Everyday I look at her, my heart is always grateful that I have her.
I never thought that being pregnat is that hard, I just heard that you will have those crazy cravings, those morning sickness and as time goes by you will feel some pain and may limit your normal routine.
I found out that I was pregnant, through my mother. It's been 3 days since I always felt dizzy every morning, I suddenly felt like vomitting and I love to sleep. Then one day my Mom ask me "are you pregnant?" and I was shock, cause I never thought that I am pregnant, so I said, "nah, I just feel lazy." But it bothers me, so I bought a 3 pregnancy test just to be sure, and all three says I am pregnant.
I was scared cause I don't know if my parents will be disappointed, but I am excited to become a mother. I took a picture and said it to my boyfriend saying, you will be a dad soon and he was very happy, it made me feel secure and confident to tell my parents because I know I ny boyfriend will support me in this journey.
I told my parents about it, and at first they are a bit disappointed because they want marriage before baby, but as time pass by they accept it whole heartedly.
Honestly it was a tough experienced for me, I found out I was 8 weeks pregnat that time, and I started to had bleeding mostly every week. I had to took some pills for the baby to be safe, I am not allowed to move to much, because it may cause me a loose my baby.
It was like that until I reach my 5th month of pregnancy, it was easier for me to walk around but my blood pressurr begun to precede 160 sometimes it rised up to 180 but I don't feel dizzy at all, still I took up some med to lower it down.
On my 36th week, I had asthma attack and I always felt like I can't breathe. It lasted for a couple of days, but I manage to help my self to get through it.
But one night I can't breathe, even how hard I tried to grasp some air, I just can't. I ask my boyfriend to bring me to the hospital brcause I can't breathe anymore, I feel nausea, I felt like I was about to faint. We ride the car, I open the wundow and stuck my head out to get some air, it was like 2 am that time and honestly I felt like I can't make it. I pray so hard, "please God just let me gave birth to her, and you can take me if you like, I just want to make sure she's alive."
We got to the hospital and they gave me oxygen, luckily I survived that night. I thought it will be all good, I was already set to have a CS because my OB says in my current situation I won't make it to a normal delivery, and then the worst is yet to come...
