A bid of goodbye
03-02-2022 | Gemini
Hello read.cash family, thank you for appreciating my masterpiece and reading my articles.
Thank you for everyone who really spend time to read and give feedbacks with my piece.
To @Athaliah who recommend this site, my sincere apology and deepest gratitude for this opportunity. Again, thank you and continue to inspire other writers and make the best out of you.
To @Eurydice , thank you so much for giving some ideas on what to write, and sorry as well for this would be my last article here. But of course, continue to write here and inspire others.
To @MarCosis , thank you my friend for motivating me to continue here, but of course I'm sorry for I can't do it anymore, you already know why. Just continue writing and become a millionaire here.
To @BCH_LOVER , thank te for appreciating my articles and giving comments and feedbacks that are relevant and significant for me. Thank you for inspiring me to write here. I'm sorry te, for I can't continue my journey here and I'll be ending this right now. Thank you very much for reading and upvoting my articles, very much appreciated.
Again thank you so much for the great experience and continue to write and inspire other writers here.
Again this is @Gemini07 signing off. ❤️
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Writing Prompt #2: Reflecting Eudora's line in MLBB
02-28-2022 | Gemini
***Mobile Legend****- Eudora's line (Author's Favorite)*
While playing Mobile Legends using Eudora on classic game, I listened carefully to Eudora's line and I've come to realized to make reflection from it and relate it to myself. Eudora's line, are like a sharpened sword that really hits me inside, because most of her line really touched me.
Without further ado, let's begin.
***"You should be ashamed for not trusting yourself."***
*I doubted myself on everything. I am thinking that I am not capable to do something different in my life. I don't know why, but until now I can't avoid myself to doubt my capability.*
*For example in dancing, some people say I'm good at it, but still I am confused if I should believe them or not? I don't trust my capability because I think, I can't be someone who's good in dance floor. If only I can be good enough, and if only I have confidence in me.*
*In singing, I don't know if I am good at it, maybe I can sing but cannot sing very well? I was once a member of our church before, and I am appointed to be the song leader every "Praise and Worship". Yes it is a great and fulfilling moment of my life, however when I look to the eyes of other people of my churchmate, it's like saying that I am not good in leading the choruses. Maybe, I do overthink? or it's true that I am not really good at it?*
*In writing, I don't know if I have the competence but I think, I don't have the skills and competency in writing any document or articles. (Even the writings I posted here in read.cash, I still doubt it). I don't think that I am good in writing because I don't have enough skills and passion to it. I just try this site, to test and enhance my grammar and seek for development.*
*I envy other people whose good in writing any articles, journals, and even a documentary reports. I hope, I can write something like how they did it.*
*I'm really ashamed of myself, because I can't even trust my capabilities, I doubted my skills and talents I have because I always think about what other people are thinking.*
***"The more your fear grows, the smaller you become."***
*I am afraid to take single actions everyday. Because I am afraid that other people will judge me from being incompetent in doing such things. I'm afraid to commit mistakes. I am always afraid to be judge by other people about my sexuality. I can't express myself to the extent that I can have a great happiness that I am always searching for.*
*I am afraid to take examinations, quizzes or oral recitation. I am afraid that other people will look down on me if I get low score or grades. I am afraid to be fail, because I don't want to hear hurtful words from my family. I don't want to hear and see them to regret that they let me to continue studying instead of looking for a job.*
*I am afraid to be alone, but I always choose to. Yes it is my fault, it was my choice but then, it kinda hurt me because I don't know whom I'm going to talk to if I need someone to lean on, to cry on because it's like I don't have people who will really care to listen. I do have friends, a good friends indeed, but still they have their own lives and problems as well, and I really don't want to bother them anyway.*
***"To change the world, start by changing yourself."***
*It is a note to myself that I have to surpass, I know it is now the time, but not yet the courage. I still don't have enough courage and trust in myself that I can be someone that other people will look up to. I am still in cage, thinking that I'm still weak.*
I know we have different experiences and encounters everyday, but I hope you enjoy reading and thank you for spending time to finish reading this.
