@Coffee-and-books 28 July 2021

Pop that bottle up!

Emotions are not meant to be hidden and bottled-up, as there will be a time when it will just burst and all your held up emotions will come gushing out. I wrote this article hoping to share my experience on how bottling up my emotions led to a negative situation.

Emotions when bottled up are like waves in the ocean waiting to rage upon. It's like all the pent-up emotions within you burst in a single go - and it is not a pleasant thing. At all! On my case, I tend to hide my emotions, and not showing other people what I really feel. I'll say that I'm happy, when inside I am not. Or, when asked if i'm alright, i'll say that everythings great when in fact, its not. How did bottling up my emotions led to a negative situation? Well, its when all negative feeling that I had were directed towards someone rather close to me, like all the nasty emotions just burst out - and it led to a really serious conflict. That person kept on asking me if it's okay or if I really mean it when I say its fine, and I totally just blew up! I said some mean and hurtful things to her and she stood there with her mouth open - clearly in shock- and asked me if what is wrong with me, why did I get mad? I was also shocked in that moment but all I can think about was how she wasn't able to understand me. We did not talk with each other for a while since then, until one day, I realized that it was my mistake. That I shouldn't had let my emotions get the better of me. I called her and said I am really sorry for what happened and that I didnt know what has gotten into me to lash out to her like that. Fortunately, she accepted my apology and told me that I can talk to her and be honest with her - and that she will always be willing to listen.

What I learned from my own experience, is that it is not good to keep your emotions bottled-up and sealed within you, as there will be a time when your emotions will break that very own bottle that is keeping it sealed, and you may hurt someone dear to you if that ever happens.