I had to embrace the quiet, savor every bit of the silence, get acquainted to the point that it didn't matter anymore and keep moving, only then can I really understand what has the silence in store for me. I moved, with my legs shaking and heart trembling. I thought of Hossie, how I called him and he wasn't available(God help his soul cos if and when I get back, he would have me to answer to) but for now, I had to focus on finding my way around and out of here. I moved hoping to see light at the end of this oblivion that looks like a tunnel. "God please help me" I whispered loudly.
You remember what you were taught about believing, having faith and hoping?, this was the time I needed all those lessons. But my head was empty, blank and there was absolutely nothing that could help. You know, it's at moments like this that you know that, it's just you against the world. It doesn't mean that you must be in an oblivious place, it just may mean the occurrence of an oblivious activity, meeting oblivious persons and having to go through experiences whereby you feel there's no way out. What do you do? You sit down and wait for help?
Why do you think that after having the access to everything on earth as Christ had promised, you still have to ask? The answer is simple...it's just a principle that must be applied cos 'my God is not a magician'. There is no definite promise made of what you're going to meet. It could be the light which you expect or the hurt which you don't, whatever it is, the only rule to go through Is "TRUST GOD".
And this is why I became deliberate, in asking for help and moving on even when wasn't sure of what was before me and if I was ever going to see that light at the end of anything else.
I moved and suddenly I felt shaken,like there was an earthquake and the ground was opening. 'What is it again?' I questioned my courage. But as usual no reply, it was silent.
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'You all know me?' She questioned with tears in her eyes. "Yes we do Pearl" the 'fair tall slim girl' replied. "We are your sisters or should I say good friends?" The chubby dark girl picked up.
"Your name is Pearl and we love you so much" she continued.
At this point Pearl burst into tears(you know she was kukuma emotional before). Whilst this was going on the doctor came in and announced that the tests results were ready and he needed to see the other girls.
AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE:
"Hi girls" he started "let's quit the formalities and get straight to the point, I have really shown this level of interest in your friend's case because of the love of God, but there is a problem which I don't know how to relate to you". He continued.
"Doctor, we can take it please it's very important we know her status(no be HIV oh) right now" May suggested.
"OK, apart from the fact that your friend is awake, the chances of her regaining her memory is too slim for hope to be built on and the baby is alive" he said.
"What?" Janet said as she stood up in shock.
"How?" Nonso screamed as she burst into tears.
"We found out that there was no damage on her womb, all she suffered was as a result of the overdose she took and I think the trauma and the hit on her head" he said.
"You know I really think that there's a supernatural force in control of her case, there's something about her and I think we all have a hand in her staying alive and fulfilling purpose..I think all hands have to be on deck especially now, she might be traumatized but I'll alert the medical directors and take up her case from here. I promise I'll do all o can for your friend, its the best I can do" he concluded.
"How do we do this?" Dinma asked.
"I have promised that I'll do my best, she's my responsibility now till she can stand" he assured them. "My name is Jide Smith, but from now, consider me a friend... So we could start by calling me just 'Jide' " he concluded with a smile.
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In the process of trying to stand, I hit my head against the floor. I felt weak, I couldn't stand no more, there was no strength I sunk behind the ground and flashes....what are these?... I didn't know, I couldn't understand, was this an encounter(what's an encounter?)....Then I saw Hossie, again he was gone, then he came again. This time he was still. It was as if he was left by the hand like a child as he held me from falling.
Still I was falling, very fast 'Is he really here or Is he just in my head?' I thought..
"Hossie" I screamed. 'Oh he was there really, my only imagination was that he saved me but he did not, he had just stood there looking and only moved when I called. Mtchewww, why is he behaving like he's God?' I wondered.
"Why don't you want to take our relationship seriously?" He asked as he walked closer....
I froze, what was the meaning of this, who the hell does he think he was.......