That's all for today, I just wrote what I am thinking right now and I don't know if you will understand me and my writings. I know I am not good at it and competent as well. I hope you will give me some advises and recommendation that will really help me to eradicate this feeling of not trusting myself.
I hope you had a great day today and God bless you read.cash family.
Love,
@Gemini07
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Writing Prompt #1: Got Enrolled
02-28-2022 | Gemini
Good day everyone here in read-dot-cash. Today, I will going to share to you what happened on my entire day in school.
I hope you will enjoy reading this article.
I woke up early in the morning at 5:30, then I prepare myself to go to school. I took a bath, and I drink my coffee and forget my breakfast. HAHA
Ako ra ba ang dili gapamahaw inig sayo sa buntag? Unta tanan, unta kamo pod. HAHAH
At exact 7:00 am, my cousin message me on my facebook messenger.
"Tara na" means (Let's go) in English.
Then, we ride a motorcycle unfortunately there is no vacant seats in every jeepney that passes by. Around 7:40, finally a jeepney appears with no passenger.
As we're heading to school, the traffic irritates me so bad. Then, at 9:10 we arrived at school and waiting for our names to be called.
I waited for 1 hour to have and get my enrollment form, then I ahead immediately to different personnel's in school to be signed, then wait for another 30 minutes to be called again. While waiting to be called from the cashier, I am so nervous because I did not bring any amount to pay my tuition fee, because I am relying on the scholarship granted on me by the CHED or the Commission on Higher Education. However, the school registrar said that the fund from the CHED have not received yet.
As my name called by cashier, I head to it with nervousness inside me, then I thought I have amount to pay but grateful, because the cashier said that it's already okay.
I am so thankful that God moved in mysterious ways. After that, I head to last step of enrollment which is for validation of our identification card, then I signed 3 pages of bond paper for my document, and I wrote my name on it.
Finally, I am enrolled for the second semester of my 4th year in college. I wasn't expecting that I can continue my study due to financial instability, but gladly God gave me wonderful opportunity to continue. And yes, I am now at 4th year, and the end is near (I am referring to our Graduation). Hopefully, I can pass my 2 subjects for this semester with 9 units.
In this image you can see that I am with my friends and finally we still reached this point in college, wherein we're going and we will be able to finish this semester again together, in God's will. I am lucky to have them, and forever grateful I have met amazing individuals.
Thank you for reading my article, though it is not informative that can be useful in your life. Still, thank you for spending ample amount of time in reading this.
Wish you all the best and stay safe, be safe and God bless you all read.cash family. Love you.
Love,
@Gemini07
-Allimages attached are mine
Good evening everyone, I just posted another article entitled "Virus that kills our Dog". I just wanted to share to you my experience on such virus on my puppies. I want to give awareness to everyone who loves pet especially to dogs.
https://read.cash/@Gemini07/virus-that-kills-our-dog-088d7756
I hope you will like it and learned from it.
Goodnight and God bless us all. ❤️
Virus that kills our Dog
02-27-2022 | Gemini
To all my read.cash family, I know that most of us are fur parents either dogs or cats. Our pets are significant to us for it gives us relief when we are tired and they gives happiness when we are alone and sad.
One of the challenges that we face as fur parent, specifically for dogs is the illness that are not easily to treat, which is Parvovirus. This virus really needs immediate treatment in order to prevent our dogs to be in danger, in short dying.
I know that fur parents who have dogs already encountered this virus and some of us lost our babies (puppies or dogs). To start this, let us know what is Parvovirus first.
What is Parvovirus?
It is also known as **Canine parvovirus** a contagious virus mainly affecting dogs. In addition, it is highly contagious and is spread from dog to dog by direct or indirect contact with their feces. Parvovirus is found in any environment. It comes from infected dogs that excrete the virus in their vomit or feces.
Feces of dogs itself are most common cause of this virus, based on my experienced if they touch it by their own hands and we forgot to clean them up it can really cause serious effect to our dogs and puppies. Of course, as fur parents we cannot always look after to our dogs if they roam around. They can also get it from other dogs that are already infected.
