When I was still in my elementary years, I always thought of what am I going to be when I grow up. I used to love Mathematics so I thought of taking up civil engineering. My mind was thrilled of the idea of being an engineer, not until I met Algebra on my sophomore years: that made me think---am I really going to be an engineer with my Math grades so poor. So with just that; engineering is cancelled out.
I soon started to find a new hobby. Where I was studying, journalism is one of the brands that our school is really proud of. So there it is, journalism--I tried out even though I only know basics. As expected I was not chosen. There are a lot of students who are really good I mean most them already made it to Nationals. I still continued writing even if I know to myself that I write poorly. Well, what can I say? I write to express. I also did not stop trying out even if I keep on failing. Here comes senior years, I tried out again. Luckily was chosen this time because the other student I'm competing with chose another extra curricular than journalism. That time, I also was competing for Editorial writing. I did not win. I also am not disappointed cause I was expecting it and man, Editorial writing is hard. However, the good thing is I found something that I like and I was also hoping that this will influence my course in the future.
Few months before graduating in high school, I have realized one thing. I still don't know what I'm going to be or what degree should I take when I go to college. A lot of schools already visited and introduced a lot of programs. By that time I was considering three courses: (1) Mass Communication (2) BS Psychology (3)AB Literature. I couldn't make up my mind and I was scared to present these ideas to my mom because there's a part of me that she will disapprove. So I kept quiet about this.
I graduated high school not knowing what step to take next. Obviously it will be going to college but the question is what degree? At this point, I already know that I'm stuck. The course was decided that day when my mom was doing laundry, apparently. She was asking me what should I take. I gathered all my courage and was about to answer her when I was cut off mid conversation. "You should be a teacher."
Honestly, I have felt my whole world crumble. I really felt bad that day but I did not show it to my mom. I have high respects to her so I responded, "...that would be great". I mean taking up BS Education is not a bad course but I really did not consider taking it. However, I still did my best knowing that my parents are working hard just for me to go to college. Fortunately, I finished my degree and passed the licensure exam.
After that, I said to myself. Maybe I am really meant to be a teacher. Life isn't really that good to us, two months after I passed the licensure exam and was preparing myself for the oath taking ceremony, my father passed away due to an accident. It is the most heartbreaking event that happened to my life.
With all these recent events, I need to forget myself and take a better stand as the eldest of the family. My three siblings are still studying, I need to make a move and find a job quick to support my family. I applied for an item in our division, unfortunately, I did not make it. I was really worried that time, I can't let my mom work alone and her income would not suffice. So I applied any jobs even though its not relating to teaching.
Fortunately, I was hired as a call center agent in a different region. I know it is really far; 11 hours travel from home. But I did not care as long as I can help that's my goal. I told my mom that I did found a job and I will be starting the following week. I can tell that she is really uncertain but she did supported me all the way through.
Now, I am working as call center agent for almost three years now. It's tiring but I need to help my siblings and my mom. Even though I am not working as a teacher for now but I know time will come for me to reach all my endeavors in life. I have been bent and broken but one thing is for sure I will keep on going no matter what it takes.