This day is not good and its not bad. I woke up with a smile, confident and loving myself again, no worries, no overthink. I am super happy videoing myself and study.
After i ate breakfast someone sais that i am look like 'manang' or 'losyang' because of my clothes,i am wearing crop top and pajamas, i know that i am skinny but they still say harsh word upon my body, i am trying my best to gain weight cause i really wanted to have a healthy body, i am only 33 kilos and my waist is only 22inches. Sabi nila i am not sexy mapayat lang daw ako at muka nakong nanay dahil sa itsura ng pananamit ko, hindi lang iisang tao nagsasabi sakin niyan halos noon pa naririnig ko nayan meron pa yung nagpalaglag ka na ba hahaha. I know that i am ugly but please im trying my best to have a good body and face, i do love myself but unti unti nawawala yon dahil sa mga natatanggap ko, nahihiya nako lumabas, nahihiya nako magpicture, puro nalang muka pinapakita k osa picture at mas kinakabahan ako sa face to face class dahil alam ko na kas dadami yung magpupunan ng itsura ko.
I really need to love myself more, kung di man ako tanggapin ng lahat atlease tanggap ko sarili ko.
