This is Me!

I always been called crazy, weird, and alien. Back when I was in highschool, I was an outcast or a loner. I could feel that nobody wants to be friends with me. So,I try very hard to adjust to my environment in order to fit in. I try making friends and I manage to have some somehow. But, still they're distant.

I don't really know why. Is it because I can't tag along with them anywhere? Well, that's because I'm busy running errands when I'm off from school. Is it because I'm not smarter like them? Yeah, sorry I'm just an average person. Is it because I'm poor? Sorry, I have to be a vendor's niece. If we can't sell, we can't eat. I can't really be in the same level with them.

I'm afraid to be with them when they're roaming around the mall. Like what would they say to my clothes or my outfit overall. What would they buy? I can't afford anything and in fact, I'm saving. I can't even do some of my projects because I don't have enough money to buy some materials or buy a load for internet data so I can research my assignments.

It is kind of depressing. So, I started to put my headphones and ignore the world. From then, I'm always alone. I don't care about them anymore. I started to listen to rock and metal music. It also make my feelings hard as a rock and the sadness makes it cold.

Atleast, I'm not hurting anymore, right? But, in the end I started to love myself because I know nobody will. I also get tired of always adjusting to people. I just let the real me comes out and stop thinking other people's comments. I found a few friends who accepts me and totally likes to be with me.