@Enaj
Running Away Hi everyone, welcome back here in readcash. I've been out for so looooooooooooooooooooooooong because you know I lost my habit in writing. I was very busy my thoughts are preoccupied with the things around me but I came to realized that nothing has change with my life three years ago.
So,here I am now reflecting myself as if I am starting all over again. In past years I don't have any direction with my life like I just think that I just wanna ride with the flow in life but with that as days, months and even years passes by i am slowly realizing and finding myself again. It's really regretful and heartbreaking as I look back what I have done with myself. I've lowered my standards, I've sacrificed my peace, i betrayed myself by changing who I am. I see that myself struggled so much before. I ignored some of the people that goes on my way. I followed the betrayal I made with myself.
***And then here I am now regretting with everything I had gone through in the past years.***
And why I entitled this as "*running away"* because right now I am in a stage where I am hurriedly picking up the lessons I have learned as well as the realizations as if i am a child who is quickly picking and keeping his\her toys because his\her mother is on the way. It is true that betrayal has an end and this is it this time. I found already the courage to run away, to leave of the place that suffocates me. I am now escaping and realizing that I want to go home to the place where I was been born to the place where I'd dream a lot.
I've come to far already upon realizing and that's what makes me regretful. I've lost who I am. I am in a pace where I am questioning my worth , I've lost my confidence and even my faith. I've lowered my self-esteem and i am drowning myself with undesirable thoughts.
I forgot how an empowered woman I was before and here I am right now I am following this little light that I see within.
I will be using the strength that I am still building for now and I am thankful at least I found a little courage to run away for my comfort and peace. ***Believe that one day you will be fine, totally healed and peaceful.***
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Wow it's been 11 months since you last posted anything, honestly you're welcome back. I hadn't entered the platform for a while, I was more active on noisecash but since it's gone, I only have to enter this main platform again. I hope you achieve your life goals and it's never too late to start over!
Hi, thanks for visiting and welcoming me back, yes thank you for the best wishes me too is recovering from the disappointment from the past... 😍