What is preventing you from the profession you want to be?

What is stopping us from doing what we want to be?

Since when I was in high school I really dreamed of becoming a policeman because I want to be able to protect my families against bad people. I just dreamed of becoming a policeman, I can't understand even as a child when I see them, I admire them because they are the ones who protect us from all the bad people.

And it became a dream for me because when I was a child I was a sign of how much they oppressed my parents, my dad was working on the road and they talked about how much they earn because their job as DPWH is not easy. I saw how hard father worked to provide for our daily needs, even though he had no food and no money to pocket, he still went to work early so that their boss would not scold him. It was also about five months before their contract ended, of course papa was very excited to get the salary because it was for my twin and me because our birthday is coming up we are very happy on the day in the village because finally we will have our birthday ready at one time, and Father left the house early to get their salary and we just waited at home because we were relying on the iras there a lot of what he bought Father to prepare for the day my twins and I. When he arrived we immediately ran to him outside because of course we thought he had already bought something, instead of happy or smiling we saw Father replaced by an unpaintable face with so much sadness or annoyance he felt, he tried to work for more ready for our birthday but he didn't get even a peso I asked him why father was sad he just told us

Father:: "I'm sorry children, I know I promised to buy a cake for your birthday but papa failed ehh so please forgive me son the money we were supposed to pay was stolen so I'm sorry children if I don't fulfill that right now your dream is ready.

My twins: It's ok papa even if we don't have a birthday cake and we only have noodles and sweet potatoes, it's ok for us as long as you're with us, even if no one is ready, it's ok as long as we're just together.

Father: (hes crying out loud) with so much shame and pity for us.

So that's where I started to pursue my dreams of becoming a policeman because I felt so sorry for my father that day because he did everything for us and for us to have ready for our birthday but he failed. He failed in the dream he wanted for us, he worked hard, he almost didn't care to take care of himself, he could only get to work early but that's all he got, he didn't receive the salary he deserved. Because we are poor, they can deceive us and trample on us and don't care how we feel. I dreamed that when I became a policeman I would arrest and imprison bad people because there is nothing that can help or contribute to society.

So I studied hard so that I could fulfill all my dreams of becoming a police officer one day, until I could finish high school much to my parents' satisfaction and joy because my twin and I finally went to college. While we were eating, my parents asked me what course I would take in college and then I replied "I want to be a police officer to protect you from abusive people" but my father immediately replied that the profession is good but no I'll let you take that. We understand that you want us to be protected, but we prefer to be able to protect you, so it's better that you just take another course as long as it's not the police because it's very dangerous.

Even though I really want to be a policeman I can't do anything because I don't want to insist on things my family doesn't like, I know I should follow what I want more and not what they want but because I love them I respect them shouldn't police the course if I take because I have a gun so I thought of becoming a teacher because I only hold a ballpen and paper and it will be more fun for the family especially with my parents I understand them because they just want to protect me.And in fact, it's easier for me to give up the police course because I'm afraid that I might not be able to do it, especially in training, because police training is not random, so I just chose a course that I know is more worthy of me.

How do you find out what is holding you back?

I do not regret that I shifted the education course because I felt that I was also happy here and I had many students who could be helped to learn and share my knowledge. I did not continue the policing course but because maybe first...

*Inability to Take Action.

*Fear of Being Found Out.

*Feeling Unworthy.

*Lack of Confidence.

*risk anything.

*Fear of Failure. Fear of failure holds you back because when you're afraid to fail, you're afraid to

Everything is happening for a reason. I am still studying education to become a good teacher one day. And I believe that our dream or profession in life is to be the bridge for us to be happy in life.

#Thank you/for/reading!