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I must confess
I am a bad lover
And still nursing a fever of paranoia
That's why
My heart has a habit
Of shape shifting into a rabbit each time it smells love
My body too is an ice block sometimes
So expect cold hugs on equally cold nights
To the girl who will love me someday
I'm bad at flattery
My best friend says I should learn how to lie
For this I keep reharsing phrases like
"I'm fine"
"I'm Ok"
Just to be perfect when the time comes
I keep memories on my lips
That's why I'm a sucker for kisses
I hide a lot in my skin
I'm shy
I like talking with the sky
Because it's eyes
Are the only ones that make me feel small
In a good way
To the girl who will love me someday
I won't promise to love you back
Because part of my heart belongs to poetry
Neither will I promise to hold the sky for you
It's full of stars and planets
And that's too heavy for my arms
But I promise to do this
I'll paint you in beautiful metaphors
Of sunsets and rainbows
On days you become insecure
About your stretch marks
Because there's nothing poetry can't fix
Ask my heart
To the girl who will love me someday
I suck in relationships
The only one I've had long enough is with my bed
The rest lasted long enough
To bless me with scars and bruises
I think that's why I don't fear blood anymore
To the girl who will love me someday
I'll hurt you just enough
To make you pay for not coming around in time when I needed
A heart to trust
For lying in the arms of other men when wind slept in mine
I just hope you don't leave
The first time I'll tell you genuinely
That 'I love you'
I'll be drunk
Because my walls always crumble down
When I'm tipsy
I'll be scared to look in your eyes
Because the face staring back will be mine
And I'm worried of seeing that face in love
And vulnerable
Able to break, hurt, blush
And all other things love does to strong faces
The day I say I love you
Will mean I'm ready to watch you break me again
And thus help me build my walls back again
That I'm ready to let you be the only thing
Keeping me in sane in a world full of sharks
To the girl who will love me someday
I don't know your name
But I've seen your face a lot in my dreams
I know you're somewhere in the he world
But I don't know where we'll meet
But I hope when I do
You wont friend zone me
Because I'll be the boy you will love someday
And to me you'll be the girl I hope to love last.