"I created drama for myself.
I didn't know she liked me, thought she was just clingy and I'm okay with clingy friends. Clingy friends are the best.
But she came around to my house and it all went south from there.
She was flirting with me. I realized it too late when her hand was on my thigh and her mouth on mine. I didn't mind, I haven't gotten laid in months. We had fun. We did it three times and the whole time I was under the impression that it was a one night stand. I explicitly said many times that I wasn't into relationship stuff (I have commitment issues the size of Mt Everest) and I told her this before she left to go home. Kind of jokingly too. Because she was a good friend and I know she knew this, it's impossible she did it. I advertised it constantly on every social media site ever. I have a therapist who I talk to about this. She knows this. I've been friends with her for years she KNOWS this.
She smiled before she hugged me and left, too. I thought we were ok.
But now she's acting like she never knew what she signed up for.
She's ignoring me. I miss her. She was a good friend. But she's ignoring me. I get that maybe I hurt her. I apologized. I really did. First, over chat (which she accepted halfheartedly), then face to face, when I saw her at the UP shopping centre a week after the incident. She wasn't happy. She hasn't spoken to me since.
I've told my friends this. They think I have feelings for her. I don't. I may have commitment issues, but I love my friends. And it hurts just as much to lose one.
I hate it when I lose them. Even more so when it's my fault.
I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix it."