I tried resting my head but I couldn't cos I kept thinking about everything that happened and my mind couldn't help but drift towards my friends and the fact that sooner or later they were going to find out about everything and I might lose them if they didn't take it lightly cos if a truth I had hurt them with some lies and hideous acts. My eyes caught Nonso's gaze which read 'I don't believe you', but I quickly looked away, I just couldn't bring myself to say what exactly happened. My head was calculating how I could open up to them without hurting them(It seemed almost impossible as the heist).
Seriously I knew I had to tell them if not Hossie was going to do it himself (as he knew them also).
With that confusion and overwhelming thoughts I decided to do what I had to do.
"Girls?" I called out as they stopped all their activities and turned to me.
"There's something you need to know but first I must apologize in advance because I have hurt you all greatly and I am deeply sorry" I said as tears filed my eyes.
Everything was going on well with Sweetness, I enjoyed his company and comfort of his voice, arms and warm embrace. This lasted until I began to rear butterflies in my tummy for Jide and somehow I discovered that he felt the same way for me too. I started feeling something (quite real and human as I thought). He made sure I had all the support I needed and wanted and i started paying a lot of attention to him and gradually I was drifting from my first love, Hossie or should I say 'Sweetness'.
Even when I was later told I was going to be a mum...it was quite easy to take cos they were all there.
It felt like a proposal, they took me out and we had so much fun and then, they dropped the news on my fragile heart. It really hurt but they were there to help me hold it together. Even at times when I felt off the willingness to live Janet would always be there (maybe because it was her brother's child), I thought so till she had to open up and tell me her own story, how she had her child(Peace baby).
