My eyes were bursting out of tears brought by one of the best Japanese films when I’ve received a message from a close friend asking me hang out with her together with her boyfriend. Without hesitation, I replied her ‘yes.’
It was already five in the afternoon when we went out. While waiting for a ride, this friend of mine was sharing a glimpse of her treasured moments with her only love. To dissolve a bit of awkwardness, I grabbed my phone and browse hidden photographs of yours. I wish I was with you. The moment I told you “I miss you” in silence was the time when she accidentally called me “Love”. And it was so strange that the voice that I’ve heard was not hers, it’s yours. I looked down the hide my adrenaline rash, slowly took a look at her surprisingly, then a bit of smile and laughed. It was their endearment. An endearment that could only bring me goose bumps. The only endearment that could paint rosy tint on my cheeks. And it’s the only endearment that I could only hear from you. I wish it only came from you.
Chasing after gentle wind as its whisper lingered in my ears. A moment of silence persuaded me to read what’s in the mind of my friend. Just simply caught her smile. And it was the only time that I saw that kind of smile of hers. She’s grown up, because, indeed, she’s finally found her almost perfect man, her ‘the one’. And I’m so happy to see her glow right now and I know that she deserves more than what she has.
And yes, we’ve finally reached the place. Fresh water fishes living in ponds, man-made forest, wild grasses surround by moist, and muddy trails towards the seashore. Sea breeze were hypnotizing us. Calm sea, crystal clear and cold water, with a perfect capture of sunset. Coarse white sand between toes. This scenario only reminded me of you. I have no idea how much you love the calmest sea and a sunset. A hold so tight and a kiss on forehead to end a long tiring day. Scent is really significant to me especially when it comes to you. All of a sudden, a perfume of an unknown creature had exploded. My friend pinched my right arm as a signal that her boyfriend was here. Ah, so it was his, his perfume. It’s pleasing to one’s sense of smell. But, no one could ever beat the scent of my Love, my form of relief. I, as their personal photographer, had raptured the slap of sunset together with their candid smiles. They then insisted to take photo of mine in a couple swing, my sky suddenly had turned into gray as I dreamt that you’re with me at this juncture. Collecting hidden meanings of our candid photographs that no one could ever perceive but only the two of us could.
I’ve felt a sudden sadness, madness and a bit of pain. Every little thing reminds me of you. I wish it was you. I wish you’re right here beside me, holding your hand so tight, making clings. Still, am dreaming for a long ride with you but then I realized, you’re prone to accident. Because you are my only escape. With you, depression would fall asleep. As I closed my eyes, I prayed that time would come, and I would steal you from your parents for just a long day. Just for day, time would be ours, would spent together. Where nothing nor no one would fester, would hinder our time.