They keep coming back, nightmares that I had tried all my best to run from😔. Every morning I wake up to a full eyes ... I had been crying in my dreams and eventually in real life. It happened just after my 10th birthday and had since locked me into an emotional state that I can't bring myself out from.... I needed someone to talk to but my fears of being rejected had given me a mute lips.... And bleeding eyes especially at night when I'm alone and feeling lonely... It's a lonely world and my dreams just keeps reminding me.. It was just some month's after I had lost my parents to a ghastly motor accident. Being the only child of my late parents I was moved to stay with a married aunty. Aunty Joy was my dads immediate younger sister. at first she was very loving and kind but just as immediate as I could think everything changed....... Life became worse and unbearable...she withdrew me from school and sent me to hawk at a neighboring Market.. You would wonder why everything changed.
Her husband Uncle Tim had been having Canal knowledge of me.... It hurts so much and when I remember the pains each thrust came with I cant just help but cry.... I had reported it to her but she clearly called me a liar and a witch that came to destroy her marriage even saying hurting words like "maybe you're the one tthat killed your parents" How could I have possibly killed the people that have given me so much peace and love.... She threw me out years after....a once happy girl was now living in the streets... The one time I tried being open I was judged this way I had to live with the mentality that no one cares after all I'll rather keep things to myself than saying it out.. But now I wanna be free... I want to be that happy girl again but the nightmares keeps coming