Symptoms of the Virus
There are two different forms that this disease can take. The most common type is the intestinal form. This has symptoms such as diarrhea, vomiting, lack of appetite, and weight loss.
It is true that this form is the most common, and all of my puppies had been affected of this form, and the symptoms mentioned will be seen right after your dog is infected. The early sign as well are the bloody feces, when they release stool that is reddish or black in color.
The least common type of the virus is the cardiac form, which causes the heart muscles to malfunction. The virus affects the muscles of the hearts of very young puppies and fetuses. It often causes death in the dogs.
As fur father, I experienced to lost one of my puppy because of this form of the virus, and that I don't have enough knowledge about the Parvovirus before. (On my next article to be upload, I will share to you what really happen to my puppy).
Treatment (Home Remedy)
In this section, I will share to you some of my medication used to treat my puppies infected by the CPV.
1. **Brown Sugar**
If you have seen that your puppies have shown most of the symptoms mentioned above, treat them by putting small amount of brown sugar or 1 teaspoon, direct to their mouth. You can also dissolve it into water if you prefer.
2. **Dextrose Powder (Dextrovet)**
Fluids save the puppy from death. Parvo puppies do not drink and are losing liquid from the diarrhea and vomiting and they lose their appetite. Without injectable fluids, they will die.
The reason they dissolve Dextrose in water to increase a dog's blood sugar amount. This is required when a dog has severe dehydration or a diabetic episode, and even for parvo puppies.
If your puppy won't still drink the water with dextrose powder, you need to use syringe to feed the water on their mouth. Atleast 2 tablespoon every after 2 hours. To keep your puppies hydrated.
**3. SMP 500**
It is a drug that is very effective to use in treating parvovirus in your puppies. But of course, it will depends on the age of your puppies if it is still 2-6 months old, use a half of this tablet, then if your puppy is 1 year old then you can use the whole tablet.
I recommend you to dissolve SMP 500 into a YAKULT drink, and syringe-fed it to your dog. If there is no Yakult available, you can still use tap water or mineral water.
*A dog will usually get the Canine Parvovirus infection when it is around six weeks to six months of age according to vet. The good news is that early vaccination in young dogs has reduced the risk of them getting it. Well of course, as fur parent like me who don't have enough money to spend for the vaccination for our puppies, I always wait for free vaccination held by our barangay.*
*Home remedy are still good and effective but if you want to treat your dogs easily without any hassle, visit and consult with your nearby veterinary clinic.*
**That would be all for today, I hope you learned from this article and grasp knowledge about the CPV or the Canine Parvovirus. For all fur parents like me, you can also share to me your experience about your puppies and how you treat it**.
Have a great day, God bless you all. Stay safe and love you all.
Love,
@Gemini07
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Hello everyone, I have written my second comeback story and it is all about the disease that always affect me to do things I wanted to. I have this disease called HYPOKALEMIA.
Take time to read and maybe we have the same problem as well.
https://read.cash/@Gemini07/suffering-from-hypokalemia-ffe2bdf4
Good evening and God bless us always..❤️
Suffering from Hypokalemia
02-26-2022 | Gemini
Hi read.cash family, I hope you're doing well today. Let me share to you the illness that affects me to do things I like and I love, such as dancing and more.
I have a history of a disease that attacks me when I am exhausted or tired. Now, I will going to share to you what kind of disease that I always experience often times. The HYPOKALEMIA.
What does Hypokalemia means?
If you have hypokalemia, that means you have low levels of potassium in your blood. Potassium is a mineral your body needs to work normally. It helps muscles to move, cells to get the nutrients they need, and nerves to send their signals. It’s especially important for cells in your heart. It also helps keep your blood pressure from getting too high.
