Have you ever tried laying in your bed, can't sleep, wide awake and think of what's the purpose we exist?You know just pause for a moment and thinking what was done right that day. I have always thought why can't things doesn't go in our way.
I am 24 years old and I am still in the process of reaching my goal. I work to achieve it but I can say that I am not yet half way there infact I am way down compared to my peers with same age as I am. I could not deny that I envy them for what they are now. Some had their individual businesses some are happily married and some are just successful their own way. I could not help but to compare myself to them. I mean I have my stable job but it's enough to cover bills and for everyday expenses. The struggle is really everyday and you strive hard each to overcome a day. Nothing's more harder when some friend will check on you to see how you're doing and of course you will say you're doing good because that's the normal response. But you cannot say it out loud that you're not. You really are not. This is the reality of life,you are not okay always which hits me harder that it's okay not to be okay sometimes, because you're human and to those things that you wanted so hard time will come that it will fall into place and you will get what you deserved. There are still times that I feel empty and discouraged but that's okay, everytime I felt it I always pray and seek for guidance for that is the best weapon we have. And there I can regain my strength and make sure that I stood straight again.
I know that we have our own insecurities in life but it's not just you,infact we all do. I have my insecurity too and later on I was able to embrace it because you know that's part of you. It won't make you less as a person. I know that you don't want it,well everybody does but what can we do it's already there and acceptance is only the key so that we can move forward. And so for me, I may have not reach my goal yet but this give me the courage and inspiration to be better and that God prepares something bigger ahead of me.
How about you? I want to hear your thoughts about this too.