of the baby. I wasn't sure what having an abortion entailed so I just decided to take my own life and that of the baby all the same.
'Yes, that's exactly what I'm going to do' I assured myself.
At this moment I felt so confident as I picked up all of the drugs prescribed for me and poured them into my palm(I was going to die of overdose,the drugs were much and I trusted that they were more than enough to knock me and the baby out of this earth).
Suddenly I stopped as I thought about my friends and everyone who knows me, ('how are they going to feel' i imagined, their pain and tears but I determined in my heart that nothing was going to stop me, "this is the only way" I thought). I said a short prayer, asking God to take care of everything and everyone as i began to take the drugs one after the other.
When I got to the street I alighted(forgetting my change, it really didn't matter to me at this point in time) and took a quick run down home.
When I got home,to my greatest shock and surprise, I found my friends all in perfect health with amazing smiles having a romantic affair with some pizza and making the atmosphere of romance conducive with a bottle of wine.
I began to recall the tension in Goodness's voice when she made the panic call and tried to link it with what I was hearing and seeing right now, but trust me, there was no equilibrium point. At this juncture, 'I weak' ,as i dropped on the chair panting.
"Did these girls just play a prank call on me?" I asked myself by myself.
"If you like,sit down there and be looking, we're almost done with one pack already" Goodness said amidst a mouthful if pizza.
Those words immediately brought healing to my soul and restored my sanity, they can't go 'Scott free' they had to pay for the #300 I left with 'keke man'. With the strength of David that killed a thousand and Sampson that tore the Lion's mouth, I pounced on the unopened pack if pizza as I claimed it like the promised land and ran into the room. 'Thank God I still have the bottle of fanta Hossie got for me' i sighed as I remembered that I left the wine behind.
"Pearl open this door" Chidinma barked(I know say she too like food, na she got first ask)
"I'll break this door" Goodness screamed(see this one ooooo, you think say this door na Archie face ba)
"Pearl that's covetousness" Nonso declared (oh you dey judge my case abi..e go tire you)
"That pizza will hook your throat ooooo" Janet declared (hahahaha)
I sat there, and enjoyed myself till I "couldn't could" anymore....
The Real Deal (Episode 11)
Of course Dinma's birthday went on well as beautiful as planned. We had a lot of fun and most importantly, was her very obvious happiness as was evident with her uncontrollably grinning from ear to ear. I was definitely convinced that she was pleased(we sure put in a lot of work cos it was almost impossible to please Dinma).
After all said and done, it was time for me to face Hossie. He's been calling, text and all but I just needed to ignore him for those moments (I didn't want anything to ruin my moments with Dinma on her birthday), so since we've come to the end of that segment, facing Hossie wasn't such a bad idea.
I picked up my phone, scrolling through it to see the particular text where he said I should let him know when I got his text (so let's just say I just got it, so that it will not be that am missing him, make i form small.....lemme not hear anything from your mouth ooo). So I just did a quick, simple and unemotional text, "Hi Hossie, I got your text."
Then I lay back and awaited his reply. In less than thirty seconds, his call came in but I didn't pick (no name, I cannot come and fall my hand na). He called two other times and I declined. When he realized that I wasn't going to pick up the call, he sent me a text message. I read, smiling to myself
"Hello Pearl, I've missed you so much, I really need to see you. Please can we meet at our usual place? It has grown cold without you".
When I got back to the house, I found it extremely difficult to live my normal life. I couldn't eat,couldn't sleep and didn't even know how to talk to my friends(it was that difficult for me). I felt so different from them and it was killing me faster than even the fact that I was pregnant.
We all sat there starring at each other as no one knew the right word for the moment.
"We have to find a way to contact my brother, Archie" Janet broke the silence (as she always does).
"Why?" Goodness asked.
"He's obviously the owner of the baby or isn't he?" Nonso inquired.
"Nonso that's a silly thing to say" May queried, "We all know the owner of the child is Archie" she continued, "And I think we need to pay him a visit" May noted with a tone of finality as she stormed onto the room(she doesn't always show sadness but this time, it was obvious that she was upset and it hurt me to see her that way)
"Come on Pearl, you need to freshen up" Dinma said as she gave me a hand of support to get on my feet.
Twenty minutes later,we were on our way to Archie's house. On getting there, the house was locked.
"Pearl,do you still have his number?" Nonso inquired.
"Not really, it was on that phone that was stolen" I recalled.
"Let me try the one I have" Janet suggested.
"Hello big bro" she called out a few seconds later.
"Yes am at your house" she answered.
"I'll wait for you" she concluded as she hung up the call.
"He's on his way back" she announced.
"OK" May answered as well all sat on the stone outside the house.
Sooner than we sat down, Archie got back. The shocked look on his face showed that he wasn't expecting to see us all(I guess he was expecting just Janet). He stood pouted to the spot just staring at all our faces,('what the hell is going on'), I could almost hear his thoughts.
"Bro, the key" Janet demanded(waking him up from his traumatized state).
"Are you going to invite us in or not" Dinma shot at him still staring even when the door was open.
"What's going on here?" Archie asked
'Oh, he finally found his voice' I thought.
"Can someone tell me what this is all about!?" He thundered.
"You really want to know?" Janet exploded. "Fine I'll tell you" she concluded as she threw the test results at his face and sat down angrily.
"What is the meaning of this?" He demanded "What has this gotten to do with me?" He asked.
"Really it has everything to do with you" May thundered.
At this time, Nonso stood up defensively and said, "Maybe you can't read, but it is written there that Pearl is pregnant and you beyond all reasonable doubt, are the father of that child she's carrying" she concluded.
"Me?" He stammered(looking as confused as his speech sounded) "Is that what she told you?" He tried to defend himself. "She left my house about six weeks ago and anything is possible...." He was saying when Goodness cut him short with a slap(which sounded like the sound of many waters) across his face. Then he went dead silent as his brain began to reboot slowly again.
Hmmmm. 'I couldn't continue being angry' I cautioned myself. I was missing Hossie already and it wasn't funny.
I got up took a quick shower and ran off to our "secret place". When I got there, Hossie was already there waiting for me. Immediately I saw him I felt like running to him and giving him the greatest hug he's ever felt. 'But that wasn't part of the plan' I said to myself (I needed to feign annoyance a little).
In all of this, I got no morale support from myself 'cos immediately I saw Hossie, all the protective walls of pride I built crumbled as I tan into his outstretched arms for a teddy bear hug('oh! how I've missed this guy' I thought).
"I've missed you so much Pearl" Hossie cried.
"This place has not been the same without you" he continued('how e go be the same' my pride supported).
"Please let's go back to the way it used to be" he pleaded.
Hmm mm mm......(let me not just rush this thing, make I do shakara small,after all I sabi sey this guy love me too much so no shaking)
So I just stood there looking at him as he stood pleadimg (make e beg small).
The Real Deal (Episode 10)
I woke up at around 4:30am, It's Dinma's birthday and i was super excited, so excited that I couldn't even sleep. I chuckled when i noticed Nonso was missing from the room too(I thought it was only me).
When I was done with prayers, I stepped out of the room only you find May in the kitchen trying to put finishing touches to the cake we started baking yesterday(I didn't even notice that she was up already).
