February 22, 2022

11:48pm

Article #1

This will be my first article as I joined in this platform which was introduced by my eldest sister @Zhyne06 . I am amazed how she able to keep going in here and she told me she was so blessed joining this platform. So, I am here to join the family she kept on telling us as the blessing for her and her family.

I will share to you my thoughts and want to express my feelings also. At this moment, I am so sad of things and I want to be part of this platform as my sister told me that this platform helped her with his anxiety and depression coz she learned and found friends in here. Also, she able to learned from her friends also.

There are questions that I will answer. I always kept asking this myself.

The dream that until now I keep pushing to achieve.

My biggest dream in life is to finish my studies and to become a professional teacher someday just like my eldest sister. When I finished my high school last year 2015, I wasn't able to go to college after because my parents financial support is not enough as my father's income was quite not enough for our basic needs. That is why I decided to find ways. I used my skill that I learned from my Ate @Zhyne06 and when I was in high school. I am doing nail art design. My Ate taught me how to do manicure and pedicure, but she doesn't know how to do nail art. Maybe she knew but she didn't practiced. I then able to learned how to be thrifty and hardworking.

Four years after, year 2019, I continued my studies but sad as I need to enroll in Senior high school because I can't enroll to college coz I was graduated from the old curriculum. I then enrolled to Grade 11 and my strand is Humanities and Social Sciences (HUMMS). At the age of 20 I was with students who was younger than me but still it didn't hindrance my passion to finish my study. I finished my Senior High School last year 2021. And I proudly say that I did my best as I able to maintain high grades and be a consistent honors.

Is there still any chance that I can reach my goals in life?

Why I asked this to myself? Well, I just want to answer this with bravery and optimism.

When I graduated Senior High School, I was told by my Ate to send my papers to her. I send all the paper requirements that I need to pass. I followed her as she was so eager for me to went college. I was not even expecting coz my brother was also in college. I am afraid that we can't make it both as we know that financial is not enough. But still we tried. We were excited to know the result. I was positive and same with ate coz she said my grades are high. But then , when the result came, we didn't saw my name on the list. I was dumbfounded and lost hope. My Ate contacted one of the administrator in the school and we learned that my paper was not complete as my grades during Senior high school was not there. My Ate reviews my sent photos and truth to be told that my Grade 12 grade was not there. And it's my fault coz I didn't reviewed. I thought my papers were complete since my adviser send the papers to me.

I was crying the whole night. My Ate was also was in tears about of pity. She then hugged me tight and kept telling me to be positive and there still a better opportunity. But I already loss hope that time. And I already have another option already, and that is continue my passion in nail art design. And then I decided to go home. I don't want to give burden to my Ate. I thought we were fine that time but she was mad at me because our sister told her some weaved stories which is not true. I accepted my ate's anger and never talked back coz I am afraid of her and I respected her. I am just glad that she already knew the truth when she went home. And now where in good terms. But we both don't trust our sister who likes to make stories of us. Even our brother was mad at her for being like that.

But even though I wasn't able to continue my studies for now, I kept praying and hoping that someday, I will reach my dream in the right time. I always put in mind not to regret everything coz I know someday, I will able to have those dreams in my hands. I will still keep pushing and reaching my goals as I really want to payback what my parents have done for me. I want to payback their sacrifices, supports, understanding and love that for me. My parents are the best gift for me. Even how I gave disappointment on them for some decisions in life that I made, I am so grateful having them in my life. And I always thanks God with that.

My biggest dream for my parents?

All I want for them is to be happy. I dream for them to have good life and enjoy it while they can. I am afraid of them getting old but I know we are all going there. That is why I kept praying that they're still healthy and kicking when I able to reach my dream. As their youngest daughter, I want to be one of their children who can change their status life. We have bad experiences in life as we were poor. Our relatives don't like us and they degraded us. But someday, I know they will accept us when we can show them that we already made it. And I am persistent to do my best to make that dream come true.

That's all for today. Thank you guys for having me around here. Have a nice day.

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