Broken ones: Part 3
Previously on Broken One: Part 1 and Part 2
https://read.cash/@Erza/broken-ones-part-1-dfbc63f2
https://read.cash/@Erza/broken-ones-part-2-f4b6e60d
**Part 3: Not love but Mistakes**
Anna sits comfortably on a sofa, sipping her cup of coffee after her baby sleep. She feels ache through all her body. She felt sleepy before, but now the baby asleep, she won't want to sleep anymore. All she wants to do was to have "me time".
Anna is Suzen's youngest sister. She is a heavy thinker, a caring person and very concerned about her family. Thus, she thinks a lot about Suzen. What had happened to Suzen made her heart sad. If only she can help, she will. However, the only thing she can do was to advise.
Anna worried about Clement too. She knew Clement was a strong boy but he still a teenager. She scared about how Clement will feel, after what going on in his family. Taking care of the house, especially for a young boy like him, will never be easy. Anna feels like, it's not fair for Clement, because he has the right to choose what he wants. He needs support to pursue study, lives like a college student, and live as a person on his age.
"Poor clement" Anna feels disappointed.
Anna: Hello Clement, are you alright?
Clement: Hai Anna, I'm fine.
Anna: How is everyone at home?
Clement: Good, just fine.
Anna: Tell me, if anything okay?
Clement: Okay.
Anna wants to show support to Clement and let him know that she will be around if he needs her. At the same time, Anna tried not to show how sad she was, so Clement does not feel down. Anna sighed, she wish the children will get what they deserved. As well as she concerned about Suzen, she cares more about the children.
Anna: Sue, don't do this.
Suzen: I need to find my happiness.
Anna: This is not right.
Suzen: We love each other, and that what I need.
Anna: Then, how about the children?
Suzen paused. She seems never think of it. Suzen lost, Anna knows it. Suzen said she found the right man for her, but in Anna's eyes, this is a disaster. Some guts tell Anna, that this going to cause a total mess.
Anna developed a little anger toward Suzen. She thinks this is not the right time to find love. Of course, Suzen needs to find her happiness too, but not this way. Suzen doesn't even divorce, she still a wife to someone. It's better to settled things first, before finding a new partner. If possible, Anna hopes Suzen and Emette stay together for the sake of their children and do their best to be loyal to each other. Parents are what every child need.
Message sending..
***"Suzen, that not love, it's a mistake"***
Again. Anna sighed.
-**End of Part 3**-
Broken ones: Part 2
Previously, Broken Ones-Part 1 (https://read.cash/@Erza/broken-ones-part-1-dfbc63f2 )
**Part 2: Suzen and Emette**
"I know you been doing this years ago. I know it. I am not blind. I endured it, but now I just couldn't "
Her face a bit red, her voice is shaky. Her hand trembling.
" I know it was my fault at the beginning. I already end it, but she just won't leave me alone "
He talks low, full of worry.
Suzen, without an intention, saw a picture of a lady in Emette's phone gallery. Suzen is the kind of wife who won't bother to check through her husband's phone. Accidentally, she saw the popped-out picture and text from the screen.
Suzen was speechless and confused. He has been explaining, but nothing seems clear. Something seems wrong. She just doesn't get it.
Ever since it happened, he not himself. He always came back home late. A short-tempered guy, mad even due to little matter. He barely at home, and he kind of a husband who nagging.
Suzen knew it all along. She knew Emette had a relationship with another woman. She has been hearing rumors around the neighborhood as well. Suzen turned one eye blind because she loves her family. She defends her marriage and forgives Emette.
Mike also, once hit his friend due to the spilled rumors going on. Mike came home with a bruise on her cheek. Mike's teacher told Suzen about the issue. Suzen didn't talk about it with Mike. She thought, leaving him with peace himself was best.
Suzen: Divorce me!
Emmette: No, don't talk about divorce because I won't!
Emette yelling at Suzen.
The living room is filled with conflicts and hate. The situation is very tense. The children seem quiet, look like they understand what going on.