"Good morning May" I greeted giving her a hug from behind startling her.
"My God, Pearl you started me" she said without looking back. "Good morning to you too"she added turning back with a smile on her face. I just 'smiled loudly'.
"Where is Nonso?' I asked suddenly realizing that she wasn't in the kitchen.
"You won't believe it", Maybe started. "She's sitting in the bathroom waiting for Chidinma to go and have her morning pee so should give morning bath just like on her(Nonso's) birthday" May explained laughing hard.
"Chai, eyes have not seen,ears have not heard what Nonso has on store for Dinma this morning" I commented.
Just then Goodness stepped out of the room.
"Good morning everyone" she greeted in whispers. "CHIDINMA is awake already" she announced as I exchanged glances with May and we laughed. We could see the confusion on Goodness's face as she begged for an explanation.
But 'no',our own expression said. She was going to find out why soon enough.
Just as if our thoughts preceded the actions, there came a heavy splash in the bathroom..can you guess what it was?
Yes, 'you guessed correctly I guess'. It was the conjugation of holy matrimony between Dinma and 'cold water' where Nonso was the officiating 'minstrel'(I also imagine you know how much she hates cold water).
A doctor, yes,I saw the face of the doctor on duty when I was rushed to the hospital(e shock you abi)
"Hello there" he said in a voice single but sweeter than 'achi soup'(comman beat me na,ooin i have left your house)
"Who are you?" I asked(even though it was kinda obvious), "Why am I here?" I fired again as my brain was booting slowly "Where are my friends?" I asked almost immediately.
"Young lady" he said, "You might need to calm down and lay on your back, you don't want to hurt yourself and the baby" he said as he turned back to leave. "I'll alert your friends that you're awake" he announced as he closed the door of the room where I was imprisoned.
I didn't move, I was automatically muted.
'What on earth was this guy talking about?' I thought. 'What baby?' I asked myself by myself.
Just then Janet, Nonso and May stepped in.
"What was he talking about?" I questioned no one in particular, screaming with tears streaming down my face.
"Pearl,please calm down, this is a hospital" Janet pacified.
"Answer me" I screamed even louder( I didn't care, I just needed answers)
Just then, May stepped into the room wearing a sullen face.
"Pearl darling, I am so sorry" she said as she gave me a warm hug. All I could do was nod my head, I was searching for answers inside of me. Unfortunately the only thing I could find was that 'I was going to be a mom' sooner than I thought
"Why do we do now?" Chidinma asked.
"The doctor said she'll be discharged today" May notified them. "And he asked to see her before she leaves the hospital" she explained.
"Okay" Goodness said, speaking for the first time since I woke up. "When this drip finishes, we alert the nurse to take it off and we got see him" she suggested as they all sat down.
Twenty minutes later, May came in with the nurse and the drip was taken away. It was then I realized that it was a very big hospital that could come with big charges. 'How are we gonna get through this?' my heart fired at me.
"How are we gonna pay the bills?" I fired back at May.
"Don't worry, there'll be a way" she reassured me.
On getting to his office, May knocked on the door. "Come in" came the voice from within('sounds so much like the rude doctor's voice' i thought). We got in and found him sitting on his chair with his head buried into some papers.
"Good day sir" we greeted.
"Good day to you all too" he replied without lifting his head (this guy has pride oh). Though he was younger than I expected for a doctor (about 25).
I looked around and noticed a name which appeared on almost everything in the room 'JIDE SMITH'('that must be his name' i thought).
"Who did you say she is to you again?" He asked throwing the question to no one in particular(so they have even told you before).
"She's our sister" Goodness answered.
"All of you are sister?" He asked again.
"Sir, she's an important friend to us, we all stay together" May explained.
"Where are her parents?" He interrogated.
"At Akwa-ibom state sir" Chidinma answered.
"But they can't know about this" Janet added.
"Very well then" he said as he turned to me.
"Young lady,I'll be having an appointment with you in two days as I have a seminar to catch up with today, so all you have to do is go home and take the drugs administered to you" the said.
He turned back to my friends saying "She's under your car, take her home and bring her in two days" he concluded.
"OK sir" they replied as well walked out of the office hand in hand.
"Jesus" Chidinma screamed as we all rushed to the bathroom songs of happy birthday piercing through the morning quiet.
'The water dripping, defeated Chidinma' was a beautiful sight to behold, it gave us all an air of satisfaction that we still had a little control over her(even though she can control all our controls put together..lol).
Suddenly, she started sobbing (was that her getting emotional or did water enter her nose).
Chidinma, though tough, is very soft and sweet on the inside. She has a large heart big enough for anyone and everyone she encounters (that' why she has plenty children without a father).
A Zealous God-chaser, determined, beautiful, skillful in everything she does, dramatic, Reckless eater(cause autocorrect I meant 'giver'), sacrificial and so loveable.
Bia, May, does she like book??
I've forgotten, please remind us.
This was all I could say to her during the party but trust me, she's more than that. I have to leave the floor for others to take their turn.
The Real Deal (Episode 9)
"Janet, how is everything and everyone at home" May asked as she was frying the chicken for stew(wetin??, is it a crime to eat chicken as a student??)
"They're very well, and mum sends her greetings" she replied smiling and doing the dishes as if her life depended on it(after all it was the only thing that she could do properly).
"Awnnnnn" Goodness commented as she chopped the onion in a rhythmical manner(wait there were tears in her eyes,was it the onion or was she getting emotional).
"How's baby Peace?" Chidinma asked in between a mouthful of white rice she claimed to be tasting(no be my mouth you hear am)
"She's very fine and she's getting even more beautiful than her mum by the day" Janet fired smiling widely.
'That was it, that was all it took to ruin my day' i thought as I stumbled out of the kitchen leaving my friends in shock.
"Pearl, Pearl?" I could hear Nonso scream at the top of her voice.
I was so lost for words, I couldn't thank these girls enough , they've actually just wiped the tears from my soul('but they would've come earlier' I thought. 'Well thank God they came anyway' I said under my breath to counter the previous thought).
"Thanks very much girls" I managed to say as I found my voice. "Am extremely grateful for this" I said as tears streamed out of my eyes.
"Awnnnn,it's ok" the fair slim girl said for the first time as she gave me a hug(the best I've ever felt in a while and it worked)
"I am most grateful" I said wiping my face with the back of my hand.
"You're welcome darling"the dark,chubby girl said.
"You'll be fine"the tall,slim one reassured.
"By the way we didn't get to introduce ourselves" Janet observed.
"Yes, you're right"the fair,slim girl agreed. "I'll go first" she suggested. "My name is Chinonso but feel free to call me Nonso" she said stylishly.(I just smiled at her intonation)
"I am Chidinma"the dark,chubby girl said, "but you can call me Dinma" she smiled revealing a set of white pretty teeth(e be like say na fowl shit she dey use brush mouth).
"Am Goodness" the tall,slim(she never fat that time), dark girl said taking my attention off the 'fowl shit teeth'.
"But you can call her Goody" Nonso joked causing an uproarious laughter.
