12:50 AM: I am lying face down in my bed with my chin leaning at my pillow right now, desperately thinking on what to do for tomorrow - and my tomorrow means the future. I am about to graduate in this year, and all that's in my head is that I don't think I can do this, I am about to shed out of my cocoon and fly out to face the real world, the real cruel world. I am unconfident, timid, and I think I don't have any particular skills that I can be proud of. With all these negative thoughts and emotions rushing through my brain, I don't know if I can ever survive. It may be an exaggeration for some, but this is all what I'm feeling every night. As like everyone, during my younger days, I always dreamed of a perfect ideal life that was planned and awaits for me, but... I know... everything does not turn out as what we always plan.