*The first attack of my hypokalemia was during my Senior High School years, in Grade 12. Maybe because I was exhausted from practicing cheerdancing and hip hop for the competition. During that time I was one of the committee in our Dance Troupe. After the competition, 3 days after my body get numbs and I can't even feel my bones, unabling me to move, walk, or even stand on my own. Then 4 days after, we went nearby clinic, and I was diagnosed to hypokalemia and the doctor prescribed supplements to me that helps me to recover immediately.*
**What are the causes of hypokalemia?**
There are many different reasons you could have low potassium levels. It may be because too much potassium is leaving through your digestive tract. It’s usually a symptom of another problem.
©webmd.com
Most commonly, you get hypokalemia when:
You vomit a lot
It is true that, when you vomit a lot it can cause or triggers hypokalemia because you will release some of the potassium inside your body through vomiting.
You have diarrhea
I have a bowel movement that might be cause of too much coffee intake and it triggers diarrhea. When we have a bowel movement, lots of potassium are release from the body.
Your kidneys or adrenal glands don’t work well.
The moment I am diagnosed with hypokalemia, it keeps me too pee often times, unlike before that I can still manage to stop myself to pee but now, I can't stop it anymore. When I feel to pee, I really need to pee, unless if I wanted to pee on my pants, though (HAHAHA).
**The History of Hypokalemia attacks:**
First attack of my hypokalemia way back 2018 during my 12th Grade in Senior High School. I already stated the possible reason why it triggered.
Second attack was in year 2019 during my 2nd year in college, I wasn't able to move my body again. Stress from study and over-worked (During my 2nd year in college, I am a working student in the morning, then I went to school in the afteenoon). Being a worker in a Japanese training center, I have a lot of tasks to do and to finish on time. One of the reason why I am exhausted already when I go to school.
Third attack was in year 2021, in my 3rd year in college, that time I can't remind the exact date but I went for a jogging in morning, then on the next day, I cannot move my feet because it numbs. Even when you pinch or bite my skin, I won't feel any pain. (That's how hypokalemia works).
Prescription
During the first attack, we though that it is just a simple "pamaol" (muscle pain), but it happens that it is already 3 days and I can't still move. My family, decided to bring me to the nearby clinic and the doctor test my blood and my urine.
After the doctor examine the specimen, she concluded that I have a low level of potassium and it is called "Hypokalemia". The doctor prescribed me a meds that helps me to recover immediately, however she said that I shouldn't take too much of it if I can move already my body. She said that, the medicine that she prescribed to me can help me to treat hypokalemia for the specific period of days she given, but it can also kill a person when it is in-take without testing the blood and the urine again for checking of the potassium level.
She always advised me and my other neighbors as well that I need to eat a lot of banana. Because it said that banana contains a lot of potassium.
However, I forgot the name of the medicine she prescribed to me because I just in-take it during the first attack of my Hypokalemia. On the second and third attack, I did not went again to clinic for testing of my urine and blood because I already know it.
I do have a lot of things to avoid and food to intake less. Such as stress, overworking, and even overexercise because I consider Hypokalemia as a betrayer disease. A little advise, always stay healthy and avoid being stressed to things, and have enough of sleeps. Don't over do everything, knows when to work and when to rest.
Thats all for today and have a good day everyone. Keep safe and always be safe.
Love,
@Gemini07
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Hello everyone, it's been a long time that I haven't posted any article again here in read.cash due to some problems. But now, I have posted an article about my Main Hero in Mobile Legends
https://read.cash/@Gemini07/my-main-hero-in-mobile-legend-4108713c
Have a great day!
My Main Hero in Mobile Legend
02-25-2022 | Gemini
Hello read.cash family, it's been a long time that I haven't posted any article again here due to some family problems that hinders me to concentrate in making an article. And today, February 25,2022, I am making a step to make an article again and to continue to express myself here.
Today, I am going to share to you the main hero I always used in playing Mobile Legends. Which is Kagura.
Mobile Legends: Bang Bang, commonly referred to as ML or MLBB, is a mobile multiplayer online battle arena game developed and published by Moonton. This game is very popular in the Philippines, and most of Filipino's becomes a MLBB streamer online.
**Why I use Kagura?**
She is awesome but only if you can handle her and she is much harder to control.