"And I am May" the tall,dark 'perfect body-siezed' girl said finally (awnnnnnn,shes so beautiful I thought). "There's no short form for my name" she said again piercing into my thoughts as another round of uproarious laughter erupted in the room.
"I am so happy today seriously,you girls are the best" I said smiling.
Then I remembered Archie, I had to cook up a lie so I could move out without stress. 'He doesn't even own me so it won't be a problem' I consoled myself...
I had grown so fond of Archie,leaving him was like leaving a part of me behind(trust me it was a part I was glad to leave).
I left Archie's house the next day(trust me he wasn't bothered cos someone else was there by the time I left). I got to my new abode on about thirty minutes and I was welcomed with a special delicacy of noodles and fries egg(Janet must have given them a clue that I can slap....shhhhh..you too like aproko).
That was it....they accepted me and took care of me sincerely from the depth of their spirit. They were God-chasers and all attempts they made to bring me to 'the light' as they called it, I turned it down easily and I was living my life.(but in all of these,they never abandoned me)
I never thought life could be as sweet as as it was right now,I had the most beautiful set of friends in the world (undermining the fact that they were the first persons I called 'friends'). They were really angels. I had never felt so much love in my life before,indeed am blessed (blessen't I?)
One faithful morning, I woke up nauseating,weak and feverish. It became worse by evening even after taking the malaria drugs I was administered by the matron I was taken to down the road. I was taken back to her the next day as Janet had suggested. She ran a test on me and discovered that I was down with typhoid and treatment started in earnest(what were you expecting?,you feel say na Nollywood be this abi). This actually one of the best parts of my life because it was I met Jide Smith. Remember him right??(yea,the guy who broke my heart,the first I ever loved)...
It was at this time I met him.
Whattt?(calm down ooo, don't rush me). I will tell you on one condition...bribe me with noodles and egg.
Three days after the treatment, I was rushed to the clinic, I was getting even more worse and the matron herself was confused.
I had fainted and was rushed there by my panicking friends.
According to them, I was unconscious for a long time but when I woke up the first face I saw was......
"What is wrong with you?" Nonso asked.
"Why would you storm out of the kitchen like that?" Dinma asked.
"Pearl, what's wrong?" May asked as she sat by me.
"Nothing" I screamed(trying to gain composure to pull the strings I constructed
"Then why are you acting weird?" Goodness asked.
"I just don't like hearing about baby Peace, you know what it does to me", I cried.
"I'm so sorry" Chidinma apologized emphatically.
"But seriously Pearl,you really need to heal of this pain" May advised. "You seriously have to get rid of this pain and move on" she emphasized as she wiped the tears in my eyes.
"I am trying, but its not that simple" I defended.
"We understand dear, and we are sure going to help you" Nonso advised. "But only if you're ready, you need to help is too you need to help us too" she added.
"I am ready, I really need to take my life a bit seriously" I responded.
"We're so proud of you girl, we'll help you" Janet said.
"Now let's go back to the kitchen and keep our beautiful faces bright, remember its Dinma's birthday tomorrow" Goodness said in excitement. https://web.facebook.com/dinma.evelyn?__cft__[0]=AZWF9fBTYUCkRP9hj1-45lzcAFToK8KgSJHqUYBXzHPmy6i1YFn-PirjI4IAjEn1I_js2b5aCak45U5zeJjRcfPH9nVQclJzfCVe36uxmG6gauz98gd2frqVzzHRGCat5Zujt7ObBBzDQVM33audFMb0yjXBCRRP-qVyDxzAlRitxw&__tn__=-]K-R
"Yes oooo, celebrations loading" Chidinma announced as we all came together giving her a teddy bear hug(the part I love most).
The Real Deal (Episode 8)
"Oh Hossie, why na?" I grumbled, "why is there no food in this house?" I kept lamenting, "don't you know that I would eat food?" eh Hossie?" I rode on. "So........"(I would have continued if he didn't cut me off.
"Ohhh Pearl, please spare me this episode of your tantrums, must you eat sef?" he thundered.(this guy get mind ooo, him no sabi sey i be warri girl, I go just burst bottle for e head). "Your violent thought is not going to stop me from addressing this issue either" he said as if to read my thoughts.
"But am hungry na,since I left the other day I've not eaten"(bia, i don't want to hear pim,that Chidinma food that tasted like rat sauce...mtchewww)
"Really Pearl" he shot at me "I have told you there are alot of things you have to drop as regards getting serious with your life,it should be a deliberate acti".... he was still talking when I cut in shutting him up.
"Hossie please spare me all of those pep talks, I don't have strength for you today, am going home. Good night Hossie" I screamed banging the door behind me...
Janet seemed quite unlike her brother Archie,as well got talking she made me understand that Archie had told to her that he had a sick friend he wanted her to nurse in his absence. She talked like a good Christian girl but her stern look gave her away(so I ruled over it, as far as I was concerned,I couldn't trust her). I didn't even care, after all God had forgotten me and didn't care what I do(yes I was so sure of that)
She also asked why I had to stay with a man, and showed her disapproval towards it despite the fact that the man in question was her brother.(see this girl ooo, who does she think she is)
"it reduces our value dear"she said "cohabitation with a man who's not your husband is wrong before God and it doesn't tell well of you to a responsible person",she continued(you are still talking about responsibility? I thought).
Archie had lied to her but I couldn't bring myself to narrate my ordeal to her I felt so helpless and I burst out in tears. She felt so sad and broken when I started weeping, I saw the tears in her eyes(she sincerely was sorry for me or so I thought). From that moment, she promised to be my friend and help me when she could ('how can you even do that when you don't even know the truth?', I thought within me).
Two days later,Janet left as she told me. She had earlier stated that she stays with her friends.
When she left,my illicit life continued with her brother. I was now living with Archie as a 'wife'. I had to do all the house chores except cooking (cos he was way better than I was in that aspect). I performed my wifely duties very well especially in bed, I got used to giving him my body whenever he wanted it. My grades started dropping as I started losing concentration, depression set in,I wasn't comfortable, this wasn't the kind of life I wanted for myself but what can I do. I was helpless, I couldn't even bring myself to tell anyone. I wanted to scream, to let anyone know that I needed help ASAP, but there was no one.
Suddenly I remembered Janet and her promise to me. I decided to give her a try(not with much expectations too), after all I had absolutely nothing to lose even if she decided to treat me as trash, I was going to go back to eating the 'achie soup' I was rejecting right now by my act.
Picking up my phone, I dialed Janet's number.
"Hello Janet, good afternoon" I called out as the line went active on the other end.
"Hello, please who's on the line?" She replied
"Its Pearl, we met sometime ago at your brother's house" I explained
"Oh What's up" said almost immediately "how are you?, how's everything going on with you?, hope you're fine?...."she continued endlessly.
"Can I see you?" I asked cutting her short (if I leave her, she got talk like say the Airtime name free and I no dey like long talk).
"Ok" she sighed (as if she has been expecting it), "I'll text you the address right now "she said as she hung up(na wa ooo..na me call, na you dey help me end call).
I got to the house twenty minutes later. I met Janet and her friends, though I felt so uncomfortable but she said assured me it was okay to talk to them. Before I opened my mouth to speak, the tears were out already. Oh! how I couldn't hold it anymore, I poured out all the content of my heart and by the time i was done, I lifted my face and discovered that they were in tears also(I no understand ooo,they are helping me cry the cry that Is not their own).
