What's on my mind?

Good day everyone, maybe your confused why I stopped being active here on read.cash. Honestly, I stopped for almost a week because of a stupid reason. I feel like I'm not skilled writer hahaha, as you noticed for almost 2 weeks, random rewarder rarely visit my article. I don't know why, I tried my best to write a good article, I participate in community then reading someone article and leaving a good comment on it. Oh yeah, I know you'll say just wait maybe rusty is not active for you right now, there is time for you to shine just wait for it. I want to believe this one but sometimes I feel like this won't never happen because I'm a n **b writer hahaha. Sadboi na naman si ako.

Just joking, (sigh) honestly I have something to buy if I gain enough money from blogging on this site. I need more than 20 dollars to buy arduino kit which required by our professor. I'm saving real money but its not enough that's why I decide to blog more on this site to earn enough money to buy arduino, hopefully, I earned enough money but the problem is I noticed that rusty rarely visit my articles and it loss my courage to write more articles. I know for some people writing is fun because they earned a lot but not for me, I know you'll say writing here on this site is not about money but to develope writing skills but you can't abide the fact that sometimes you'll lose courage if you feel like someone doesn't appreciate your work.

I think lot of things why rusty didn't visit my articles, sometimes I think that maybe its not my right time or maybe I made lots of account on previous months that leads to less tips. Also, I think that its my destiny to stop earning if I reached 1 month already, you know what this happened to me many times, after 1 month of writing and engaging, my account will moved into spam or never yet any tips again. It is the reason why I made lots of accounts because my previous account got spammed. Due to this event, I decide to stop writing, I tried not to be active on this site to for a week to experiment if there's a problem because I read that it need weeks before the tips will return. Now I'm back, if its still not working then I will decide not to write any more, maybe there's something more important to do. Oh for almost a week in stopping writing, I decide to open my surf account on mobile legends, when I opened it, my rank dropped into master 1 because the season was ended. I enjoyed playing my surf account then I bought the new hero gloo, he was so cute for me especially he's a tank type.

I also, played rank games and it is easy for me to move up into higher tier because on my main account I'm already mythic. Sometimes I have toxic teammates that lead to defeat, I decide to become core and hypercarry so that I can manage the game into victory but sometimes I can't avoid teammates with lowskill levels and it makes me irritated. The good side of this tier is I met my duo which is in grandmaster league, she is a girl maybebetween 14-16 years old, we always play together if she is online. Now we reached epic rank but I will become legend once I win one more time. I also played with my ex girlfriend, she was 15 years old right now and she was good in playing mage heroes, I invited here and he thought that im her classmates but when I asked who is nel she said she didn't knew that I'm not his classmate but she knew who I am after that. I thought that she will ignore me and she will never play to me anymore but surprisingly she accepted my invites and played together.

Ok let's back on my main topic, so I'm back here on read.cash, I hope the curse for me stopped already because I lose hope a week ago. I tried to write not too good because I think I deal too much attention on definition of words and using difficult words to make my article unreadable. Oh BTW I have lot things to do but I never do an action about it hahaha, im too lazy right now maybe I'll do it if the spirit of kasipagan will enter on my body. I also do it one by one and yesterday I start my PE, we jog at heritage then do my fitness exercises. Its hard for me to jog because I'm very thin, maybe some people think that there's a stick running on road hahaha. Hopefully, I do all fitness exercise and successfully we got home before curfew because once you've caught by police or barangay you'll be sent directly to police station then do a community chores and need to sundo sundo by relatives.