She have never imagined that she have really underestimated love since. She would always say, she wouldn't be carried away with those cheesy feelings and would have the strong will to see compatibility right away by taking chances, then just can leave.
She would always quit on dates before because those guys only wants her undressed. She also couldn't understand why she doesn't have any interest dating her school mates or guy friends so yes, she would always encounter a perfect stranger. First boyfriend at 29, ghosted. Second at 31 and said goodbye when they had to be long distance.
The second was the longest for her cos it lasted for a year that's why her thoughts were all trauma while writing this all down.
She doesn't need them to come back to her. All she wants was clarity want went wrong and tell her what she missed so she can learn from it but why does she feel like guys have troubles opening up themselves. Isn't it that the truth really does hurt but that's how you become the real you.
She just wonders why most guys would quit if they're lonely or not tell if something is bothering them but they want their girl to do so otherwise. Indeed she finds it hard to be an overthinker and say what she really means literally.
Despite, I am very proud that you always gave it your all and never regretted taking a chance. Remember that your healing process starts today.
It's good to read something like this.