They sat there as if they were glued to the seat, then finally Janet broke the silence...(she kukuma is a sanguine)
"Am so sorry Pearl" she mumbled in between tears "Am sorry"she continued.
"Do you still live with him" the chubby,dark girl asked(she suddenly found her voice)
"Yes ma" I answered
"Why?" The slim, tall dark girl shot.
"I have nowhere to go" I replied.
"Mm mm mm, I think we can fix that" The last girl added.
"How?" Janet inquired, wearing a confused look.
"She'll come live with us" the last girl spoke again.(I turned and stared at her with my mouth widely opened).
"What?" I exclaimed.
"Yes" the slim, tall and dark girl added.
"I'm in support" the other one said, "You just have to leave that house.
I couldn't believe my ears, I felt like I was dreaming.
"DOES IT MEAN THAT THERE'S STILL HOPE FOR ME?" I asked myself.('MAYBE GOD STILL CARED ABOUT ME' I thought).
When I got back home, Janet was back already, just as Chidinma predicted. She had traveled to go see her niece who was sick in the village
(Be shining your eye, I have nothing to tell you).
"Hi Janet, welcome darling" I greeted as I went straight to the room (I tried so well to hide my anger). "Pearl WhatsApp, I missed you, come and join me" she invited me (she was eating a plate of fufu and groundnut soup.
"Thanks am not hungry" I screamed banging the door.
Few minutes on, Janet came in with Chidinma, May and Goodness.
"Baby what's up, why are you crying?" May inquired placing my head on her shoulder(you needed to see Janet's face as May called me baby)
"Wait oh" Janet cut in, "how is she na the baby in the house?, I have not even died, she have taken my place" she asked feigning annoyance.
At the sound of this,I laughed as I remembered Chidinma's statement on Janet's return.
"I said it" Chidinma supported my thoughts.
This time, I laughed even harder..
"Trouble has come" was all Goodness could mutter.
The laughter couldn't be connected, we all began to laugh and forgot what we were talking about. This even made us laugh more as well all stood up to go to the kitchen and make dinner, TOGETHER AS SISTERS (yes, that's exactly who we are).
The Real Deal (Episode 7)
This Chidinma sef, she will just be scolding me anyhow.
"Pearl, who will carry that plate for you?" Chidinma queried.
"Ohhh, hapum biko"(leave me alone) I screamed.
"Lemme go back to my sleep jhor, May will carry the plate for me" I thought(chaiii, laziness will not comman kill me ni).
I moved in with Archie and everything was going on well, he did a good job caring for me and everything was normal. Then he started making advances(not that it's new oo, we've sha kissed once or twice but I wasn't ready for the other one, don't ask me stupid question oo). The trouble was that he wanted to subscribe to a channel he didn't pay for(who does that?).
We had times where I had to lash out on him and walk out of the house(how long was I supposed to do this) till his blood pressure returned back to normal(you know na, agaracha must come back)
"Archie, pull yourself together, remember you promised to be a gentleman ooo" I'll address him sometimes (when his head sparked).
"I be firewood?" He'll fire back at me "you're talking as if you don't know that I like you a lot ehhh?,and I want to marry you"(marry fire).
"I'll take care of you, just give me a chance "he'll say pleadingly.
"Give you a chance to do what exactly Archie?" I'll reply.
"To make you feel like a baby na" he answers confidently.
('Baby ko, baby ni'. 'Must you treat me like a baby by seeing my pants?' I grumbled in my chest. 'Abi I cannot baf myself' I thought further. Oh I forgot, "Babies are disabled" mtchewww, I hissed loudly)
"What is it?" he inquired taking his attention off the hot pot of vegetable soup he was preparing (I forgot to tell you,He's a good cook. Don't look at me like that, I cannot be cooking when there is a guy in the house. 'ARGUE WITH YOUR BROKEN SCREEN')
"Nothing, I just need to think about it" I lied(mtchewww wahala dey oo).
"If you like think from now till tomorrow, man must chop" he mumbled aloud, loud enough for me to hear him(chaiii, this boy is not serious oo. Shey I be food you want to chop ni? I hissed)
"Na condition make crayfish bend "I whispered as I went out to get some air(for where, I dey wait make this soup ready).
I was able to 'play' a fool out of Archie for a little while, he played along cos he couldn't hurt me(he had small human feelings). But as it's said "he who fight and runs away, live to eat the Archie(achi) soup another day.
On this fateful day, he came back home extremely drunk(sure he did it on purpose to execute his plans) locking the door behind him and keeping the key beyond my arms reach (shey when God was sharing height, I went to eat noodles).
"Take off your clothes "he commanded
"What are you trying to do Archie?" I demanded
"Please I don't want to fight you"I cried(this time sincerely.
"Fight me?, you that cannot even fight me"he mocked.
That was it, Archie was twice my size and I couldn't do anything about it...I decided to keep calm and save myself the pain( shey that's what phlegms do).
And it happened(he eventually ate that food that has been hungering him),I was helpless(me wey no even get strength sef),Archie got what he wanted on a platter of gold.
I cried, confused, broken, defeated and crushed. I stormed out of the house that night, halfway into the darkness, I stopped and thought, "where am I going to? "I asked myself.
It's not as if I was totally mad, I knew it was going to happen anyway (don't judge me, He's a guy , what was I expecting?), just that I didn't expect it so soon.
Hmm, 'i just have to go back' I consoled myself. At this point I cared less about what would be happening next, I braced myself ready for the rough ride I had decided to painfully take(yes, it was painful).
I got back to the house and slept in Archie's cuddle that night(if you look at me I'll chook your eye,you thought I was joking ba).
When he woke up that morning he demanded for 'breakfast' and I gave him willingly(life goes on, no stress, they you were there when he reminded me that I cannot beat him?). "After all I owe him a lot" I thought foolishly(abi no be so?)
I felt sore and terrible but I kept it to myself.
Later that evening, he called his baby sister, Janet(who was tiny but looked like a 'runs' babe),to come stay with me and probably cheer me up as he was leaving for the village the next day..
I can clearly remember the sound of her voice as she said "HI, my name is Janet" and you are?
"Pearl" I replied
"Nice name"she teased, "My bro said you needed company, can we be friends?" She asked nicely.
(God of Elijah, who send Archie message..my heart suggested)
"Yea,sure we can" I found myself saying.
Guess what!?, she was way more than I expected...
"Pearl,Pearl" CHIDINMA called twice shaking me in her usual manner(why does she have to be the one to wake me up all the time)
"Your phone's been ringing and its Hossie calling" she said calmly(which was unusual cos she always screamed).
('Ohhhhhhh...i complained in my heart ignoring her kindness)
"Oh really" my mouth gave out.
"Let me just have my bath,we have a date tonight" and please tell the girls I won't be coming back(referring to Nonso,Goodness and May who were nowhere to be found).
"This date wey you dey go everyday and you no dey carry anything come,we no even SABI the guy sef" she said.
