"I don't think that I am ready, Hossie" I tried to defend.
"That is not the case Pearl" he replied, "It's not up to you now, you've been given enough time to do it your way and willingly, it's show time now" he said with a note of finality. Then I remembered one of the things Hossie had earlier warned me about ('that if I don't bend to God's will, he'll break me to His will). I lay there shivering and thinking about what it'll take not to own my life anymore. Yes it would be wonderful taking my relationship with Hossie seriously but I wasn't really ready, I needed something realer than Bible study dates and prayers and secret place and fasting. I Needed 'the real deal'.
Hossie without a doubt was the first love of my life(when I got to know him after a while), because I really didn't love him even when we met(his love swept me off my feet and I fell).My friends were the master minds who had talked to him about me and according to them, he asked to meet me as he was already in love with me(love before sight). This was even before I fell in love with Jide(the doctor).. Hossie had always been there.
When Jide started showing interest in me, I moved away from Hossie and started dating Jide, even when my friends talked to me about Hossie's hurt, I convinced them I was happy and even Hossie told them to let me go(Even when he kept waiting for me).
And then, when Jide jilted me, I had to run back to him, describing him as a different person to my friends and preventing them from meeting him so that they don't say those words I hate so much 'I TOLD YOU SO'. They know him as the 'Holy Spirit' but to me, He's 'Hossie' my lover(Hope they didn't hear me).
As if he could read my thoughts (of course he could). He spoke up and said "Pearl, you'll go back now but as a new person, right now your friends are worried about you, we'll see at the usual place, I love you" and then I woke up......
They came up to me with the brightest smile ever, I was completely overwhelmed and I smiled too. I saw five girls with different sizes, complexion and faces but an amazing aura of love oozed out stronger than the perfume they wore 'They are wonderful' i thought.
"How are you doing?" Chidinma asked jilting me from my thoughts.
"I am fine" I replied, "Just trying to assimilate everything" I concluded.
"Pearl, there's something else you need to know" May said.
"Shoot" I replied smiling, "I am ready for it" I said as I adjusted to a more comfortable position.
"Pearl" Janet said sadly holding my hands and looking straight into my eyes. "Baby, you're going to be a mom, you're pregnant" she said.
To an extent I took it in real calmly but not without tears(remember I said I was ready for it), at least there's an explanation. As I looked searching into their eyes with tears in mine.
"Shhhhh Pearl" Goodness calmed me down, "well go through this together, all of us" she continued. "We know you want to know what happened In details but you have to concentrate on getting back on your feet, everything will fall into place" she concluded reassuringly.
I had to trust them, didn't I????
They couldn't be lying to me or could they?(I guess I'll find out).
