@Fae

I just realised that I have made it past 100 followers. Thank you to all of you for your love and support.

It is a nice day today. However, the ambient temperature in my house is coooooold as. I am not a fan of being cold especially because I am wearing so many layers I can hardly move. I prefer summer so I dont need to wear so many layers of clothes because that makes my skin irritated and itchy.

Morning Noisecashers I didnt post as soon as I woke up today. I got up had some breakfast and started to study before posting. I feel like writing about my routine and it being the same everyday gets really boring. Maybe I should change it up a bit? Hmmm noise cash wasn't letting me post this here because I accidentally posted it and didn't know if I could change the location of my post in edit so I deleted it.

Evening noise.cashers I just made dinner. Here we call it bangers (sausages) and mash (mashed potato). I put wayyyyyyyy too much butter in the potato but it tastes soooo good. The sausages are made of chicken as sausages containing red meat make me feel quite sick.

I have realised since getting back into a routine of going to bed early and getting up early I don't consume nearly as much caffeine as I used to consume. I guess my body is just used to getting up and staying up without needing caffeine to keep me awake. I just finished the census and I thought it was going to take way longer than it did. I am currently waiting for the dishwasher to finish it's cycle and then I will go have a shower then I will cook/eat dinner and go to bed.

Hey all, So I am going to get a routine together for posting articles. Unfortunately I won't be posting one today but I do plan to start posting articles every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. To anyone that has read or liked my article thankyou your support and interaction means a lot to me. I plan to start an article series posting about cryptids will also be illustrating images to decorate the articles.

Hey guys I'm fae and I have published some articles on read.cash Here they are: - https://read.cash/@Fae/drosophila-melanogaster-the-fruit-fly-9c823c8a - https://read.cash/@Fae/prove-them-wrong-2d0ea28e - https://read.cash/@Fae/normality-is-it-a-lie-today-too-7635909b I am thinking about starting a series about cryptids on read.cash and I was wondering if anyone would be interested in reading about different cryptids? Please let me know if you would be interested in it. #Readcash

Morning noisers It is early and I gotta get up and go to uni. So, time for breakfast and a laaaaarge mug of tea. I have two classes today both of which finish pretty early so that is nice because after they finish I have the rest of the day to myself.

Normality-is it a lie today too? Today I feel like I am normal. I am happy. There is no anger or sadness... There is no crushing dread. The only thing that gets to me is yesterday started out that way. But then 'it' started. I was taking a test and I felt like I knew nothing at all. I started to get anxious because I thought for sure I was going to fail. At the end of the test I realised I had passed (just) but hey P's get degrees as they say. Because of the pass I calmed down a little. Later I was sitting in the campus library doing some study before class and I was approached by someone and while they were talking to me I got extremely anxious again. After they left I left the campus and decided to go for a walk. That walk dredged up memories both good and bad and it left me feeling overwhelmed. At around 3:25pm I left the city altogether because I was overloaded. I hope that today doesn't turn out that way too. *** Well today didn't turn out like yesterday but I am exhausted and have a headache after completing another experiment in the lab. I was the last student to finish but it didn't bother me it was quite peaceful and I didnt feel panicked or rushed as I usually would if I was the last to leave. There was an issue with me picking up the embryos though I just couldnt get it!

I got home late tonight because my embryos wouldn't cooperate. So of course I havent checked when and how much lap swimming is. Tomorrow I dont finish late so I will definitely do it. Third time is the charm!

Well that is awkward I just got told by someome that viewed my youtube videos that one of my videos didnt have sound which is odd because the sound worked perfectly fine when I checked it before I uploaded *sigh*

Not suuure if this is allowed but I see people promoting twiitter and stuff so I did a thing on read.cash 2 articles here they are. 1. https://read.cash/@Fae/drosophila-melanogaster-the-fruit-fly-9c823c8a 2. https://read.cash/@Fae/prove-them-wrong-2d0ea28e

Morning Noisecashers, it is currently 5:55am and I am about to get out of bed to start my day. Yesterday was a weird day for me. I also forgot to go to my local pool and ask about the cost of and when the lap swimming is. Oh well today is another day so I can go today and ask. After uni of course.