"Chidinma, I don't have strength to talk Niko" I said defenselessly. "That food still remain?" I asked.(trying to break free from the pants of sleep that held me bound)
"Ehhhhnnnn,don't even talk about that food oooo, shey you know that 'the lion and the Lamb'(as Many was kindly called due to her meek and defensive traits) is not around?" She shot at me. "Shey that food still remain?" She asked sarcastically mimicking me.
"Please na Chidinma" I begged.
"Pearl biko hapum ooo"(leave me alone o), she laughed.
"Go and meet your Hossie"she commented. "Or I'll break your kidney before May gets back"...she added walking out of the room.
"Don't worry, Janet is coming today, you will now know that you're not a baby"she added.
"See who want to break kidney" I said as I laughed aloud causing the sleep to vanish completely. 'Ignorant law student' i thought aloud still laughing as I stood up to take a shower.
"Wait ooo.....did I hear Janet?" I thought whilst under the shower.
'Mtchewww' I hissed when I visulised her....(how tiny and helpless she looks when I taunt her)
'Janet is not a hard nut to crack, after all I could break her into a million shreds and pound her into shawarma sauce without stress' i thought as I laughed louder..
Today Hossie go hear am, make I reach there fes and food no dey......
The Real Deal (Episode 6)
On getting home, I was greeted by the sullen faces of my 'girls'.
"Where on earth have you been?" asked May sadly.
"Ah, babe na wa ooo" Goodness said disturbed.
"Hossie no allow you comot?" Chidinma questioned sarcastically.
"Oh my God, is that Pearl?" asked Nonso sleepily.
"Pearl darling, you got us all worried" she added almost immediately.
"Girls am so, so sorry" I pleaded smiling "I got so engrossed with Hossie, we were quite busy and....." I was still saying when Nonso cut in "At least you're fine" she said as she went back to sleep.
"Baby you should have put a call across" May said heaving a sigh of relief.
"Am sorry mum" I pleaded grinning from ear to ear.
"Thank God you're sha OK" Goodness said.
"You were enjoying yourself, see as you dey blush, lemme go and cook my food jare" Chidinma added running off to the kitchen.
"Please do ooo,am so hungry "I called out
"As what madam?Hossie wey you go meet,so him no buy you food?" Chidinma cried out.
"No dear,we were busy with other stuffs"I answered('omo, I just comot dry fasting and serious prayer' I whispered within me)" and I couldn't wait for him to cook,I knew you girls would be worried about Me,so I rushed back home" I explained further.
"Na you SABI" she shouted waving her hand (with the spoon in it)
All I could do was smile ('I love these girls',my heart sang). So glad I met them.
HOW DID I EVEN MEET THEM SEF??
It all started when I gained admission into the university about three years ago. I hadn't been close to my girls then,I was in my own world (no be say I don comot o,na gate i just open small). I was just seventeen(I small sha).
Innocent and naive,I put in my best into everything I did. I lived at the school hostel. My life revolved around myself and I was happy about it.
I had gone through some stuff earlier in life and I was grateful to be in school(thought of starting a happy life). I didn't know it was just about to unfold(I wish I did).
It all began when,I was set up by one of the big girls in hostel because I refused to date her brother who was a cultist(see me see wahala ooo,me wey no even want Pastor,no ask me wetin I want ooo). Unfortunately for me, I fell for their trap and I was sent out of the hostel by the school authority for vandalization of school property(do I look like someone that can vandalize?)
That was it, I left having nowhere to go,no friends,no relatives(I was in a strange land) and I couldn't call my parents (hell no). They paid heavily for the hostel and they would be broken. They wouldn't have believed my story (I be tantrum queen na).
I had no one to turn to, no one wanted to accommodate me(not even my fellowship members,who know me sef)
Many tried but failed(trust me they did), I was devastated.
"Where would I go now?" I thought ('I hate myself for being so helpless right now' i groaned). Dropping my belongings at the hostel store room, I started attending night classes on a daily basis(no be to go read ooo). I had to cope with the mosquitoes,the cold,noise and every other factor that made it impossible for me to sleep(asin eh, i weak).
Toh me i made up my mind ooooo, I decide to jump on at any available opportunity(I cannot come and kee myself and comman die).
I remembered Archie, he was gisting me that time and once invited me over. I put up a call across to him almost immediately.
"Hello" I called out.
"Hi damsel"he greeted
"Hello Archie" I answered ('don't damsel me biko',my heart spat) "May I come over?" I asked immediately (before he got start to talk long talk).
"Sure you can baby"he said (I could feel his smile, 'O boy, I don catch big fish' i could feel his heart leap. But I didn't care).
I went there immediately, after narrating my ordeal to him, he didn't even hesitate in offering me help(which i knew he would).
"Are you serious?" I asked(pretending to be shocked)
"Yes dear you can"he replied calmly(as if he cared)
"Thank you so much Archie", I cried(as actress wey I be) as I gave him a hug(oga no want release me from hug no, she na me find trouble, mtchewww)
That was it, he gave me his word and promised to be a gentleman(hmm mm, I mumu to believe am sha).
And I moved in that same evening....
"Pearl" Chidinma called out shaking my legs "food is ready"she announced(I had slept off on the floor while trying to gist May how my 'Prayer and fasting date' with Hossie went).
"Where is the spoon na?" I lamented.
"I don't understand"Chidinma spat (with her eyes wide open,threatening to rain fire and brimstone on me).
"So they should,cook for you,serve you,and also bring you spoon?,wait very well oo...Queen mother" Goodness hissed.
"Chidinma just please help bring her a spoon na? May pleaded.
"Maybe you're not serious ooo"she cried and got back to her food.
"Pearl it's like you're not hungry"chipped in Nonso nonchalantly.
It was at this juncture May stood up to go get me a spoon herself.
"You no dey try ooo" Dinma remarked fuming with anger. "This is why she is getting so spoiled and lazy" she added immediately.
"Chidinma leave her abeg,make this food center my belle, is it your laziness?" Goodness quarelled.
"Me and not lazy ooo"I tried to defend myself
"Will you shut up?" Nonso scolded."Don't worry, May would not always be around" she added with a note of finality.
"Ogemeghi vum nnanya"(e go clear you for eye) Chidinma threatened as she snapped her fingers at me.
('Ehnnnnn I don't care' my heart encouraged. I'll always be under 'mummy May's' protective cover)
I forgot that "one day for the thief, another day for 'Chidinma'(chaiiii.....ewain)
The Real Deal (Episode 5)
Sorry am late, Hossie didn't want to let me go.
Yes ooo...the date(Bible study jhor)went well oo..
On getting to the lodge, the girls were busy having their usual gist.(immediately all attention turned to me)
"Pearl, how far na?? Why's your face like that??"Goodness asked taking her eyes from her phone for a second.
"K'ihe iwe tara?"(what did you bring?)Chidinma asked amidst a mouthful of cassava flakes and floating berries(Chai..na garri and groundnut ooo, no go confuse)
"Baby(as am fondly called by my friends 'cos of my size),you look so tired, how are you?" May asked calmly.
"Everything went well"I said bluntly as I sank into the bed trying to avoid the aftermath.
