I, myself have a lot of insecurities. For instance, my face, the way I speak, and of course my body. I started to get conscious of it when I was in junior highschool, I studied in a Private school, it was actually famous so there are a lots of pretty girls. I admit that I was pretty jealous of them and I started thinking that "why are they so pretty?" "I thought that God created us as equal?" "why do they have that kind of body and I don't?" every clothes that I wear I got pretty conscious and I was not confident. I didn't participate in any sports in my school because it keep thinking that "what if I look stupid?". If you're curious on what I look like in junior high school I will show it to you guys..
That's how I looked like when I was in junior highschool. I like wearing tshirts, skirts, and pants. I tried to fit in into the new trend of clothes. But then I realised that this is not my style so I switch to being boyish. I bought a rubber shoes for men, and started wearing a cap.
I was really bad when it comes to choosing clothes, but in 2020 I started gaining some new friends and they are just there and keep encouraging me to wear that, wear this. My mother also support me in many ways she can so I started gaining some confidence and started to love myself more. I looked at myself in the mirror and said "it's time for your glow up" I did my best to loose weight and I was actually pretty satisfied of all my hard work. I started to choose some clothes that is out of my comfort zone, I didn't go out so that my skin can be a little bit whiter.
But then since the COVID outbreak I started gaining weight again but you know what? I didn't change my style, I still wear croptops, shorts, jeans, and skirts. I can see people staring me and judging me with their eyes and I can hear them whispering that "she looks like winny the pooh" "she's fat, why is she wearing that?" but I ignored it all. I gained confidence and I will not let anyone take that away from me. This is me now, confidently taking selfies and pictures.
The me in the past and the me now looks so different if you ask me, lol.
This article is to encourage you to love yourself more, have confidence and don't mind the people who judge you because you know yourself better than anyone else. You can change yourself in the outside, but don't change the 'you' in the inside. HAVE A NICE DAY/NIGHT! BYE!
Ay mamsh so pretty parin! Walang pooh pooh, trip mo magcroptop e. I was amazed at how you exerted effort to chaaange :)) I am glad you realized your beauty because I knew that feeling of being not so kagandahan I guess? But it was all in confidence :)) I loved how you ignored them and flaunt your awesome bodice. Keep slaying mamsh 😍💛