I have been a bch supporter for couples of month in India. But every thing is falling apart. God is so discriminate with me , No matter how hard I worked it's useless.
My life is of no use cause I am a big idiot that I born in India (why God) my heart beats for the America and maybe in my next life( if got) I will born in America.
I am in depression and I see no meaning left. A succidal thought is repeating in my mind.
I wanna leave India anyhow although the last way to hell is open.
I had started the project to establish bch ,
I even sold my house but these CHEAP Indian people don't wanna get upgraded.
I will even not have money to eat after sometime.
Now my country People i.e American's can ONLY help me.
Ps: We will meet in America, I m sorry 😣
Hey friend, trust me, I live in the US and it's not all rosy here. It has its own share of problems. You need to calm down, get an education, gain skills and find a job. I have a lot of friends in India right now and even though life is not paradise, they still love the place and wouldn't like to live anywhere else. Maybe change your perspective, start looking at the positive side of things. Try to meditate, calm down and think with an open mind!