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Journey To The Lowest Place On Earth July 30,2021 (Present Time) 3 days ago, I packed a bag with my phone, flashlight, some water and some sandwiches inside. Then I went to our backyard looking for a place to hide. I wanted to go somewhere else where no one is around. I grabbed a shovel and I start digging into the ground. I keep on digging the dirt until It reached to my waist. Keep digging deeper and deeper until you couldn’t see my face. I wanna be left alone for a while, feeling like I just wanna be where no one is around at the moment. As I dug down further, the light starts to get darker until black is the only color I could see. I couldn’t even see what is in front of me. After hours of digging, I started to worry of what it’s gonna be like down there. That is when I realized that I used to lived there. My stomach starts growling saying “hey! I’m hungry” I decided to take a rest for a while to eat what I only brought with me. I look up to see the lights are nowhere to be found, I felt safe. Then I starts to cry when I realized I couldn’t be save.
I wonder around, it was peacefully quiet. I’m loving this overwhelming feelings and I just couldn’t deny it. Vision starts to fade as I fell asleep caused from exhaustion. I woke up to see nothing. I grab my bag to get the flashlight and then check my phone, no signal. “Finally, I am completely alone”. Grab the shovel and continue dig. As it get lower and lower, it felt so hard to breathe. Like an oxygen has been taken away from me.
I hit a solid rock and I thought I reached the end. This is what it feels like to be at lowest place on earth. I haven’t really feeling myself and I just forcefully make myself feel fine. It was dark and It was cold down there but it was a perfect place to hide when I’m not feeling too well.
There are times that I vanished from everyone then suddenly came out of nowhere and I guess it is the right time to say this because you deserved my explanations. See, I really want to interact and connect with everyone but please understand that I have some issues. Yeah sure, I love to make friends and talk to everyone but I sometimes feel like I don’t belong or kinda feel like different at times, I apologize. It’s not you, it’s me. LOL Just to clarify, I’m okay, I’m doing well and I am happy. You don’t have to worry since I’ve been like this for years and it was not surprising anymore. Thank you for sticking with me through hard times and still support me in here. I’m sorry if I’m like this but I promise you, I’m trying my best.
Before publishing this Article, I tried to use a plagiarism checker to check if maybe someone had the same idea as me and I was too afraid to get plagiarized. Here is the result:
Phew... thankfully! End...
19 comments
This is so sad. There were times talaga na we wanted to be alone. Anyways, me also, before I publish my work, I checked it first on Plagiarism detector..mahirap na.😊
True baka may kapareha tayong idea at ma plagiarized ka pa 😅
I have been like this in the past. If you ever feel like this again, seek a person reliable to talk to, or write it all down. Don't carry all the weight, it will bury you more and drown you in sorrows. If you have no one to talk to, just connect with me on Telegram.
Aww 🥰 thank you so much for this 🥺🤧
Actually meron akong community na Coping With Depression. Matagal na din aking di nakakagalaw dun. Bubuhayin ko pa siya ngayon.
Wow, how i wish i could write that good too,. Keep fighting sis, everyone has always a silent and cold war facing deep inside of us that keeps on buzzing to our ears.! Keep the grind low and steady 😉💚👍
Thanks sis 🙏🏻 We should keep fighting and keep moving forward lang 💪🏻 Laban kahit minsan ganyan yung nararamdaman
Oo, natural lang talaga na may mga pagkakataong malulugmok tayo, ang importante alam matin kung saan tayo babangon muli sis.,!
After reading this, it makes me feel so sad because My life describes just like in the story 🥲
Thank youu pala 🤧♥️ Sometimes we feel down and wanted to be alone and peace, and then take a little bit of rest. need lang natin magpanhinga. ♥️
It really describes everything that I just felt and I knew that it was going to be fine. Keep fighting!
Thank you so much @iamcream, I will keep fighting, after all that’s the only thing we could do.
I was about to ask if you are okay because I was worried but you said you are okay so I am less worried. You said you have been like that for a long time and I want to ask is there any reason for being that way? Like could it be that something happened in your past or when you were younger?
Thanks for your concern, I’m a product of a broken family and I was abused when I was a kid.
Oh now I understand. So sorry about that dear
I'm having an anxiety attack just reading this. I don't like dirt tight space and being buried alive. But i like this one. ;)
I also have this kind of thought na hindi naman ako depress or ano pero mas gusto kong mag isa, malayo sa ingay or music lang talaga ang maririnig. Basta ang hirap edescribe ee, may time lang talaga na ganon pero di naman ako malungkot. Ikaw ata kasi ang dami mong iniisip kaya... Tsk. And, I'm nor friendly din sa personal, mahiyain ako, dito lang sa Virtual worls kumakapal ang mukha ko.
Everything will be fine soon.
I’m pretty sure of it.