Manifesting To Live My European Dream

Life Update Nobody Asked For:

Europe is now just within my reach because I have already started processing my documents as I've decided to study for my Master's degree in Poland. I hired an agency for this and I've already paid the initial payment of 40,000 pesos to help me process everything, including the Visa.

However, an opportunity in the Netherlands opened up for me, which was actually the first option that I sought for so I can live my European dream. I also paid an agency 2,040 pesos to help me with the process.

Now, I'm in a dilemma in choosing which one to pursue.

Should I continue going to Poland and be an international student, but that means I will invest quite amount of money to get there (around 350,000 pesos more for the tuition and remaining fees, plus flight ticket) and the expenses when I'm already living there?

Or should I go to the Netherlands instead and be part of the cultural exchange program where I will have the chance to live with a foreign family, get free food and accommodation, and a monthly allowance of around 20,000 pesos per month in exchange of helping them with household chores and taking care of their children?

I really want to move abroad and I told myself that I'm going to live my EU dream this year by hook or by crook. But now I don't know what to do. But whatever I decide to do, I'm manifesting that I'm already living my EU dream this year.

I'm just writing it here because this is the only platform where I can freely talk about the things that stresses me. I have friends but I don't want to tell them about my plans of moving abroad yet.

Anyway, I'll be on a 2-week trip to Bohol starting on Tuesday and I hope this trip will help me clear my mind. 🥲