Eva's eye is teary, Christine sitting on Clement's lap while Mike seems calm, looking through his phone.
When Suzen finally had the courage to let go, she finds Emette refused to do so. Suzen couldn't figure it out. All she thought was, divorce is what Emette needs. She thought Emette doesn't love her anymore.
Suzen had no clue what in his mind, or what happened.
Suzen: Or else I'm going to report you to the police
Emette: No, for our sake, please no.
Suzen: Then let split.
Emette: no, we shouldn't.
Emette knows, once Suzen reports him to the police, his reputation will over. He is a police officer himself. It will affect the job he has.
Suzen's heart sank. There a huge burden feel on her shoulder. It hurts, so much.
**Was there a secret Emette hiding?**
**-End of part 2-**
Broken ones: Part 1
***Are you alright? He smiles. A warm smile, like how Suzen remember him used to be. Suzen nod, she hugs him. She misses him so much, that She isn't saying anything. She cries her eyes out, in silence.***
Part 1: Clement and Suzen
That night Suzen stayed out at her rented house. She was tired. She lying down on her bed, looking at the ceiling. Her mind wandering along the past pathway, how she wishes she can go back in time and reset everything.
"I wish I never get married"
She snapped herself out to reality. She gets up from her bed, grabs her towel and goes for a shower.
She couldn't stop thinking. She missed her children at home, but she just too exhausted from working.
"I'll just check on them tomorrow"
She rang her son before She falls to sleep.
Suzen: "Mumy won't come home tonight, how is Christine?"
Clement: "She been sleeping mumy. Fell asleep just now"
Suzen: "Don't skip dinner, don't sleep late. You haven't eaten yet don't you?"
Clement: "Will do. I am about to go for dinner"
Suzen: " Miss u"
Clement: Okay.
Phone off. There is a spark of joy, and longing. But, why the voice sounds a little bit gloomy?
Suzen is a mother of four: Clement (18), Mike (16), Elaine (11), and Christine (3). Clement doesn't pursue study, he took care of the family.
Suzen is working, and her husband is not living with them. He working out the city, not so long after trouble comes to their marriage. Their relationship was turning unhealthy.
Suzen wanted to have her expenses. She seems a little bit lost, not knowing what she should do. Her husband: Emette, not supporting the family's finances as well as before. He was a mess to himself also.
Out of thought, Suzen suddenly decided to find a job and asked Clement to take care of the home. Clement understood and agreed.
Clement is a good son, he understood his mother's situation. He knows it's something she couldn't control. He couldn't do anything about it also. All he can do is to understand and support.
Suzen and Clement: Mother and Son. They supported each other.
**But, was Clement really fine with it?**
**-End of part 1-**
"There is a timelines in everything"
There a saying that goes like this: " We try so hard to copy others without realizing we have different examination papers to answer " Do we have any idea about it?
Maybe, some of these questions can trigger a little thought about it. Does it bother you when you were slightly slower? I mean, about how far you been in your journey to success? are you, even until now, comparing yourself to others?
Have you succeeded? We keep on wondering when it's our time? We keep on planning and trying but never succeeded. For how long it is, to wait? Well, no one knew.
As I write these questions, I try to answer them too. I believe, every answer is different for each person.
Most men feel insecure about being far behind success. The uncertainty provoked peace of mind, anxiety while trying to figure out the future. Will we be fine later? it is what fills the mind. Somehow, an individual may question fate. Is this what meant to be? Where this question comes frequently after repetitive failure and great disappointment.
A failure and disappointment, basically not a preference. These words are seen as discouragement and difficulties. No one will want to invite the circumstances into life. At all costs, men try their utmost to make sure it doesn't come crossing the pathway.
At one time, an imbalance of mentality occurred. This leads to an improper way of thinking. Worst come to worst, resulting in an emptiness that causing mental illness.
Rather than see it negatively, for sake of inner peace, being optimistic is the correct way. However, it is a challenge that not everyone can cope with. those who found strength, make it as a reason to grow and learn to be better in living.
