My feet suddenly just felt something cold crawling on feet, until it ran through my whole body. I could hear the scream of crickets in the field. The scent of the nimb tree’s flowers soothed my dying soul. I checked out the time, and the screen of my phone reminded me that it’s already 9:45 in the evening. I was just having a deep conversation with random friends through messenger, when I saw her. Yes, I saw the lady in white silk dress. She used to roam around in the late night specifically at this juncture. She’s the lady who always stops over and used to take a pause in front of our gate that is made up of bamboo. A mute lady who has an unknown identity. What made me amused is that I was the only one who could see her.
With a torn heart, I dared myself to entertain this weird lady. No one was here except for this lady and I. I opened the gate and started the bottle of buts and what ifs. “I know that you wouldn’t help me to cure the wound inside me but I just want you to know that at this juncture, let me share to you this one.” She just looked at me. “I had this someone who has a soul like A’s in the movie ‘Every day’ who could wake up each day with different people. I’ll just hide that someone with a name ‘Eiy’. Unexpectedly, I fell in love with Eiy. And I was the happiest, and the strongest warrior as Achilles. I fought for my love even if the only weapon that I had was my love for him. I was in a battlefield standing in front of battalion of soldiers with the same faces, showing the reflection of Eiy’s long lost love. Eiy was never beside me. Coward and anxious I’ve stood for it, I never back down. I fought and tried to defeat rivals even if I was obviously a loser. Winning this kind of battle was never easy. Without any gear or shield, I had 23 stabs in my back and my whole skin was peeled off due to my fire-breathing opponent. She’s invincible, unbeatable. A well-dressed woman wearing abundance of love, with a crown of beauty and wealth. She had a wand of patience, perseverance, dignity, and faithfulness. She had worn a cape of selflessness and bravery, and a sword of honor. I tried to win him back, but she’s too strong to be defeated. Looking at Eiy made me weak for I could see him dying just because of her. Slashing off my neck, I lost my strength, as the crowd watched me dying. I wasn’t able to hold his hand and hug him so tight, kiss him passionately until my last utterance, until embracing the spotlight towards life after death. Breaking up with my own soul, told me that after I close my eyes and cut my thread of life, Eiy had whispered in my ears telling that ‘I’m sorry. I love you but I love her more. She’s still here. Good bye.’ Then left my dead body in the middle of nowhere where the only witness was the rising sun.”
The lady just asked me, “Do you still love Eiy?”
“Yes, I do. But…”
“But?”
“I am done. I am so tired and too weak to pursue him. I know that I am and will never be enough for him. ”
The lady’s eyes welled up tears, tried to have my hand and wrapped her arms around me. In just a blink of an eye, she disappeared.