A first time mom.

I became a mom at the age of 29.I am a first time mom to an eleventh month old son, turning one year old next month. He loves to see farm animals like dogs, chicken, ducks, rabbit, goat, carabaos and many more but then his favorite is the lizard he can even make the sound of it.And every night he always insists by pointing his fingers to our neighbor's terrace just to see the lizards. At his age today he can recognize some of the animals in his alphabet chart posted in our wall. He loves playing with his cousins.He loves babbling words just like he is talking to you.He is now learning how to stand and walk. Being a first time mom, there are lots of learnings and adjustments to be done. At first I did not know how to do some routines and the do's and dont's to a newborn baby but thanks to my family who are always there to guide and teach me. They were the one who taught me everything I need to know and do. In the first four month of my baby I was afraid to give him a bath. That is why my mother-in -law did the job until I became comfortable to do so. My baby love to take a bath that he even cry out loud when we draw him out of the water.

I did not breastfeeded him because I do not have enough breast milk and I planned to return to work when my leave date ends but then I ended up to be a full time mom and housewife as of today. Being a full time mom makes me learn the task faster than I thought.But then I did not avoided to feel irritated and awkward to some comments and rejection by other people most especially when it comes to my baby. We know that babies differ from one another, they have different hobbies, different wants and likes.And when it comes to growth,personality and development they are indeed different. That is why I feel so offended and upset to some of other peoples' comment about my baby, like if they are comparing their baby to mine. A part of it saddenned me.Just like its telling me that I did my best but then I guess my best wasn't good enough.

I also became more cautious observant and conscious to my baby.My husband even call me paranoid about it.I easily get anxious if I see or observe something new to my baby,just like when he got red spot and rashes on his skin.I also get upset and mad when he got his first wound in his toes.But when my son had a high fever it was my husband who became more paranoid telling me that we should take him yo the hospital in the middle of the night.And I got panic when I saw and watched a video of a baby having autism on youtube .I have seen in the video the signs and symptoms of a baby having autism which sometimes my son does.I even consulted and talked it to my husband about it but then he just ignored me and said I am just being paranoid about it.These "autism thing" stressed me out about a week may be.I could not sleep properly at night because I am overthinking what if my son is an autistic baby too.This matter just lost in my mind because I was just to busy a few weeks ago preparing for my son baptism.If you do not mine ,can comment below about your knowledge in autism .Just to calm myself and not to overthink of it.Thanks in advance.

There are things that made us to be an over acting parent,in the other hand it made us to be a responsible and an always ready parent.Things like this make me and my husband laugh when we have our short time conversation.

I have many plans for my son on the future.But for now I just want him to grow healthy and happy.I just want to enjoy every moment of his life and cherish all his milestone everyday