Life is a perfect combination of bitter and sweet. Life is a wheel that going up and down. Accepting bitterness is tough, but moving on is far better than not.
Moreover, success is an accomplishment that revolved around many aspects. It can be relationship, career, or health. When something bad happened in life, don't dwell on it. Never look at it as a total failure of life. Turn to the other side, and look at every little blessing around.
There might be a blessing in our life, dreamed by someone. Thus, never took it for granted. Instead, appreciate everything that happened. It can be a blessing in disguise.
Therefore, live the present, love, and forgive yourself. Competed with yourself, to be better than you were yesterday. Last but not least, don't compare yourself to others.
God's willing, at the right time, with hard work, everything will fall to its place.
THERE IS A TIMELINE IN EVERYTHING.
Thanks for reading. Regards.
Historical Land
The year 2013, was my graduation day. Before graduating, I went to Malacca. Malacca was one of the states in Malaysia, famously known as historical land.
I came to this place with my close friend. She was a friendly Indian girl. Our friendship begins, when started studying in the same college. It wasn't my plan to go to Malacca. This friend of mine invited me to stay overnight with her family. So, she decided to give me one day tour to Malacca.
From what I knew, Malacca is called a historical land because of the remaining site of its glorious past. It was such a precious place to go, and give us a glimpse of its history back then.
I am sharing some of the pictures I took 8 years ago, during my trip to Malacca.
As you can see, there transport like a bicycle there. It is called 'beca'. If you want to ride it, you need to pay around 20-50 MYR if I don't mistaken. It was some part of the attraction here in Malacca. I didn't get a chance to ride it as there so many sites of Malacca we want to explore.
This one is the beautiful water fountain found there. It was near the Christ Church. It literally difficult to take picture in proper angle because of the crowd. The fountain called as Quen Victoria's Fountain.
Here is the christ church, i went inside that day,but just brief. It is not allowed to take pictures inside as what i remembered. Christ Church built by the dutch on 1753. There an information board, about the building of each site.
Up the hill,i found the St. Paul Church. Constructed by a nobleman called Duarte Coelho. Below picture is part of the interior.
Another famous building was the A.Famosa, a former Portuguese fortress that remains. Built by commanders Alfonso de Albuquerque.
The picture at the surviving gate of A.Famosa. Around the surviving gate, the sight of cannons can be seen.
Lastly,just some sight of water wheel in Malacca: Melaka Malay Sultanah Water Wheel.
I have so many pictures to show. But guess, what I keep here are enough. It’s been long years since I went here, missing this place so much. It was full of ancient and very fascinating.
Lot of stores you can find there, a lot of souvenirs you can buy to bring back home.
Stepping my foot at Malacca, gave the chill and the vibes regarding the golden day of Malacca. I welcome any sharing and comment about this place. Who knows, some of you have better experiences at Malacca.
I haven't read much about Malacca. I only remember what I learned in history class during school days. Looking at these pictures back, makes me want to read more.
I hope i can come here again,soon.
Thanks for reading.Regards.
Travel downtown- photography
Arts are wide. Arts show passion in an individual. Through it, love and interest of person stand out. It also a way of comforting to achieved calmness. It depends on the person what art they want to choose, according to their interest. Not everyone have the same interest.
Photography is one kind of the arts. I love photography as much as I love sketching. Taking pictures is fun, it's satisfying to be able to capture the scenery of your favourites.
In my writing today, I want to share a few shots I took back then, here in my place, my downtown. My downtown- Kudat
1) Pantai Kelambu Kudat
2) Pantai Teronkongan Kudat
I never travel overseas, I only explored places in my country for time being. I had thought about it, God willing, I may be able to visit another country as well.
Today writing, I will share one of the beautiful scenery of these two places I mentioned above. I won't explain much about the places. Some day, I will want to give a detailed explanation regarding the places. It is quite hard to find the details regarding these places because of the lack of articles written. But of course, many tourists have been here too.