Even with that, Nonso still commented "Hian" she remarked sarcastically "you dey vex?" she added(with her chere kam bia pidgin),still trying to style her hair(shey you've seen, achoom nsogbu ooo).
"Just tired "I replied in the calmest voice ever('na me you want use take practice law abi?? Na story you dey find', my heart spat)
"Maybe you should go take a cold bath" May said reassuringly(as if she could read my thoughts).
Hmm...my friends(those people who can tolerate me small, maybe because they are strange also), the most amazing personalities I've ever been with since I got into school (at least they put up with me real good). We did everything together despite the fact that we were in different departments.
Goodness; the untiring jister, Chinonso; our fashionista, May; our mother(the one with a golden heart), Chidinma; the foodie with a large heart(I love her like that). Everything was perfect, we put up with each other quite well(despite all the fights we keep having) despite our differences and excesses. Especially when Jide left, they stood by me and helped me get over him(alongside Hossie).
Although sometimes they can be very annoying(a set of really crazy people) and I try to remember how we ever met(how did I have these kind of friends), I try. Plus the truth behind the fact that they love God(please let's not even go there).
My name is Pearl Prince. Most people call me 'P squared'( I no be musician ooo). A student of one of the greatest Citadel of learning, The University Of Nigeria, Nsukka (fondly called UNN), Where I study English. I stay with my "girls" off campus.
I am light skinned, slim('almost skinny 'I hear my heart say), of an average height and exceptionally beautiful (na Hossie talk am ooo).
I am twenty years old(though my wits tell me I've lived a hundred years already). Am loving, caring and supper intelligent(so they say).
I come from a family of four children and both parents. Everything wasn't always like this, I used to be a happy child (in my own way sha, cos my parents didn't ever think so). But to my parents and siblings I've always been sad(e don tay).
As a child I received comments like "you're strange" "you're weird" "don't you ever laugh"(as if they ever were funny), "you'll get old quick"('you that is forever young, kele Chineke' I'll say beneath my breath), "you always frown"(please leave me I laugh in my own world) "you're always sad"(this world is not my home).
I always gave myself a good reason for my actions. I became very comfortable in my shell and I began to see myself as rejected(of course that's all I thought, afterall..... 'as a man thinketh'....complete it yourself).
As much as my parents and siblings tried, the older I got the worse I became....I always felt something was missing even when Jide was there, I couldn't get enough. And when Hossie came around (a beg, it's too much)
What exactly was going on, something was missing and without it, nothing was going to change.
Don't fret, my parents are amazing but they gave up on me too easily (I guess it was my fault cos I gave them reasons to).
This struggle did not start today, it started way before I even realized...
AM STILL SEARCHING FOR SOLUTIONS
"WHAT IS THE REAL DEAL??" the question on my lips as I wake up panting from this scary nightmares that haunts me in the day.
I GUESS WE SHOULD START FROM THE BEGINNING OF THE FEELING.
Picking up my ringing phone, 'HOSSIE CALLING'(trouble calling)
"hey babe" he called out sweetly, "it's almost time,meet me at the secret place" he added.
"Ok,I'm on my way" I replied and hung up
(Mtcheeww...I don tire,'abeg make I sleep Small' my mind said)
But it can't be possible as the girls just came in(Aba market don open, mtchewwww..I weak)
Lemme come and be going to see Hossie.
"Enjoy yourselves girls"I called out as I slammed the door not waiting for a reply(a prayer date with Hossie was more preferable than Chidinma's 'double edged sworded tongue' right now)
I hope you agree with me......(if you like)
The Real Deal (Episode 4)
Next moment after walking out on Hossie, he was back with that beautiful smile and those reassuring words of wisdom and courage. Not minding how I treated him, he'll sit by me and lay my head on his breast while he plays with my hair.
"Pearl, I know you're trying so hard to push me away, but I understand at this point you need someone to stick closely to you, I might not be like Jide but trust me, I'll do better than he ever did" he'll say empathetically with a smile.
"Hmm mm mm" was all I could let out of my lungs as I looked up at his face and saw the purest sincerity of all times.
(I NO SABI WETIN THIS GUY SEE FOR MY BODY)
Hossie was this perfect personality that knows how to balance everything, ranging from work, play, romance and all....it was kind of boring to me. Hossie could wake me up with a phone call at midnight to read my book or pray as the case may be(how cruel is that). He also helps me in areas I don't understand.(He's super intelligent).
The funny thing is that he "never didn't have time for me" but he held so many values like reading daily(he even made a 10-page everyday book review compulsory),meeting him in our usual place, weekly and monthly fast, bible study and so many others (you don't want to know).
"You can't afford to fail, you just have to be the best of you, be ready to face life at every point and be a source of encouragement to all and sundry. So many people are looking up to you" he explains.(shebi I be Jesus ni??)
"OK Hossie" I'll reply with a fake smile.("who cares?" I'll scream within me). This guy seriously was stressing me, I was getting tired and uncomfortable.(the 'phlegmatic' me cries).
I know most times my negative reactions are crystal and Hossie could tell that I wasn't so comfortable but he plays along really well ("she just needs a little more push to get there" he acts).
"You need to be deliberate about building yourself up Pearl" he'll say(as if to hear my thoughts)
"You're your own architect" he'll add.
Though I wasn't really enjoying the process(why on earth should I??), but there were noticeable changes in me. My friends(talk mates) even teased me about it(it felt too good to be true).
"This new guy's doing a good job", Goodness noted.
"Why wouldn't he??" I'll ask.
(We have the most romantic but decent dates ever, he never did anything out of the box that didn't please God, why won't I change???(from the usual me), I thought.
"Maybe we'll get to meet him someday, right Pearl?? Nonso asked jilting me from my thoughts.
Confused and thrown off balance, I almost tripped and fell over nothing. Trying to cover up my shock and gain composure, I just smiled sheepishly and replied "maybe"
("Never" I screamed within me...you girls might just ruin everything)
"You girls not hungry???"asked Chidinma(the foodie amongst us)
Picking our bags we all ran out to our favorite cafeteria...to eat noodles and eggs
Wait oo oo oo.......
Did you ask why I rarely or don't even talk about my parents??? Wait why should I even talk about my parents when the....... ....(my dear long story but I'll cut it short)...
"Pearl, have you forgotten you have a date today?" May reminded me.
Oh!! Time's up....I have a review date with Hossie after lunch with the girls, see them thinking it's ShopRite things...(I know you feel my pain)
Ngwa wish me luck
The Real Deal (Episode 3)
That day, Hossie took me to a place where he told me we would always meet. Though not as expensive and classy as a place I would have gone with Jide but he promised me that we were going to make more beautiful memories than I and Jide's right there. Trust me, he's been keeping it.
As a young girl, I really didn't have a direction in life. I had a lot of dull moments and had very few friends(more of just talk-mates). So many factors(which would pop up later)contributed to this extremely sadistic way of life plus the fact that I am a MELPHLEG(sure you understand what that means). The endless search for love, the heartbreaks, disappointment, low-self esteem, self-disapproval, fears, doubts, plus suicidal thoughts and attempts(don't judge me)
All these I had to deal with even with Jide around, though I found little solace in him(or so I thought).
