Before I Go to Bed IV
I don't really know what to say. I have more emotions than I have words. My heart is broken and it's breaking even more when I imagine how people are falling asleep not knowing what tomorrow will bring. Even for us in the Baltic States. Who knows what's gonna happen. These "silly little games" with people's lives.
Today I woke up not knowing, not suspecting anything. I've been working from home for a week now because of being in contact with a covid positive person. Isolation's been stressful because of the adjusting to remote work as well as fear from getting the covid itself. I've been getting up quite early to get ready, cook breakfast, disinfect everything, open up windows, and get back to my room before everyone else wakes up so I am not a threat to them. So, yeah, stressful. Woke up today for the same routine just to find out later that, well, Russia invaded Ukraine.
I've been listening to the radio this whole day just to hear the latest updates. I heard tremble of people's voices as if trying not to tear up. Tearing up myself. It's pain for the whole world. Well. Not whole. Anyway. People are scared. Do you know those Ukrainian flags showing up on profile pictures on Facebook? In the beginning, I thought that it was not helping anyone, why are people doing this? But then I understood the importance of creating awareness. Of not being silent in any way, shape, or form. Even a passive attitude is an attitude. I still don't know if it is helping someone who is fighting for their lives right now but it is at least reminding people of what's happening, not leaving anyone's eyesight. Like "Look, human, look, what is happening in the 21st century"!
Emotions? Anger. Hate. Fear. Compassion. Love. Pain. Stress.
I don't know how we can help as individuals if not spreading awareness and donating money (you would have to do thorough research for this, because, as I have heard, it's not that easy to send money to them, but again, I don't know, maybe it is, do your research). And, yes, this reminds me of one more thing we could do - this war is not happening only on the battlefield, this war is happening in the news and social media as well. Be aware of what information you read and share. Really. Double-check the sources. If we can't do anything else, then these options are something at least.
Before I go to bed, I would like you all to think about all the people in Ukraine going to bed. What could that look like? Are they even going to bed? I heard that some are sleeping in basements. And some sitting in cars, waiting in a long line to get out of there. Can you imagine that? Packing some stuff and leaving everything behind? Every neighbor, friend, relative, house, every "first kiss", every "this is where I met your father/mother". Every broken thing that one's father or mother fixed is now doomed to be destroyed for no reason at all.
My heart hurts. This hurts. I don't know what's coming for us. I just hope that you and I will have the chance to find a way to help, to find peace in our hearts eventually, and to live our well-deserved long lives.
Слава Україні!
BIGTB
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