I hope, whoever reading will love the photos I took.
Travelling with your favourites persons are the best. Having my family during my travel days is amazing, they are my favourites persons. The above picture showed the appearance of Pantai Kelambu during raining. We get excited to play along with the sand and the water even though it's raining. Fortunately, nobody seems unwell with a fever the next morning.
My brother and her daughter asked me to take picture of them. I told them to just run and jump playfully. So, this was the result. There are several shots of them, but I love this the most.
I missed these place very much. Will visit here again once the pandemic over. Looking forward to another bonding time with my family.
Thanks for reading.Regards.
Long-Distance Relationship
When we are living miles away from our partner, obviously it is called a long-distance relationship. Whether you are married or not, it was a challenging relationship to sort out. It get tougher in marriage life. Some couple may strong enough to get through it and some may not. Of course, it wasn't an easy task to do.
Some people may advise you, not to get involved in a long-distance relationship so that you won't get heartbroken. Most people said long-distance relationship won't last long. They believe it gave more disadvantages than advantages.
I have been in a long-distance relationship for 6 years now. I wished, my advice can help those in the same boat as mine.
Most of all, to make it easier to handle, put your trust in your partner. Trust is everything, in another way around, the other must able to stay loyal. Two basic and important thing, trust and be loyal to each other. Otherwise, whatever our partner says or explains, we will always have doubts. Thus, we tend to question and argue with every issue. Regardless even it just a simple matter.
Times play an important role too. Do spend time well with your partner: messages, calls and video calls are the sources that will connect you with your partner. Therefore, pay attention to how much you contact your partner through media. Leave a quick message as I love you, take care or safe home, those are always precious words which make them happy.
Make a time to talk about your relationship, get to know each other better. Be more open to each other, tell what you like and dislikes. Simple talk can give clarity about what each other feel and solve misunderstanding too.
It's normal for the spouse to doubt the care when we aren't with them much. Loneliness may be developed in them. So, don't make your partner feel alone and fill their days with a smile. Give support, ask them about their day. Good things to know when your partner alert about yourself and always be there when in need.
While common relationships get to celebrate special days by hanging out or partying together, other ways can be done by a couple with a long-distance relationship. Have some extra effort, by shipping gift for your partner during special days. Often, it can be much more worth compared to others.
Whatever advice be given to you, I believe that it always depends on what the couple think of each other. Mindset can change everything, either in a good or bad way. However, arguments will still exist no matter what, but we should learn to forgive each other.
Well, I still personally think that the above factors I mentioned can affect the well being of a long-distance relationship. In a positive aspect, when we committed to the long-distance relationship better, it was the most beautiful relationship ever!
What is your mind? What do you think? Tell me about it!
Thanks for reading. Regards.
Childhood
Childhood: a milestone of life with playing moments, the study takes place and a life in full dependency with parents.
Childhood supposed to be one of the best moments, fill with laughter and happiness. Whatever our expectations might be, it always different for every each of us. Every each of us has a different story to tell.
Here are my two cents: because children still growing, basically they need support from parents/family. Children need guidance, their emotions are much more stable with guidance. It allowed them to learn how to sort their feelings better. It adds to their confidence too. However, there are saying that people matured with experiences and not with ages. This means, it just our choice to see how we want it to be. It will be a part of life that moulding us into what we will become someday. However, can't be denied that some circumstance can't be avoided.
Not everyone has beautiful moments, some may struggle with family's issues in where suppress life to the ground. Another story content with luck and blessings.
Mine got both. But more struggles with financial and parental issues. I got myself a good circle of friends. I played with friends like our family didn't have any. I saw those finances struggling thus I study hard, just to dream of a better life ahead. Even though I lacked stationary to school, but I still love to go to school, I am eager to go to school to study.
I am good at study, always excelled in class. My friends admired me because of my academic, I got my school attention too due to it. Nobody knows despite the glow, I kept quite a struggles behind.
