Enough: An Essay About Depression.

Am I ugly? Can I be perfect? Are you perfect? Do you want to die? Do you want to end your life? I’m so depressed, are you? Sadness is our twin in our everyday lifestyle but how far that sadness can go.

Greetings to every one of you I am about to tell you what depression is, and how it affects every ones’ life. 

Depression, one word yet so powerful that can obstruct thousands of lives. A word that is too deep, and worth a lot of meaning. A lot of individuals across the world are suffering from this kind of mental health disorder, this kind of mental health disorder is way too hard to cope with if left untreated this can lead to serious health problem. Most of the time people experiencing depression for various reasons, most of the person aren’t aware of the terms of this kind of mental health issue, for some reason. If this is left untreated they end up killing their own lives. A person with depression is imprisoned in a room of loneliness, covered in a blanket of anxiety, and hidden in the shadow of a colorful door. They are afraid to do something because they have doubt that it might go wrong, they are afraid to communicate with the reason that they are just being criticized by the world, they are afraid to speak up knowing that no one else can understand their situation.

          From a famous line that we usually see in social media “I keep it all inside because I’d rather let the pain destroy me than anybody else.” It states that most people suffering from depression have a lot of words in their mind that they actually wanted to talk about but they are afraid that no one was interested in their stories, they are afraid that if they tell their problem to somebody they might receive a criticism, that is why most of them keep their problems with their own instead of opening it up to anyone.

          The feeling of being depressed is a normal in our life due to failures, problem, or low self-confidence, but when feelings become stronger and sadness overtake a person making them feel worthless, hopeless and often is unable to live normal and it last not just a couple hours or days but rather weeks your depression might be something more serious. This medical condition believed to be more common among women than men. From the article of Twelve surprising facts about the depression of Madeline Vann based on criteria in the American Psychiatric Association’s Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, there are different types of depression first is one major depression that interferes person with their everyday activities, second is the dysthymic disorder which is considered as a long term disorder that is commonly last over two years but is not severe as major depression, the third type of depression is a minor depression and people who were suffering to this are having the symptoms over two weeks or longer but they don’t need to full the criteria of major depression but without treatment, it can lead to major depression the fourth type of depression is the bipolar disorder, people who suffer from this have the rapid change in behavior from extremely happy to being extremely sad.

          One of the common causes of depression is bullying, most of us are aware that a simple way of saying some biting words to someone can deprive self-esteem. Most of us are suffering from a various kind of bullying, and here is the thing how does it feel when someone calls you a noob or a bitch out of nowhere, admit that it is hard to accept those words because you knew in yourself that you are not that kind of person? Let me tell you a secret I suffer from the humiliation that I really didn’t want to live out, I admit that most of the time I have this strong self-confidence about myself I love to compete in order to improve my skills and I’m glad of having my life on how I see the world but my belief turn upside down, it happened when I became a victim of body shaming that self-confidence of mine are gradually missing, and believe it or not those hurtful words that I received came from the mouth of my own friends and suitor, funny isn’t it that I let them cursing me for my everyday life, we were together wearing my sweetest smile in front of them while I’m actually screaming over the top of my lung until I get into those feeling that every night I cried asking where I messed up and why I exist in this world and the worst part is when I wanted to stop studying and thinking of ending up my own life. In what I share some might say it is just sad that I feel in those moments and it is normal to feel sad and lonely sometimes because it is our natural emotion, but how can they be so sure that it is just sadness when until now those memories are still fresh in my mind, and it is hard for me to talk about it and admit it to whom who also suffer from depression that it is hard to talk about it.

All of us are living in two different lives, what other people see are different from what I mean is, that all of us have different personalities which we manifest in the world are different from the personality that we possess when we are alone. It's hard to stir around the world, for the reason even if you're doing right all you get is just hurtful words, it's difficult to get out from your room of anxiety to face the reality for the reason that you need to be someone else just to hide what you really feel inside, you always need to adjust in every situation even if it’s too hard for you to hide the problems you are trying to handle by yourself just to look fine in the front of everybody. You always have that feeling that you want to tell your story but no one wants to listen and you don’t have any other choice but to hide it, the feeling you want to talk about but the truth behind your smile but you don’t really know what to say, and you don’t any other choice but to hide those pain.

There are so many lives that are taken due to depression, every minute every seconds in every corner of the world there is someone dying for the reason that they can’t  handle the pain that they feel inside them, but most of us doesn’t care to them because most of us might say that it is about their problem and not ours, but we are not in their shoes to judge them because we don’t feel the miseries they  are experiencing, we have no rights to judge them, if the only solution that they find in their problem is by ending themselves, but how many lives need to be lost just to wake us up in the fact that the world is gradually filling with lies, lies that every person surrounds you are still happy with their lives, lies in every person in front of you is wearing their sweetest smile, we need to wake up and realize that many people need care and understanding despite from their suffering and how can we help them, how can we cure the pain within the heart of someone who suffer from depression.

To cure depression, if you are one of those who are experiencing it, will you recover? it’s not too late, you're not in the last stage of your life, learn to accept those failures, learn to accept yourself, the people who we are not the people who want us to be, we need to embrace our own self because no one else will do, we need to embrace the dark in able to see the light of hope in our life. We are people and we are not perfect we make mistakes and it is okay so we must stop the ignorance stop the violence we need to wake up and start talking and helping those people who are battling alone from anxiety and depression. Try talking to your parents and with your friends, maybe it's hard but it is one of the greatest ways to relieve the pain that you feel, try to go for some medications, and try to talk to God, you were created by God for the reason that you have a purpose in this world, maybe it’s hard to live in a sea of struggles but those waves of the problem will leave you a lesson that will serve as key to success, and help us to become a better people so that we can become more mature in the future. Remember that this is not the last page of your story, so get out of your bed of misery and open the door of hope for the future. A quotation from a friend of mine just keeps the positive vibes, act like you don’t care because you live for your own life and success.