You’re allowed to break down in front of your person. You’re allowed to rant to them about your problems. You’re allowed to show them the sides of yourself you usually keep private.
You shouldn’t feel embarrassed about opening up to them about your past issues or about filling them in on your current drama. If there is a problem in your life, you should feel comfortable discussing it with them. You shouldn’t feel forced to keep secrets. You shouldn’t feel like you need to tiptoe around them and shield them from your problems in order to keep the spark alive.
If you’re in a serious relationship with this person, they deserve to hear what you have to say. They should be there to support you when you’re struggling. They should be a shoulder to lean on when you’re distressed. They should be one of the rare people you know always has your back, no matter how bad things get.
If your person runs away as soon as things get hard, you shouldn’t blame yourself. You shouldn’t feel like you’ve done something wrong. You shouldn’t wish you were less honest and upfront with them.
It’s good that you were transparent. It’s good that you kept them in the loop. You shouldn’t feel pressured to hide bits and pieces of yourself. You shouldn’t feel pressured to lie to them. You shouldn’t feel pressured to pretend everything is fine because they will bolt the second things get complicated.