Morning noisecashers, I am up and making a tea after making my bed. I have uni today and a test first up. I dont really want to go to uni today but I meed to get out of the house after not going out apart from grocery shopping for dinner. I need to go to my local swimming centre too so I can ask how much it is per swim and when the lap swimming is.

I am watching OmargoshTV again he is using the intentionz app and has found a cave system. His video is making me miss going hiking so now I want to go on a hike up Anstey hill it is always so pretty up there. I would only go in summer though because some of the paths are dirt paths and in the rain, they get super suuuuuper muddy and slippery.

Trading crypto is exciting I find. It also requires you to pay attention which is nice to take my mind off of things. I have been keeping my eye on my earnings as I have been studying today. I need to go to the shops so I will do that soon to pick up lunch as well as something for dinner.

Prove them wrong Hello readers of read.cash, I want to ask you a question. When someone doesn't believe in you, or your dreams, does it get you down? Personally, for me sometimes it does. For example, at the end of Year 11 I was supposed to have an academic appointment with two of the best teachers. Instead, it was taken over by another teacher. I was told I wouldn't be suited to University and it devastated me. I will admit my grades were awful but when you are struggling with wanting to die your grades don't matter. I didn't agree to be swept under the rug and this teacher harassed me including taking over from an assigned relief teacher for a lesson. I essentially crawled through year 12 but let's fast forward years later, I'm 23 and I graduated from my first degree in May and am due to graduate from my second in two years. I proved them wrong. What else? My ex told me I should just focus on "getting a real job" and putting effort into anything else is "a waste of time." Unfortunately for me, I have found it difficult to get a "real" job, especially during the pandemic. So, I figured instead of sitting around doing the bare minimum, why not try and make money in less conventional ways? Slowly but surely I am making a bit of money on the side. It isn't a lot but it is something. This person made me feel like they didn't want me to do it in case it took off and I ended up making more by doing something "easy" than they do working full time. It also felt like they had no faith in me. But, I am proving them wrong too. Readers of read.cash I implore you if someone makes you feel like you can't do something. Or if someone doubts your ability to do something prove them wrong because you can do it... No, not can, you WILL do it. Maybe not today or tomorrow but that's okay it takes time.

Welp Lunatik hair dye is on sale and is now $5 I really shouldn't buy it but I really REALLY want. All three colours look pretty awesome but I would probably go with either purple or red... Possibly both... I am only human :p

Morning Noisecashers, I woke up at 5 am, had breakfast and here I am posting before I get some notes done. I didn't end up going for a walk around the lake or getting bubble tea yesterday I ended up having way much to do. I will definitely go out today no matter if I have finished my chores or not for my mental health and I don't care if I get yelled at for doing so. Maybe I will even dress up a bit I haven't done that in a while.

My mood has gone from sad bordering on depressive to anxious >.< I am not entirely sure what has happened to make me feel this way but it has happened... Oh well, I am going to try and focus on getting what I need to do done. I am currently doing my notes because I have already emptied and filled the dishwasher. I still need to take the rubbish out and start sorting the washing. I also need to apply for some jobs.

Morning Noisecashers, I woke up early and got out of bed I even made my bed despite hitting a brick wall. I feel horrible, and I just keep thinking "what is the f*cking point?" I think I might try and get everything I need to do done before 12pm today. Then I will go to Mawsons get a bubble tea and go for a walk... I have some big decisions to make but I dont want to make them while in the house though because that will influence how I am feeling. Despite getting a lot of sleep I feel tired and that isnt a good sign for me. Anyway, time to go and do some work around the house.

It's just a jump to the left And then a step to the right With your hands on your hips You bring your knees in tight But it's the pelvic thrust That really drives you insa-a-a-a-ane Let's do the Time Warp again Let's do the Time Warp again Just me singing Time Warp from the cult classic The Rocky Horror Picture show while I get myself some breakfast. I do all the moves too of course. I lovvvve The Rocky Horror Picture Show 😍 I mean, who wouldn't love Frank 😍

Morning noisecashers, I woke up at 430 and have been pottering about my room doing some cleaning. I am going to go and have a shower and make some breakfast and then I will watch my preworkshop video and get ready to go to uni for the day. Todays mood: neutral at the current moment.

