You need to trap your emotions. You may not feel sad, or nauseous. Even your joy is generated - you are so broken within yourself that you don't even know what happiness is. The idea of letting someone out and showing them your pain and darkness scares you more than no one knows you. You don't let anyone see you. The only way to survive is to make sure no one sees what's underneath the carefully crafted surface. Every day you struggle to stay in the water, but if you slip for a while, you are afraid that the people you represent to the world will collapse and be exposed. You are really hurting yourself. When you wrap your body and bottle tightly, it reacts and manifests all inner pain as outward symptoms. You may experience migraines, digestive problems, body aches, muscle tension, appetite imbalances, or a host of other symptoms.