By watching tutorials on Youtube you can use Kagura with more perfection. (The streamer I recommend for you is GOODTIME Kagura)
Consider your equipment deck , it can change the game . Use the best designed and rated deck for your chosen hero.
Considering Kagura she is good in ambush and she is also good in escape.
Kagura is versatile hero that can be mage, assassin, tank, and support. She is also one of heroes that are very difficult to master. She’s not hard to use, it is just takes a while to learn everything she can do and then even longer to learn the best times to use her tricks. So many tricks!
If you want to buy Kagura it will be very worth it, but you’ll have to put in the hours to play her well. In the long run, though, she could be very satisfying to play.
Main Hero: **KAGURA**
Kagura belongs to the Onmyouji family who has mastered the art of Yin Yang. With perfect combos using her Seimei umbrella, you can easily burst down the enemy. If you can perfectly time her combos, then she is pretty much an Assassin. With huge burst damage, Kagura can also escape sticky situations.
Some player says that Kagura is one of the hardest hero to use in Mobile Legends, and it is true because you really need to master the two phase of Kagura's umbrella - the Yin and Yang.
What is Kagura's Story in MLBB?
It is said that Kagura is someone who has a very great title. He is an Onmyouji expert who is very good at the art of yin and also has a strong spirit to control the power of yin and yang.
Not only is Kagura famous, the Kagura Family is also very famous as the oldest, great family, and is also very strong in mastering the Onmyouji martial arts, especially from all ancestors and also the heirs of this power.
Kagura has enormous potential and is a type of his family especially in mastering the power of Onmyouji. He is also very proud in the possession of the magic umbrella Seimei that he often uses.
Seimei Umbrella itself is an art heirloom that has great strength and has been passed down from generation to generation. Surely this umbrella is not a weapon at random. Therefore Kagura became someone who was highly valued in his family.
Kagura is a mage hero who has the title of Onmyouji Master and is the most beautiful hero you can play in the Land of Dawn. Surely there are many players who like the characteristics of this one hero, not only beautiful, Kagura also has very unique abilities.
It is said that Kagura is someone who has a very great title. He is an Onmyouji expert who is very good at the art of yin and also has a strong spirit to control the power of yin and yang.
Not only is Kagura famous, the Kagura Family is also very famous as the oldest, great family, and is also very strong in mastering the Onmyouji martial arts, especially from all ancestors and also the heirs of this power.
Kagura has enormous potential and is a type of his family especially in mastering the power of Onmyouji. He is also very proud in the possession of the magic umbrella Seimei that he often uses.
Seimei Umbrella itself is an art heirloom that has great strength and has been passed down from generation to generation. Surely this umbrella is not a weapon at random. Therefore Kagura became someone who was highly valued in his family.
In the Legend, the Umbrella was previously controlled by Seimei’s enormous power. This umbrella also has the power of the spirit and also the ghost that lives for a long time in it.
This Seimei umbrella has a life as well as wisdom of its own. And certainly, this Umbrella can be controlled by its legitimate successor, Kagura.
Kagura has a childhood friend, Hayabusa, and one day, Hayabusa has a very dangerous mission, he goes to a mysterious place. Hayabusa went to a place which happened to be the same place as Miya’s mission.
Of course, Kagura couldn’t keep quiet after knowing this. Kagura then took the Seimei Umbrella and followed Hayabusa secretly whose goal he was to help Hayabusa when his little friend was in danger.
©en.esportsku.com
*That’s all the story of Kagura Mobile Legends and the reasons why I used her in gameplay. Hopefully the story above can entertain you, especially for those of you who are Mobile Legends gamers too. Don’t forget to keep practicing, play wisely and don’t become a toxic player!*
You can also share to me your main hero in mobile legends if you are a gamer too. Take care and keep safe and have a great day!
Love,
@Gemini07
Friends I Loved
*February 14, 2022*
Greetings to all of you read.cash family and Happy Valentine's Day! Don't forget to greet your loved ones especially your family. Spread love and happiness.