Drosophila Melanogaster - The fruit fly Hello everyone, Fae the geneticist in training here. I want to introduce you to Drosophila Melanogaster. This critter is also known as the fruit fly. Drosophila is a good organism to use as an animal model. I am undertaking a genetics course at University as part of this course I need to conduct experiments in the laboratory. The image you see is from an experiment where I was given two tubes of Drosophila. The first tube had progeny (babies) of both sexes in it. I had to pick 5 males out of this tube. The second tube had female progeny I had to pick 5 of these too. You may be wondering how I did that. Well, I had to euthanise them (put them to sleep) this was a tedious process. I then put the Drosophila into another tube and laid the tube on its side so they could wake up. Of course, the idea is for the Drosophila to mate. I hope that I managed to pair them successfully. In this experiment, the male drosophila had white eyes and curly wings. Whereas the females were wildtypes. In genetics "wildtype" means normal. For Drosophila wildtypes have red eyes with straight wings.

Morning all, I just got up and had a shower. Im about to make breakfast (noodles of course) and get on with my day. I have been awake since 1am because I went to sleep at about 830pm so I have already been awake for about 7 hours. I'm not feeling too tired at the moment so that is good Current mood: grumpy. Hopefully it will improve as the day continues.

I am so tired. I dont think I have any compulsory classes at uni tomorrow so I think I might work from home. This sememster I have something due almost every day in genetics in my other class evolutionary bio the due dates for assessments are very spread out which I am not used to which makes me feel like I have missed a bunch of assignments that is not good for my anxiety.

After my class today I am going to go and pick up a duffle bag so I can start putting clothes into it. Why? Just in case my father decides that he wants us to sell the house so he can get more money out of us. I want to start getting ready to move if we have to. Or if I just can't handle being in the house I can just grab my bag and head out for a weekend or something.

Sometimes I space out.. Well, actually I do it a lot and sometimes it is because of flashbacks. Sometimes I wish I still had contact with Bones (we dated) so I could ask him if sometimes his flashbacks are followed by "flashbacks" that didn't actually happen but are related to what did happen. Anyway, I was sitting here having one of my space out sessions and someone thought I was staring at them... I was not I was staring past them into a scene that unfolded years ago.

I was reading through a conversation I had with my friend... I came across a message from me saying "Okay, D (my ex) gropes me but at least he hasnt threatened to hurt one of my friends." but he did... He told a mutual friend of ours if he came out as gay in that very moment he would get pushed out of the car they were in... That noisecashers I believe is gay panic... The moment our mutual friend told me that I should have run very far away... Because in that moment he became a very dangerous person for a majority of my friends to be around... I dont care that it isnt in his nature to be violent... I dont care that the friend is not queer so not in any danger... That doesnt matter... If they were at a complete stand still at a set of traffic lights that doesnt matter... Pushing someone out of a car could still cause grevious bodily harm because of OTHER traffic... IT IS THE PRINCIPLE ...Last I knew... Theyre still friends...

Well I got up and I have eaten I also had some juice. I was thinking about how people say to keep busy to forget about your ex or other people. Yknow go out with friends, do something you enjoy, watch funny videos. I thought, do some peoples thought processes stop when they do these things? When I play videogames I can still deeply analyse things... Even if it is one that requires a lot of involvement and not just mashing buttons. Co-op sure I can do that but all the while my head is gonna be analysing thing. The. Whole. Damn. Time It irritates me when people say "just dont think about it" my ex was bad for that... A guy threatened to hurt your friend? Don't think about it cause you change when you do and I dont like that... It'd be better if he said "dont think about it because you change when you do and it makes me worry for you." Like, what? Am I supposed to be super perky after remembering that a guy said he would knock one of my friends teeth in? No? Wonder why. Am I supposed to be happy after remembering that the same guy threatened one of his friends? No? I guess some people just dont think... Granted this came from a guy that told his friend if he came out as gay at that very moment he would get pushed out of the car...