DID YOU KNOW THAT IN A RELATIONSHIP WHEN YOU COMMIT A SIN AGAIN, YOU WILL ALSO BE FORGIVEN AGAIN BUT EVERYTIME YOUR PARTNER FORGIVES YOU, HE WILL LITTLE LITTLE LOSS OF HIS LOVE FOR YOU
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I always hear that from my mommy when she advises me about the relationship. I was raised by a single mother and I don't know why I don't have a dad and my mom doesn't tell me about him either.
I approached mom while sitting on the couch since she wasn't doing anything because she was off work.
I was just so curious about my dad, I don't know what their story is. So I didn't stop myself from asking mom.
Mom, don't be mad at me but where is dad really?
I asked her while having a serious face and sad visions.
Mom stares at me first before she reacted to my question.
"You look like your Dad
Mom smiled but it was obvious in her inexplicable eyes.
"Son, you're 18 years old and I'm so sorry I don't allow you to flirt with a woman, I just don't want you to be like your dad.
"but why mom? What do you mean?
"Way back time when your Dad was just flirting with me, he's sweet and caring most of all very gentle. He just always makes me happy that's all he always does until the day comes that I'm afraid we'll always fight, he can't even lower his pride and ego even for the sake of our relationship, it's sad because even if I cry and cry, it just doesn't matter to him even if he's the one wrong. Until the day comes when he always tells me that he was tired of our relationship, he says he was very tired and he wants to break up with me but here I am fooling around because I love him so much.
Those times, mom's tears seemed to want to drip.
'Is mom still in pain?
She nodded.
"Until now, it hasn't really been erased from that child's memory. You won't forget those memories
'but mom what happened after?
"I chased after your dad, like I'm a fool. I told myself maybe he'll change and he won't repeat his sins, That's what I did wrong before I'm hurting because I keep hoping that everything will be better. He was so sorry, I also forgive him again and again because I love him. Your Dad and I got back together but his mistakes continue, it's just OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER.
And then, mom couldn't stand her tears really dripping. Maybe it hurts, it still hurts not to lose his heart.
"I'm sorry mom, I shouldn't have asked you about that. That's enough for me mom, you know that
no, it's okay son I also want you to know everything.
And I let mom talk
"One day when I woke up I suddenly fainted, I was just 20 years old at that time, I vomited. That's when I found out that I was pregnant and it was you.
‘You told Dad right away, mom?
"I just forced myself to say" okay I'll wait for this to change "but I won't say I'm pregnant.
because I don't want him to hold me accountable just because he feels sorry for me, I don't want him to hold me responsible only because he's forced to because I'm pregnant. He kept hurting me, we didn't understand each other anymore, my parents already knew that I was pregnant, until your dad broke up again and that's when I woke up to the fact that it was wrong, I don't want to be tired, tired and new I left in front of him I was crying then and then I just told him I was pregnant and I left immediately, your Dad could not speak. One week later, your Dad suddenly reminded me, he wanted to get back together, he said he was responsible for me. he's so sorry he said he won't do bad things again, he said he'll take care of me like when he was still dating.
'You don't agree do you mom?
“Yes
Mom smiled at me
I said, That's all I want, but did you just say that I'm so tired? Am I wide awake to stupidity? I would rather be alone than be fooled by someone who is just forced to change.
'I understand you mom, but I just wanted to ask where Dad is now because I haven't even seen his picture. Sorry mom
"Your Dad already has a family of his own, he also has children. I told him the last time we met that even if he met another woman, he would take care of her and don't hurt her. Like he did to me.
'When are you tired mom of your LOVE for dad? Or are you tired of doing the wrong thing over and over again?
"Both, I'm tired of chasing, tearful stupidity. But the one who is tired of love? It was a long process because before I got tired of love, I cried a lot, I was hurt a lot, before I let him go
and yes, the pain is still here, it doesn't go away.
Note: So in your relationship there, be understanding man or woman because that is the most important of all e. Besides, pride doesn't really help because no matter how much you still love the Person, when the pride promise really exists, you will really hurt your heart. LOVE IS A TREASURE. remember that
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