Today, I wanted to share with you my friends that become my best buddies especially in the happiest moment in school. Although I have a lot of friends, a good friend indeed in our class. But let me introduce to you these four individuals who are significant to me.
We named our group "TETA's" and we do have our group chat in Facebook messenger as well which is "Laban Teta's" where we make our conversation and helped each other with our school assignments, tasks, and activities. We also make chismis (gossips) in our group chat.
Without any further ado, let me introduce them to you individually.
The Head
He's Mark, and he is part of read.cash family @MarCosis , I consider him as head in our group not only because of his age (Hahaha) but of course how he takes responsibility when it comes to his family. This person is embodied with creativity and broad imagination, he is really good in different areas such as writing, public speaking, and even in performance arts. This guy oftentimes gets sulky when he is forgotten by the group. He don't want to be left when we do something or we go somewhere, he wanted to be there as well. But overall, he is nice, kind, and generous since then.
The Comedian | Queen of ML
He's Danlevey, you can determine right away his sexuality. This person brings color to our group which he always brings happiness to us whether his jokes are funny or not. He is very friendly to everyone, and it is one of his traits that everybody loves. We haven't seen him crying in front of us, because he always chooses to make us laugh and he is not that expressive when it comes to personal matters. He also loves to play mobile legends and he's good at it.
The Generous
Her name is Joyce, she's brave, sweet, caring, and amenable. She is musically inclined too and she can play an instrument- bandurria. This woman loves to share with us what she has. She treats us with food (kita naman Haha, kidding) and she's good at jokes too. However, you need to be careful with your words to be uttered on her because she became a beast when she gets mad and angry (Haha). She's easily get rattled when she forgot to make homework or tasks.
The Lutang | Daydreamer
She's Lady Vaneza, sweet, cheerful, caring, and a K-pop lover. We call her "lutang" because she can't catch up with our jokes sometimes. But this woman has a strong personality and we love her and treat her as our younger sister.
They are my best buddies that are one call away when I need them. I love them and I missed them so much. We can't meet up together due to distance and health protocols in these present times.
That's all for today read.cash family, I hope you enjoyed reading this. Have a great day and God bless you all.
Yours Truly,
@Gemini07
Ending-up with My Ex's
Hi, read.cash fam, since my beautiful and brilliant friend @Eurydice challenge me to make an article about my exes. I accepted her challenge. You're free to read and visit her article "My Ex's and Whys" too.
https://read.cash/@Eurydice/my-exs-and-whys-bb6b2217
**But before anything else, I wanted you to open your mind before reading this article. Let us avoid judgments and discrimination herein this platform. Let us spread love and respect.**
My first Ex's name is **Kishler James**, I met him on Facebook, he is a Chinito guy, thoughtful and caring. He is kinda sweet and he always updated me time-to-time about what he does and where he is going to. We are both in Grade 11 that time way back in 2017. Unfortunately, our relationship lasts only for a month.
Why did we break up?
I was the one who broke up with him due to pressure in school academics. I was making and finalizing my Research Study at that time and I feel exhausted. I was annoyed with him that time because he always chatted with me and ask me "Love pa ba ko nimo? Pila na lang ka percent imohang paghigugma sa akoa?" in English, "Do you still love me? How many percent is your love that remains for me?" That time, I was frustrated because the submission of the study will be on the next day then I only went to Internet Café just to make my research study because I don't own a personal computer or android phone at that time. I was too insensitive that time, and I admit that it was my mistake.
My second Ex's name is **Paul Stephen**, he is tall, white and smart, and he acts modestly than me. He speaks Tagalog since he was born in Cotabato City, but he is more amazing when he speak using English. We're classmates from Grade 10 until Grade 12. I had a crush on him since he transferred to our school way back year 2015.