No matter how hard those days back then, I kept what makes me smile today, but of course, I will never forget the hardships. Both gave me a wonderful day, I treasured them my whole life.
That how I chose what I want it to be.
Today, I succeed to achieve what I need, it allowed me to provide my parents and myself way better. Plus, I still can share my fortune with those who can't afford it. I am blessed.
My childhood had taught me a lot, I choose to make it my stepping stone for the future. Some people may not able to think the same, some lost in thought that drowned them in depression.
I prayed all of us had the courage and strength to get through it. I hope, as parents and also as a society, we will learn to guide and provide what best for our children better. God blessed.
Thank you for reading. Regards.
Never-ending Longing
Family? What exactly comes into your mind when you hear it? As for me, I think about my parents. Parents who brought me to this world and watched me grow into who I am today.
Then, I think about my sisters and brothers, my nieces and nephews, my grandfather and grandmother and everyone related to me by blood. I guess, that what you thought about too right?
I prayed for every family, may life bring you happiness abundantly.
Everyday, we prayed and wished, we will be given a good day instead of a rough day. But, we must agreed someday may turn out to be a rough day.
Not everyday is good day, not everyday is a sunny day.
The same thing applied to family matters. Sometimes, we argued, blaming each other like we won't care anymore. But well, at the end of the day we make up like nothing happened.
Year 2021, in February and March, I lost two of my family's members respectively. It breaks my heart that it's still hurt until now.
While dealing with the griefs, despite the pandemic season, we gathered together in tears rather than laughter.
During the trials and tough times, we put our strength together as a whole. Things are much more complicated and didn't easy to settle due to the pandemic, everything take time.
There times when we regretted with things we haven't done together. We talked about how we wished we can spend more time with them.
We somehow blamed ourselves for not care enough of them. As times goes by, we learned to accept the fact that our big brother and nephew are now gone, and that they safe in the hand of the Creator.
Their moments, gave valuable lessons to our family. The good thing was, we bonded stronger to each other more than ever.
The only thing was that, we are left in a longing that will never end.
Remember, there will be unexpected things that happen in life, therefore, love each other and filled it with a beautiful moments. Forgive more.
Bittersweet is part of life, be courageous.
Wished all of us blessings. Regards.
Erza: my self introduction
Hello, hi? Glad to meet the community here. My name is Erza, I am new here. I found this platform interesting in its way,i guess I will be able to share journey of my life and thoughts about this life. I would like to read about other writers on this platform too.
Here a little sharing about myself. I am a lady who loves to sketch/draw, preferred coffee, and In love with nature and photography.
I used to spend my time sketching and drawing portraits during my teen's life. Living life into adolescence made life became hectic that I couldn't spend more time on it any more. But well, I still working on it whenever I am free. Portrait, in my point of view is an emotional art other than the need of having skills and techniques. You need to put all of your emotions and passion into it then you can have a satisfying result. Later, at the end of my self-introduction, I will show one of my portrait sketches.
I love nature, and I love taking pictures of it. Most of my taken photos were about the sun, beach, sea and rain. Beach were my favourite places, and it always became my choice whenever we held a family gathering. I love how the place and scenery soothed my mind and gave calm to the soul. What a majestic creation of God. Rains somehow brought me down memory lane. It reminds me of teary happiness.
Talk about spending quality time, bonding time with family is a must.
I love my family, of course, which each of us will do, I love spending time with my family, seldom with my friends. Well, the family came first right? Quality time with family is the best, they are sure happy pills. Spending time with them makes me happy.
However, it doesn't mean that I would mind having a moment with friends.
Friends are precious too. They filled every bittersweet in our life, true friends warmed our heart, false friends gave us a lessons.
After all, we should spend our time as much as we can with the one we loves. Life is short and you will never know how much time we have to spend with each other.
Above is my portrait sketching.This is my pretty sister in law.I hope everyone enjoy reading my introduction.Below is another bonus, picture of the majestic nature I took by my own.
Have a cup of coffee, and enjoy. Thank you for reading.😊
@Erza