Struggling with all of these was more frustrating than the issue itself. It became so difficult to associate with people(nothing like friends existed). Everyone left cos I became extremely boring and difficult.
In all of these, Hossie was more than a saint
While throwing my tantrums, during the mood swings, impatience and crying spells. Never did he criticize me.
All he did was try to help me strengthen my weaknesses and improve on my strengths.
Despite all of these I still missed Jide. I talked about him a lot of times. I knew Hossie wasn't happy, I sincerely wanted him to be happy but my actions proved otherwise.
I KEPT HURTING HOSSIE BUT I FELT HELPLESS.(I didn't want to, it just kept happening).
I kept on pushing him away with my actions but called him with my lips when I needed him. I was using him(yes I was). I felt his hurt, I felt his heart beat recklessly with love.
But I didn't think I was ready to be committed to him despite his own commitment to me.
All his efforts to make me see that there was more to me than I knew proved abortive.
"You have to see beyond where you are now, your content is greater than the container you see baby, trust me" he always says.
"Save me the sermon Hossie, for how long am I going to wait?" I'll sob.
"Just let me be, maybe there's actually no need for hope" "I just want to be alone" I'll say as i walk out on him.
BUT HE STAYED....HE DID.....
WHO ON EARTH IS THIS GUY???!!
The Real Deal (Episode 2)
It suddenly occurred to me that he hadn't left since then.
'Hossie' as i fondly called him has been waiting for me as he promised. I couldn't help but wonder what kind personality he is. So different from all other guys especially Jide Smith.
"Hello love" his voice came again jilting me outta my thoughts.
Not wasting much time, I said the first words that came to mind.
Hossie, please can you come over? I need you right now.
'Ok' he replied hastily and hung up almost immediately as I sank back in to my ocean of tears.
In less than 15minutes I felt a subtle tap on my shoulder. Followed almost immediately by a voice and awesome fragrance.
''Hello sweetie''
That was it .Hossie was here without hesitation. "He had come to make me feel better" I thought as I ran into His outstretched hands for a teddy bear hug, crying uncontrollably. "I am sorry Hossie" I muttered in between sobs, "I really......."
"Shhhhhhhh"...he said cutting me out as he held me closer.
"It's okay, you're fine now, you're okay "he said.
"Only with you" I replied.
"Please stay with me Hossie"I pleaded "I really don't want be alone and empty anymore...."
"Say no more" he replied in the most romantic voice I had ever heard.
"I've been waiting, I knew you'll come back, I was certain that Jide didn't love you as much as to stick to you more than he did." He said.
"But why, why do I always lose the people I love?" "Am I not lovable, don't I deserve love?"
"No, no, no, no, don't say that honey" he said raising his voice a little.
"You're the most special person I know and you're totally loveable.
Anyone who has you is lucky and whoever leaves you certainly doesn't know you and your worth and in no way deserve you and definitely isn't going to be part of your success story.
"So dry those tears let's focus on getting you back on your feet and let's get to work" he said sweetly, drying my tears.
"Awwwwn, thanks Hossie" I said smiling.
"You're welcome darling "he mumbled "I gat you always"
"WOW!! A RAY OF HOPE"..I SAID AS I RAN AFTER HIM
The Real Deal -Prologue
"Move on Pearl" came his voice piercing my heart without mercy.
I froze to that spot, not knowing whether to laugh or cry, it was as if my walls had come crumbling down at my feet.
Jide was my boyfriend, my best friend, my lover, my everything. We have been dating for over three years now and everything felt so beautiful and perfect. He knows everything about me and didn't joke with me. He rules my world and everyone thought we were meant for each other.
I couldn't phantom what went wrong as things started getting sour when he traveled abroad.
Coming back after a year just to turkey-drop me.
I had questions to ask..
Why? How? When? Did things go wrong. I couldn't even utter the words as I was chocked up with emotions and tears stuck behind my throat.
I couldn't believe what just played out right in front of me...everything had fallen apart..
JIDE WAS GONE!!!
More than just the words and letters
The Real Deal(Episode 1)
Of course, moving on wasn't going to be easy and I certainly wasn't ready. To me, heartbreaks were only part of movies. I never imagined it would happen to me.
I summoned all the courage and hope I could find within me, I still had hope that things could work out.
I turned to God in prayers(hahaha). I saw God as a magician that could fix things whenever I needed at the expense of his own happiness.
When I realized nothing was happening, and that Jide had made up his mind and comfortably moved on. I knew I had to pick myself up before I went beyond the depth of the deep.
I knew if I wanted to live I had to find a new reason to. Jide was gone and needed to be replaced.
Yes I had to develop myself positively so that I don't end up in shreds.
I consoled myself, I needed to be strong because I knew what accompanied the decision to move on.
I had to miss the daily calls, texts, 'I love you's, kisses through the phone(smiles),I had to miss the tips, the outings, cuddles(in the cold) and hugs. WOW...THAT'S A WHOLE LOT!!!...
(E NO GO EASY OOO)
Just then I remembered my first love, the one whose heart I shattered by taking my heart away from Him and giving it to Jide. I remembered His words before I walked out on Him. "I'll be right here"
I picked up my phone as I dialed His number (lol)
"Hi my love" came his honey dropping baritone voice from the other end.
I Smiled as my heart melted due to the invasion of butterflies in my stomach...
"Baby" he called out again. This time the butterflies multiplied causing an excessive flow of nectar that chocked me as I broke down in tears....
Did this mean I still loved him...???
(NA WA OOO)
Silver Me
Silver wouldn't look bad on me
Nine days to go!
Many things are still unsaid!
Don't know what to do!
Nothing the world deems fruitful
Nothing to show!
Just me and Jesus
Perhaps the 2.1 from school.
Father Seeks Thee
(Story of the missing donkey)
Many years ago, a wealthy mans favorite donkey went missing.
He was so saddened and by all means wanted to find her.
So he sent his agile son and a servant to go search the neighboring town, hoping they will the donkey.
After a long search, across many towns, hills, mountains and now thousands of miles away from home.
The son came to his senses, and said to the servant " let us go back home, least our father stop searching for the donkey, and start worrying about us"
............
1 Samuel 9:5
And when they were come to the land of Zuph, Saul said to his servant that was with him, Come, and let us return; lest my father leave caring for the asses, and take thought for us.
....................
I know fathers(God) longs that more souls repent.
More brethren come back to walk in their original design and ordination.
So he sent out beloved sons, to call back other lost sons.
This search can be very tedious, as committed sons go all out to please their fathers.
But Father is concern; that since you went in search of lost sons, you left your place in the kingdom.
You left the place of fellowship, and the quest does consume you.
You've forgotten that though father seek more sons, the devil seeks you.
This is a call that son learn to function from fellowship, while still searching for the lost brethren.
Stop the activity, go back to God!
I know you win souls, but when last did you fellowship.
Be aware that Father Seeks thee!
For you've gone too far from the father, claiming to do His will.
Yet, when last did you COME and also APPEAR in Zion? When last?
The labor of fools wearies them
"That I may not be laboring like a fool, for the labor of fools wearies them"
The above statement may not make sense to you if you are used to getting the things you want. For some persons, they have labored for years for the things that come easily to others.