Fast forward, in the year 2017 in April, and "April Fool's Day" is very famous. That time he chatted with me through Facebook messenger, and he said "May aaminin ako sayo" (I have something to tell you). Then I replied, "what is it?, then he said, "Gusto kita matagal na" (I like you since then). Then I said in a lively manner, "Happy April's Fools Day Paul". Suddenly, he said that he wasn't fooling me then we started to talk about it seriously. On the next day after his confession, at school, I feel shy and still can't believe that someone like him, will like someone like me.
We are courting each other for about 5 months and we had just kept it from our classmates. However, we already know that our classmates noticed already that there is something about us. We became official in a relationship on the 6th month of courting, and it was a month of December and I was the one who ask him personally, "Pwede ba nga kita na?" (Can you be mine?). Then he said yes, we have shared so much in common and do our school projects together, however, our relationship ended and last for 6 months.
Why did we break up?
The year 2018 of March, he get back to their hometown in Cotabato City with her two siblings and with her mom. As he stays there that month until May, I feel strange because he rarely chat with me through messenger and I feel like he is getting cold with me, and he always said that he has a poor internet connection. Then, he got back to Davao on May 14, and then we meet at a Resort and we talk about our relationship and he asked me to broke up him. I asked him why then he said that his parents disapproves of our relationship. I was hurt as we come to the point that we already exchanged social media accounts, then he said that to me directly. So I borrow his phone, then suddenly I caught him that he uses another account to court and he is having an affair. Aside from disapproval from his parents, he decided to break up with me. So I set him free.
My third Ex's name is **Carljhon**, he is a petite man, sweet, and generous. I met him on Facebook, however, our relationship lasted for a month. But within that month that we're in a relationship, I still feel his love and caring side. He always supports me when I have activities in school, and when the time that we're having a practice for cheerdance competition with my classmates he went to our venue and he brought me some snacks and medicine because at that time, I am sicked and one of the reasons I have loved him more.
Why did we break up?
The happiness he brought to me was just for a short period, he became insensitive and have less time with me. He only send me a message if he wanted to see it or if he needs something. Then, I asked myself if, is it the love that I am looking or searching for? If it is love, why do I need to feel this? I suddenly realized that I am just hurting myself and forcing someone to love me back the way that I have loved him.
My fourth Ex's name is **Rommel**, "A Teacher and Student Relationship", but he is a teacher from a different college institution. He is kind, generous, sweet and he makes too much effort in surprising me every month. I met him on Facebook year 2018 of October. However, our relationship lasted for 6 months.
Why did we break up?
There are two main reasons why we broke up. First, he is not open to his family about his sexuality, and when his younger sister found out about our relationship, there is a moment when his younger sister badmouthing me and my family and says disgusting things through phone calls and chats. I was too sensitive and I can't handle my emotion especially when someone talks unthoughtful to my family. It will be okay if his younger sister is against us, but saying things that shouldn't be is another matter.
On the other hand, I am ashamed to tell you this, I cheated on him not once, not twice, but thrice. One of the reasons why I cheated on him is that he becomes so strict on me especially in chatting with my friends that come to the point he doesn't want me to entertain those certain friends I have. There is one guy whose name is Shirley (what a lovely name for a man, kidding), this guy came into my life before Rommel, and I do still love him even I am in a relationship with Rommel that is why I can't even reject him to my life. I may be stupid or pathetic, but I made another account just to keep my friendship with Shirley. However, Rommel found out my account and he has seen all of our conversations and he becomes so angry with me because of his jealousy. I know it was my mistake and the greatest sin I did to my lover.
My fifth Ex's name is **July**, I met him on Facebook year 2019 of December, and we became official in January 2020. He's tall dark and handsome, he likes photography and the arts. I become interested in this guy because I like his name, one of the reasons is that I was born in July. He said he wants me to be the subject of his photography, yet it never happened because our relationship lasted for a month as well.
Why did we break up?
As the day passed by, he get angry easily with me and he said he was tired of my attitude. We come to point that we can't understand each other anymore, and he was the one who ended our relationship. There is one of the biggest reasons why we broke up, however, it is against our community here in read.cash. To make it simple, he just loved me for his sexual motive.
