Why i don't having crush

Greeting dear readers,

Having a crush to some extent it is good while to some extent it is not good, like what my dad will always say, what have advantage also has disadvantage.

First of all let me start by defining crush. Crush: according to English dictionary, it means An infatuation or affection for someone you are not dating. I always have this feeling on crush on someone, but i dont end up telling the person how I feel, until when the person end up with another person, then I will then open up. Having crush on someone is good, but when you dont tell the person how you feel it will become bad, many people tend to develop their feeling (crush) for someone, and end up not telling the person how they feel for them because of the fear of rejection, although most crush lead to rejection while some dont, so many people might have feelings for you, but won't tell you, because they are afraid of rejection, but I just discovered that it best to let it out, irrespective of rejection or not, by so doing you heart is free and the person might even respond well to you, (i.e the person might also have the same feeling for you). Back then in my secondary school days, there was a girl in by class, she was clever and also very beautiful, many boys in our class has eye on her, or better still crushing over her, truth be told, I have crush for her, and I was afraid to tell them, because I know alot of boys more handsome and their parents are rich who is having crush on her, and also her parents was wealthy, i just said to myself, no need for me to even try, so that she won't turn me down, so I was just crushing although she noticed, but she didn't say a word, that was because she was waiting for me to speak up, and I was afraid to, until one day, one of her friend told me that Chidima (that the girl name) was having crush on me, I didn't believe because I know alot of boys who was having crush on her, so I decided to be friends with her, so that I can know if she like or love me, to my surprise the feeling I have for her was mutual, since that day, till now, I don't hide my feelings for anyone I love or better still I don't nurse my crush, I just tell the person how I feel for her, it up to her to respond well or not. Me and chidima was girl friend and boyfriend, until our senior secondary school exam, (Neco) and she travel out of the country, and we lost contact.