James, a young man who has written the unified matriculation examinations to get an admission into the tertiary Institution for seven years will understand what it means to labor.
Sandra, the young woman who has looked for a job for ten years after graduation from school understand what it means to labor.
The list continues.
Every day, people rush out of their houses at the break of dawn and don't get to return until late at night. They toil day and night!
Now, Favor is God's system of bringing men into a season of gains and profits without labor.
May you not miss this!
Jesus is Lord!
Gray-colored Christian
Suit and tie or garment
Has not revealed they place
Mighty prints of the bible
Cannot proof thy faith
Behold the plains of Jordan
Graved for in thy heart
Can I pitch towards Sodom?
And I shall go no further!
This people need a saviour
A righteous man like me
And I shall make decrees
Only at her gates
And venture no more
Argument rose with the nobles
Thy ambiance shone above
Let’s make him our judge
So he’ll never go home
No, a thousand miles away from Bethel
First enticed by her view
While present in Bethel
Sodom was in thy heart
Gray-coloured Christian a shadow of the new
While still tonguing
Sodom is in thy heart
Hunger Flashes
Weeks ago
I would never
Agree that food calls
The smiles
I would
Never deem Happiness
A cold racist
For I did
Sell a thought that
Happiness is a choice
Apologies world!
I know better now
I understand
Why the hardly giggle
To the funniest joke
That swayed by
And became timid
Melancholy’s all of the sudden
‘’The future is bright’’
But now is rugged
Yes there’s no guilt in hope
But hunger flashes
Help your neighbors
For the hunger might be flashing
In their homes
You may never know
Where Lies the Future
For in frustration
I ask ‘’where lies the future’’
For then, I was in my words captured
Planted with strange convictions
As though it had in my stares unveiled
Awaiting time led
I could find the future even in my thought strayed
Having her fair share in all thinking or say
Her gaze did preoccupy me all day
And volume never had an end
I had the future in my dreams
That rushed in night or day
Like a lamp that never deems
She rested seeming always to be there
I placed the future on my mirror
So I could see through me
Perhaps see her hope clearer
Than it has ever been
But now I seem not see the future
So much I think thieves have their way
What then becomes my fate
Living without it’s ray
Where lies the future
The paintings in our dreams
The tendrils we owned and nurtured
That which we set just like the bricks
The Second Most Important Spiritual Law (In order that we conform to the person Christ).
Immediately you read this second law, I am sure the thought of "giving to the poor" would come to your mind. Correct, but far from that!
The Law
LOVE Your NEIGHBOR( FARER THAN FAMILY) as YOURSELF.
A genuine concern, is what I'll like to emphasize.
Concern for family, concern for fellow Christians, concern for the poor, concern for humanity, concern for lost souls!
Yes concern! That although you may not have the capacity to relief them of their distress, they are sure that you're mindful about them!
This concern should drive you to bear their burden as though the burdens were yours!
If you can't deliver or relief them, you can at least pray for them daily!
Some of us Christians, we are not concern about lost souls, all we know is that "we are save!" WE MOVE!
The persecution in the north; the news of brethren that are killed daily, doesn't breed a powerful burden in our heart. Since our relatives are save "WE MOVE!"
I know you will ask " what can I do?" Dear let me respond to you " YOU CAN PRAY".
Genuine concern is what we are lacking, if doesn't directly concern us, " WE MOVE!"
BEAR YE ONE ANOTHER'S BURDEN....OH Yes!
Unity of the body is not fostered because of this!
We allow geographical location, tribal differences, personality, relationship and lot more become the wall that separate us!
Meanwhile we are one body, linked by the blood of Jesus!
My plead is, "let's emphasize with Jesus!"
The things we neglect, are very important before the eyes of our Lord!
Let's not lose the emphasis
1)Love the lord your God with all your heart, soul and mind.
2)Love your neighbor as yourself.
Withered Time
I feel the crude pain
Of my many pleasure,
The soothing stain
Of those careless leisure.
Sleeping
on a blueish dream
Hoping
that what will be will be.
For they portrayed it works this way
A God-like sense they coupled
But I do know better this day
A mystery once hidden.
Help me redeem my time
For her arm withers away,
Pull me across the line
I will surely pay the fare.
I wish you understand friends
Ejiro (Father's Sacrifice)- Episode 3
So she gave a fading smile
Some proud moment ago.
Her joy was soon sensored with gall
Wished it wasn't so.
Her husband tried out a hug
But didn't last that long,
For the bell sounded really hash
Pushing him abroad.
He never got a leisure
On a worthy day-thus
Pulling away the strongest stump
The day was spent thus.
Running through the night
He did with a leafy blue rose
For he wishes to affirm he loved her
Until the cock crows.
He gave no thought
that no one will be home
And never foreknew
That joy sometimes dances with doom.
His "caramel" they said bleeded much
soon after he left
His caramel couldn't wait
to get his farewell.
EJIRO (Fathers' sacrifice) episode 2
That very night was graced by the rain
But disdain by the moon:
For she shut her window
Not to change her mind soon.
The Negro and his lover
Locked in their quiet quarters
Voices came but in whispers
Tender giggles coming much later.
You'd wonder what he said
But to his "caramel"
Familiar to a beautiful spinster
About issues-marital.
The night added glory
But to her dark pale skin
And the pregnancy: Flory
To their painted dreams.
Sooner the whisper
Faded slowly away,
And the frogs took turns
Crocking all the way.
Just then the night stood at the middle
Hoping to cross over
The rain poured though a little
Over Fredrick's' farm.
Suddenly came this cry from within lanterns then became tuned for safety .
A manly voice kept knocking on doors
The obvious cry of a cradle: -a baby.
Ejiro came
bearing the mark of Africa
Ejiro came
Just as His father predicted
For he was darker than the night
Yet smoother than the wind.
For his arm held firm
As though he was a knight...
Ejiro(father's sacrifice) episode 1
As the yellow sun rises up
Maybe Master will choose to wake up.
Sizzle runs down His spine
"4 hours down" says His time.
His elbow chooses to intensify labor
Or will he receive several whips
Masters' up-maiden skips out of succor
Young men deep in the woods.
They breakup wood with hatred
Over their helpless state they ponder
Songs of agony comes forth
Thinking less of a place yonder.
For years have become decades
Dreaming of a dream
Then watching it fades
Like the twilight moon.
The chains are like signets
and the whips like His dialect.
The pangs are heavy
But this He will endure this till death.
For the verdict is proven
With the carcasses beneath the earth.
Ejiro will be free
With my life I'll pay for His.
Boom! His countenance transfigures
Over his steaming thought
His eyes strangely sparkles
Building Faith for his Unborn seed..
Love On The Rock
Love on the rock
From thence it should roll,
For there the beauties flock
From there we take the stroll.
Love on the rock
Where else can we be taught?
Our heart will then remain whole
We then shall clearly see "his" plot.
Love on the rock
Learn to treat him/her right.
The rock says it should be unconditional.
Forgive him/her before the act.
Love on the rock
I show you a better way
For when all seems to fail
Love will always stay.
Love on the rock
Lets learn what Jesus went through.
Love given for no cause
Only then can your love be true.
@Greatness96