Closing Thought
Yes, I proudly say that I am homosexual but it doesn't matter here, what matters most is the experience and story I wanted to tell you. My exes are the people who give memories, lessons, and meaning about what love is. We may make mistakes from our partners but the most important thing is that you learned and reflect from it.
"Once a cheater, always a cheater" we hear from so many people. I want you to know that cheating is a choice and we cheat because we have different reasons.
I wanted to say is that the statement is not always true. As long as we were able to recognize and corrected our behavior we can be better and we can do better. Still, acknowledge those people and memories because it is part of who we are today as a person.
I have someone new now, he's Vince and we're at 11 months being together and I promised him that I am going to be faithful to him for the rest of our life.
That is all for now, and I hope you enjoy reading my story. Thank you and have a great day.
Yours Truly,
@Gemini07
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Hopeless to Fearless!
I will tell you something...
Greetings! I am **Gideon**, 22 years of age and I am a teacher in the making. I'm taking up a Bachelor of Technical Vocational Teachers Education major in Food and Services Management. I grew up in a broken family, where life face a lot of difficulties specifically in financial and emotional aspects. My high school years were the most difficult time for me as a student and as a son, wherein I am still in the process of learning and trying to understand things about life.
As a student, I am having difficulty motivating myself to do good or be excellent in my academics. I am oftentimes mentally and emotionally disturbed because of jealousy. That time, I get jealous every time the teacher calls for a PTA (Parents-Teachers Assembly) Meeting, where most of my classmates' parents attend the said meeting, and most of the time my mother can't attend maybe because she is doing her business as an Avon Dealer that time. Being raised by a solo parent was hard as a student, I have to go to school with my allowance of Php.20 every day, transportation is already Php.10, other Php.10 left for my snacks or urgent contributions for cour classroom. The allowance is not enough to survive the whole day of class, however, I started to save my Php.10 left from my allowance in case there is a need for contribution inside the classroom or for photocopying some sort of lessons module. Although I also get jealous of my classmates who can buy food in the school canteen, it is still my choice because I realized how hard our life is.
On the other hand, as a son, I am having a hard time accepting that our father has another woman and chooses to leave us with my mother and my two elder brothers. During that time, I am lack with motivation and inspiration to do good in school and even to dream big, because I always felt hopeless. However, the more I aged the more I realized and accepted what our father did to us, and I started to eradicate the feeling of hatred and I already forgive him for leaving us behind.
College Journey
Way back in 2018, upon enrollment for my First Year in college, I am still confused about what Program Course should I take, and I told myself not to specialize in major subjects like Mathematics, Science, English, or even Filipino.
As I take a look at the Programs offered by the Christian Colleges of Southeast Asia, only two programs that captivated my attention the BTLEd (Bachelor of Technology and Livelihood Education) and BTVTEd (Bachelor of Technical-Vocational Teachers Education). Then, I conclude to take the BTVTEd for the reason that, it suits my personality and I wanted to equip myself with different skills.
However, as the school year starts, I was disappointed to know that my Course Program BTVTEd has only one specialization which is Food and Services Management. I was expecting different vocational skills like dressmaking or tailoring, Computer Animation, and others. But of course, I started to love my course as I meet different individuals who become part of my journey. The individuals I am referring to are my co-BTVTEd students, who become my second family. Who taught me to take every challenge and surpass everything with no fear. I realized that no matter how we struggled in life, but knowing that there were always people who will help and lift us.
It just saddens me, as we moved to another year of our journey some of us have and need to stop studying due to personal reasons. We had shared happiness and fights like true brothers and sisters. Unfortunately, some of us cannot make it to the end, but one thing is for sure we will cross our path again someday, somehow.
*Our life is indeed like riding a train or a bus, people come and go, and those people who leave had left you a lesson that you will never forget.*
As a student, I am going to inspire other students that no matter how life is difficult for us, we must have the courage and determination to pursue our dreams and be the person we wanted to be. As a fruit of a broken family and other students like me, I encourage you all to stand firm and let's reach and achieve our dreams together.
Yours Truly,
@Gemini07
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