When I was in elementary school, my twins and I were always insulted and tempted, we didn't know why they were like that, we became good friends but when we didn't do something we were beaten or stoned. There is a mastermind in my classmate Jade, I don't know why he wants us he wants to make us slaves but because we are afraid of him we just agree to be hurt and insulted. He orders us to bring his bag and when the teacher orders him to do something, my twin asks us to do it, but because we are afraid of being hurt again, we just do everything he wants. We want to complain to our parents but what can they do, they just think that fights are just kids and it is not my parents' habit to fight when we are oppressed.
Sometimes when we don't notice the lice are still on our heads, sometimes we are sprinkled with sand but all my twin and I did was to run and go home crying. Our brothers and sisters noticed that I was crying at those times but I said that my stomach hurt but the truth is that I was crying because the people around us didn't accept us. There isn't a day that my boss doesn't come home without crying, how many times have I tried to commit suicide because I'm tired of life sometimes I take a knife and point it at my stomach sometimes I take a knife to commit suicide but mama caught me with a rope and suddenly he asked me "what is that rope for but you took it from your dad's things" I was very nervous during the village hours but even though I really wanted my tears to fall because of the pain and hardship I replied to mama calmly I said I wanted our neighbor will borrow. So mama left after I answered. I would have continued with the crib but I saw papa who had just arrived, I saw his face that was very tired from work, when I saw him I cried again because they are papa even though they are very tired and it is difficult to keep us alive 8 no siblings they fought for we had a better life, they worked hard to support us and provide for our education and then I committed suicide. Just because the people around me don't accept me, just because their insults are so painful.
It was there that I realized that my family is important, I need them in my life, I should not die or disappear from this world because I want to repay all their suffering. I want to show them that I am as strong as they are that I will not give up the challenge. of life even though there are many trials I will face. I thought if I give up, if I have to take my life, I should thank God because I was given the chance to see how beautiful the world is. From then on, I never thought of hurting myself because I can escape the resentments that my twin and I experienced but my parents will suffer from pain and bereavement, things that I never wanted to happen to them. even if we go in without food and no lunch, it's okay for us as long as we can go to school, but I don't blame them for not giving us because we understand the hardships of life, our life was just a beak.
Even though my twin kept insulting us, we continued to study well and we were no longer affected, even though we were hurt, we did not show that we were weak when we came home, instead of crying, we just studied hard and did not play. to them so that we will not be reviled. Until we graduated from elementary school, we were very happy because finally we won't be classmates, they will go to another school in our area until grade 6, so we will continue our studies even if it takes more than an hour to walk before arriving at school. of high school, but we don't work even too far away because we want to graduate and help our family one day. The two of us were very happy in the first entrance because finally there was no one to insult us, but when we came to the room and saw our classmates we thought we would be accepted in full case we made a mistake, many more insulted us times 5 times the number of them almost the whole campus insulted and ridiculed us for our appearance because our clothes were so dark, thin, ugly and untidy. So more people criticize us, we used to go home again crying and hurting.
It hurts so much that other people can't help but criticize or accept what they see in people's outward appearance. Why do they choose to hurt and not care about the feelings of those they insult. Words they call me my twin, we look like horses, durasic, buffalo, goat, dog or whatever, my mother and I almost broke our hearts because we were in so much pain for 4 years we endured their insults, their pain and their teasing because in our outward appearance. Until we graduated from high school again, we both cursed that one day everyone who insulted, oppressed, teased us would also eat everything they said. If we are so ugly now that one day we will be beautiful like everyone else, they will also respect us and accept us fully, they will regret why we are insulted. Until our atw called that we would continue our senior high for only 2 years there, but my mother and I were very happy because finally we could see a tall building, we could take the elevator, we could take the escalator, Bus, taxi , and train and most of all we will be white and beautiful there. It was just a simple dream we had that we wanted to come true because we were the size of a farm and we had never experienced such things in our lives, so that's how much fun we both had. My sister called and decided that we would go to school there for two years and after two years we would go home again to continue college.
But even though we have such a big dream because we can finally go to Manila and still study, my twin and I asked that by this time our classmates would accept us and there would be no one to insult us at school. And then the first school year I was surprised because a lot of people were talking to us, and talking about the one I took Humanities and Social Sciences (HUMSS) while my twin took Technical Vocational and Livelihood (TVL). Yes! finally god heard our request to accept us and there was no one to insult us, in fact in our whole life of studying here we just felt that we are human that we are not considered animals or other than them, I feel that love of my classmates, when they see me they feel like I don't have a purse they give me food or whatever even though I really have a purse. I'm just stingy hahahaha but I'm not stingy because I'm saving the bag that my sister gives me to send to my parents because I have rice with me so I don't spend my money. And when I save a lot, I send it to them immediately so that they can also buy delicious food, because I know that in farm life there is at least one beak to eat.
Until my twin and I graduated from Senior High in Manila, because of our hard work, we both became cum laude and because of the entry of the pandemic, the graduation was held virtually. But we are still thankful to God because even though it is difficult to study and away from family we were able to fight two of my twins, until our parents sent us home to the farm because of great concern because many people are infected in the area where we are tenants in Manila. So for our safety we went home, and even though we were only there for two years, my mother and I both turned a little white and knew how to groom ourselves and we also knew how to dress or fit ourselves. When we went home, my twin and I swore that one day everyone who insulted us, everyone who insulted us will regret why they did that and they will also eat the hurtful things they told us. And we didn't make a mistake when we came home, almost all of the men who insulted us before and are flirting with us now, the others are apologizing, we made a mistake, they did that to us before, but instead of harboring anger, we forgave them and considered them friend.
Life is full of trials if you give up you lose, if you get tired rest wedge and when you have accumulated strength get up again and move on with life. Let's learn to forgive if God is able to forgive people, so, despite the fact that my twin and I have experienced the challenges of life, we are currently studying in 2nd college. He took a Bachelor in Science and Business Administration (BSBA). I took a Bachelor of Secondary Education (BSED). I am so thankful to God that despite the hardships we both went through we remained strong with each other until we finished school and one day helped the family.
"LEARN HOW TO FORGIVE AND SPREAD THE LOVE"
